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I didn't have a choice - I tried to avoid therapists for a long time because I thought they would think I was dangerous and take my child away. But when I started to get suicidal for the first time in my life I knew I had to do something about it so I took a leap of faith and got into an intensive OCD outpatient program. When I opened up to my therapist she almost yawned and said - That's a very common OCD theme nowadays. She was not surprised at all. She knew what to do and it helped a lot. That's why it is important to go to an OCD Expert and not a regular therapists - they won't know how to help you. I bounced around lots of therapists who did more damage because they would scare me more or reassure me.
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Avoidance, confessing. Ruminating, checking mentally that I don't really get a body reaction while watching it, self assurance: Like "No, I don't like that", etc.
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I'm not certain so take what I say with a grain salt but maybe volunteer work with kids of some sort or baby sitting
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I have that too and it depends on the levels and the specifics of your obsessions. For example, my obsession is not so much that I will harm a child but that people will think I did and they will accuse me - So my therapist had me started with some imaginal exposures about being arrested or accused. I also had to watch videos on people being accused. It depends on the levels of distress they cause. If you are scared that you may be attracted to children you might start with watching pictures or videos with tons of children playing. Then add up by watching videos of children swimming. The key is not to do compulsions, which is the tricky part.
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What would the compulsions look like
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I know avoidance is one of them
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Whatever we use to check, control or diminish anxiety is a compulsion.
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I tried doing what you suggested, it was really hard..
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It is really hard, I know! That's why it is a good idea to work with an OCD expert on a hierarchy and on recording the level of distress and in how long the level of distress went down. This app has that. For example, if those are too hard you can start with the thought "I am a pedophile" without compulsions. Check your level of distress and how long it takes to diminish (at least in half) without doing compulsions. As you progress it will take less and less time. My first exposure was just to repeat the word "Child molester" without compulsions. That was my level 2 exposure
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I get those thoughts and they are incredibly hard to cope with because I work at a family restaurant. How did you open up to your therapist about your pocd?
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Make sure your therapist is an OCD Expert (Not everyone is) who has treated many people with OCD successfully.
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I feel like I need to do what you did
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Mine tells me avoidance is the answer
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I haven’t told her about my pedophilic obsession but I told her about my harm intrusive thoughts
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I know how awful it feels and I wish I could tell you a lot of things but that would be reassurance only and it makes OCD worse. They only thing I can tell you is that there is hope for you. Don't give into the compulsions even if that leads you to panic. Don't feed the OCD monster anymore.
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Your therapist told you that avoidance is the answer?!!!! Wow
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I had lots of harm intrusive thoughts too. Ocd is like a plague.
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My themes switch and I’ve been able to notice, sometimes it makes racist thoughts pop in, and when it sees I won’t give in, it changes it to pedophilic ones
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Oh man - I can relate. Sounds like the podcast I was listening to the other day was saying - It looks like we suffer from the fears of all the taboos in today's society: pedophilia, racism, psychopathy, sexual harassment and aggression, etc. We are so scared of being society outcasts. Hang in there. ;)
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You live in the USA, I assume.
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Yes. And I love talking about social justice so I’m not surprised, I have that theme
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Yeap - we fear that we will become what we hate most. Brain's like: "I'm on it"
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Sometimes it even tries to “mix” the obsessions to double the pain
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Yeap. It sounds like you are doing what is called "flooding" and "self-punishing". Lots of mindfulness, my friend.
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I am doing ERP by my own because I can’t afford therapy. I exposed myself to babies photos online, changing diapers videos, baby genitalia . All was done with google . I honestly feel like I am predator by viewing these photos even though they are just babies. I seen also a picture on research article of a female patient she is a minor and they have done sexual abuse check on her . The image was so triggering, it was literally a vagina. ℹ developed lots if obsessions with increased groinal responses. And now I fear that I enjoyed all what I have seen.
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What would I do for ERP if my OCD says because I didn’t do something correctly or remember something I will have panic attacks that don’t end?
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I have, alongside my other OCD themes, an intense fear of insomnia. Although this has been improving somewhat — partly thanks to medication and The sleep school on YouTube — I still find myself ruminating about it throughout the day when I have something important the next day, I get stuck in the fear that everything will be ruined — for both myself and others — because my mind is so preoccupied with sleep. + a fear of depression coming back. It honestly feels like a form of sleep OCD. I'm not sure if that’s an official thing, but that’s how it feels to me. A form of erp is the idea of befriending wakefulness. That works great tbh. Things like sleep hygiene, meditation, etc. — tend to backfire because my OCD latches onto them and becomes too obsessive about “doing them right.” I’m genuinely wondering whether ERP — for example in the form of a worst-case-scenario audio loop (imaginal exposure) — could be helpful in this case. I’m hesitant to start unless I know it can actually help. Is there anyone who has experience with this or thoughts about it? I’m not looking for reassurance or tips to fall asleep — only for ideas on how ERP might be applied in this situation.
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