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I’ve been struggling with this recently, too. It’s extremely difficult and confusing. I haven’t even been diagnosed with OCD but I have talked to specialist and they agree that they are just intrusive thoughts. Just remember who you were before all of this and remind yourself that it’s just fear. The fear latched on to this because it’s what you find to be the most horrible thing in the world. What helps me is understanding that there’s a difference between my thoughts and my true self. The thoughts are always in the back of my mind and I’m always scared that they’ll give me a panic attack again or something, but I know who I am and you know who you are. Another helpful thing I found was understanding that the content of the thoughts do not matter, this is just what scares me the most. A lot of the time I’d be like “i would rather have any other obsession than this”, but no matter what the obsession is we’d still have the severe anxiety and fears. ERP helps, I haven’t come with a treatment plan yet but I’ll do self erp therapy sometimes. I’ll force myself to think I am a pedo and the thoughts are true, and I think it made me feel more rational and able to see through the lies anxiety is feeding me. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, I wish you the best of luck!
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I have had POCD for several years now. I’m currently working on it in ERP therapy using scripting. Basically I have recorded myself saying my fear and have to listen to it for 30+ mins a day. This is why: you cannot be bored by a thought and terrified at the same time. Part of the reason it is scary is because it is a new thought. By listening over and over again the words lose their power.
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The the OCD Mindfullness workbook as script prompts for this is you are interested in this
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It’s by Jon Hershfield. Secret trick, go to Google books and then type in the title. Then you can search within the text (search pedophilia) and it will let you see the pages where that is mentioned. If you want to record yourself saying the script aloud there is an app on iPhone under extras called voice memo that allows you to make voice recordings
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When my thoughts were at there worst, my panic attacks were horrendous! I was told by the councillor it is just a thought, and we’re is the evidence to support the thought? It was said to me, the distress you are feeling is because it upsets you so much! I have always describe my thoughts, like a Nightmare on repeat. I hope this helps
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Yes, it sucks, but after a while I just ignored the thoughts.
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Hi I’ve had similar thoughts about myself but now I suspect most close family members of being pedos. The problem is when was young I saw my parents have intercourse more than once. I’ve since convinced myself they must have enjoyed knowing I was there and I can’t get rid of the idea. I feel like it’s eating my brain. It has come up and I’ve never had a good explanation-I guess there isn’t one. I am so tired. I used to imagine adulthood as this far away place where these things wouldn’t bother me any more but they will not go away.
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Yes. Luckily it’s almost gone. Best of luck!
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How you getting of your pocd, @i can’t think of a username?
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Getting rid of*
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@WorriedDriver Where can I find that book? Who is it by?
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Exposure and talking back
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What is talking back?
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Calling OCD out
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Let me start by prefacing that I developed ocd as postpartum ocd after having my first child. I had harm and pocd. I had it on and off for years and then it just eventually went away completely for many years until recently after a stressful life event. Now that it’s back it again targets my children but now my grandchildren also. It’s been horrible and makes me pull away from them. Last night my 6 year old granddaughter threw up in the car when my daughter was about to take her home so my daughter brought her back in the house and asked me to clean her up while she cleaned her car. I had some anxiety about it because of my ocd but I couldn’t say no to helping so I opened the bathroom door and my granddaughter was standing in her underwear waiting for me to clean and dress her. Everything was fine and normal but then for some reason, I have no idea why, I looked down at her chest area. I immediately got so upset and didn’t know why I looked there and now my ocd is saying it’s because i’m a monster. I tried to tell myself it’s just normal human behavior when someone is standing there naked that you look where you shouldn’t simply because it’s just there in front of you but I feel horrible. I don’t feel any inappropriate way about her or any child but my ocd is saying it was inappropriate. Has anyone else been through this?
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It’s like my brain is doing everything in its power to convince myself and also justify an attraction to teenagers. I hate myself. I don’t want to be this person, but what if I don’t have a choice. How do I get these thoughts out of my head permanently. I feel like my life will never be the same if they don’t leave forever. I can’t tell what is a real desire and what OCD is trying to convince me is a real desire. I can’t do this every day for the rest of my life. I don’t want to hurt anyone, or I don’t think I do but how do I even tell anymore. This might not even be OCD at this point, I can’t separate my thoughts from OCD thoughts I think because I’ve had OCD for so long so it all just feels like me. Maybe it is me. TMI but I haven’t pleasured myself in like a week because my libido is so low now, I don’t want to do it with these thoughts.
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so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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