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I’ve been struggling with this recently, too. It’s extremely difficult and confusing. I haven’t even been diagnosed with OCD but I have talked to specialist and they agree that they are just intrusive thoughts. Just remember who you were before all of this and remind yourself that it’s just fear. The fear latched on to this because it’s what you find to be the most horrible thing in the world. What helps me is understanding that there’s a difference between my thoughts and my true self. The thoughts are always in the back of my mind and I’m always scared that they’ll give me a panic attack again or something, but I know who I am and you know who you are. Another helpful thing I found was understanding that the content of the thoughts do not matter, this is just what scares me the most. A lot of the time I’d be like “i would rather have any other obsession than this”, but no matter what the obsession is we’d still have the severe anxiety and fears. ERP helps, I haven’t come with a treatment plan yet but I’ll do self erp therapy sometimes. I’ll force myself to think I am a pedo and the thoughts are true, and I think it made me feel more rational and able to see through the lies anxiety is feeding me. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, I wish you the best of luck!
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I have had POCD for several years now. I’m currently working on it in ERP therapy using scripting. Basically I have recorded myself saying my fear and have to listen to it for 30+ mins a day. This is why: you cannot be bored by a thought and terrified at the same time. Part of the reason it is scary is because it is a new thought. By listening over and over again the words lose their power.
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The the OCD Mindfullness workbook as script prompts for this is you are interested in this
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It’s by Jon Hershfield. Secret trick, go to Google books and then type in the title. Then you can search within the text (search pedophilia) and it will let you see the pages where that is mentioned. If you want to record yourself saying the script aloud there is an app on iPhone under extras called voice memo that allows you to make voice recordings
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When my thoughts were at there worst, my panic attacks were horrendous! I was told by the councillor it is just a thought, and we’re is the evidence to support the thought? It was said to me, the distress you are feeling is because it upsets you so much! I have always describe my thoughts, like a Nightmare on repeat. I hope this helps
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Yes, it sucks, but after a while I just ignored the thoughts.
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Hi I’ve had similar thoughts about myself but now I suspect most close family members of being pedos. The problem is when was young I saw my parents have intercourse more than once. I’ve since convinced myself they must have enjoyed knowing I was there and I can’t get rid of the idea. I feel like it’s eating my brain. It has come up and I’ve never had a good explanation-I guess there isn’t one. I am so tired. I used to imagine adulthood as this far away place where these things wouldn’t bother me any more but they will not go away.
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Yes. Luckily it’s almost gone. Best of luck!
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How you getting of your pocd, @i can’t think of a username?
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Getting rid of*
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@WorriedDriver Where can I find that book? Who is it by?
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Exposure and talking back
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What is talking back?
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Calling OCD out
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I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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Hello 😭, so uhm I’m kind of in the point of my POCD where I’m just tired. I just need to get it all out and get some sort of instruction of how to just idk live? So for me my childhood is pretty blurry. I have a few real event blended with false memory events there but other than that I’m a csa victim. And the way I tried to cope? By fetishising nyself, making CP of myself, seeing my life goal as being used, raped and a prostitue. Self destructive behaviour through talking to pedophiles and seeing my only worth as if I was sexually attractive. Which made me kind of numb to CP as a coping mechanism I guess. And heres’s where my main event of REOCD/false memory ocd comes in. I have a few events in my life when I’ve accidentally stumbled across CP ish mangas or just plan abuse and not had a big reaction. Some of them I even liked the story. And my ocd LOVES playing with it, making me truly believe I enjoy and get of from CP. I’ve also had quite a few dreams. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting triggered by something I did in the dream. Which I now can’t figure out if it actually was a dream. But also moments overall where I’ve unintentionally touched my private part while my siblings are in the room or when I found a guy 2 years younger than me pretty in 4th grade. Or a few of my only friends who turned out to be younger than me, and I had talked about sexual things (like fan fictions, my trauma ect) with them. AHSHB I absolutely hate ruminating and I’m tired so so so so so so tried 😭 idk help me? Please TT
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