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- Rach456
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- 6y ago
I’ve been struggling with this recently, too. It’s extremely difficult and confusing. I haven’t even been diagnosed with OCD but I have talked to specialist and they agree that they are just intrusive thoughts. Just remember who you were before all of this and remind yourself that it’s just fear. The fear latched on to this because it’s what you find to be the most horrible thing in the world. What helps me is understanding that there’s a difference between my thoughts and my true self. The thoughts are always in the back of my mind and I’m always scared that they’ll give me a panic attack again or something, but I know who I am and you know who you are. Another helpful thing I found was understanding that the content of the thoughts do not matter, this is just what scares me the most. A lot of the time I’d be like “i would rather have any other obsession than this”, but no matter what the obsession is we’d still have the severe anxiety and fears. ERP helps, I haven’t come with a treatment plan yet but I’ll do self erp therapy sometimes. I’ll force myself to think I am a pedo and the thoughts are true, and I think it made me feel more rational and able to see through the lies anxiety is feeding me. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, I wish you the best of luck!
I have had POCD for several years now. I’m currently working on it in ERP therapy using scripting. Basically I have recorded myself saying my fear and have to listen to it for 30+ mins a day. This is why: you cannot be bored by a thought and terrified at the same time. Part of the reason it is scary is because it is a new thought. By listening over and over again the words lose their power.
The the OCD Mindfullness workbook as script prompts for this is you are interested in this
It’s by Jon Hershfield. Secret trick, go to Google books and then type in the title. Then you can search within the text (search pedophilia) and it will let you see the pages where that is mentioned. If you want to record yourself saying the script aloud there is an app on iPhone under extras called voice memo that allows you to make voice recordings
When my thoughts were at there worst, my panic attacks were horrendous! I was told by the councillor it is just a thought, and we’re is the evidence to support the thought? It was said to me, the distress you are feeling is because it upsets you so much! I have always describe my thoughts, like a Nightmare on repeat. I hope this helps
Yes, it sucks, but after a while I just ignored the thoughts.
Hi I’ve had similar thoughts about myself but now I suspect most close family members of being pedos. The problem is when was young I saw my parents have intercourse more than once. I’ve since convinced myself they must have enjoyed knowing I was there and I can’t get rid of the idea. I feel like it’s eating my brain. It has come up and I’ve never had a good explanation-I guess there isn’t one. I am so tired. I used to imagine adulthood as this far away place where these things wouldn’t bother me any more but they will not go away.
Yes. Luckily it’s almost gone. Best of luck!
How you getting of your pocd, @i can’t think of a username?
Getting rid of*
@WorriedDriver Where can I find that book? Who is it by?
Exposure and talking back
What is talking back?
Calling OCD out
Need some advice here as I feel like such a sick twisted person..I feel like I may have sexual intrusive thoughts ocd but sometimes I think it’s just me and my twisted brain- intrusive thoughts about my family members has turned into pedophilia ocd and what makes it worse is that I work with children. Lately I’ve been seeing sexual intrusive images of me sexually abusing young children normally male, and I am obviously distressed by them and I would never act on that but it makes me feel like I would actually do that cause of the feeling I would get and it’s all so confusing and scary cause I would never do that to a child. Please someone help that has maybe been through a similar experience?
POCD TW. Need some help. Hey guys! I hope everyone is doing well as of lately. I’ve been doing ~decent~ better than I was say 4-5 months ago. Due to the Lexapro I’ve been on it’s definitely made a dent. But everyday is still a struggle. Lately I feel as if I’m faking all of my POCD. Everything started with one particular child. I don’t know exactly what, but it started to make me feel like I had feelings or something like that. I hated it. I’ve been an anxious mess since. The thing that’s bothering me is I don’t see much online about people’s OCD particularly targeting one person. I also have it about other children in general. But it’s heavily influenced by one. There is an hour that goes by that I’m not thinking something about the child, sexual or not sexual it can just be general things. My thoughts tell me I want to be around this child, they tell me to walk by her so she will notice me. I hate this and want this to end. I want to go back to myself in September when I was going on dates with girls my age, and thinking about that. I would NEVER hurt a child. Never wanted too. I just need support. I went to a OCD specialist back in January who told me she definitely thought I had OCD. I haven’t been able to go back because of my work schedule. But I want too. I just want to feel normal. Can anyone relate? Idk. I’m just depressed again.
Im sorry for a long post but I'm very scared Prior to few weeks ago I didn't have any sexual thoughts regarding children EVER, and if I did then I really can't remember. But ever since I started worrying about the possibility that I might be attracted to them, I just felt severely awful. And it's getting worse and worse overtime. What started as just me worrying that I might be attracted to kids has now turned into a deep belief that there is a very dark and real part of me that is, in fact, a pedophile. I even started having intrusive but pleasurable fantasies about children and it's driving me absolutely sick. I really wish that it's just a very extreme form of POCD and not actually me turning into a monster, but with each passing day my hope is fading away, replaced with pure disgust in myself and unwillingness to live like this. Has anyone here ever went through something similar?
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