false memory rocd

@alliecatz ur bio resonates with how I feel a lot

@cs223 Same- Im convinced i cheated during a bad HOCD period and just have no recollection

@Anonymous omg literally i had no concern on if i cheated on my bf, but ever since he asked if i did bc i told his ex i did while they were together as a lie so i could seem “over him” but even then i knew it was a lie, but ever since he asked, my rocd SPIKED and im constantly worried i cheated or smthng and “don’t remember” or my brain “suppressed” the “memory” and it just sucks bc i love him a lot and i showed him off ALOT back then, but then my ocd says “well if u didn’t then why are u worrying?” it’s like my own personal bully in my brain lol

@Anonymous i go through the exact same and it’s mental torture

@cs223 I’m so sorry you’re going through that. We almost broke up yesterday because of it and now we are having to put the pieces back together. It had gotten to be too much for her and she had to confide in someone so now her mom thinks I cheated and doesn’t like me as much. I told her I am doing everything I can to combat it. Before I found NOCD I literally thought these thoughts that consumed me and gave me no peace was just me being crazy. Now I have hope knowing other people experience it.

@mackattack0216 omg literally and my bf will ask me abt smthng, or my mind will remember something , and ill answer and remember it correctly the first time, then ocd latches onto it and starts making me think i lied to him… or i cheated, and i tell him all my ocd thoughts and he understands but it makes him overthink and then i end up asking stuff like “oh would you still be with me would u forgive me would u still love me etc. if i did this” and it makes me sound guilty but it’s like my brain is doing anything to find relief and i end up searching through messages, photos, anything to see if i cheated on him and even if i don’t find anything i still have “what if” thoughts

@cs223 I LITERALLY WENT THROUGH ALL OF MY OLD DELETED MESSAGES ON MY ICLOUD TO SEE AND ALL MY OLD SNAPCHAT MEMORIES AND IM LIKE WELL I COULD JUST BE MISSING SOMETHING OR I COULD HAVE DELETED IT PERMANENTLY

@mackattack0216 OMG i found some random guy on my sc from ages ago i dont even know who he is so initially i was like “mustve added by mistake” NOW IM CONVINCED I CHEATED WITH HIM AND I DONT even remember what his name was!

@Anonymous it makes you feel crazy i swear 😂

@Anonymous SOOO HOW ARE WE GOING TO BATTLE THIS GUYS

@mackattack0216 I KNOW- we can BEAT THIS! We have to🫣😂

@mackattack0216 literally!!! i downloaded my Instagram data, Snapchat data, went through my all messages with people to make sure i didn’t do anything wrong. and sometimes i have done smthng wrong tht i “confessed” to him but even after i confessed it still feels weird like i didn’t even do these things.. idk it’s just weird and confusing it’s hard to explain. and if i try and remember something from ages ago if i don’t remember exactly my ocd fills it in with a HORRIBLE false memory that feels super real. and it’s one worry after the other. and the guilt feels real which convinces me even more that im a cheater or something

@cs223 right like you will find something that is a little wrong and then you feel like there is more and then you create the worst possible scenario and believe that and end up admitting that too!

@cs223 let me know if you’d like to chat more, is there pm on this app?

@mackattack0216 there’s no pm on this app, but i have a fake page on instagram called ajjdbajaj u can dm it and ill send u my actual page