- Date posted
- 2y ago
Tired
I’m so tired of my ocd right now. I keep having to scrunch my eyes,nose, mouth, fingers over and over and over until it feels right and I’m so tired of it. It’s so frustrating and exhausting☹️
I’m so tired of my ocd right now. I keep having to scrunch my eyes,nose, mouth, fingers over and over and over until it feels right and I’m so tired of it. It’s so frustrating and exhausting☹️
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
I'm having awful stomach pain and nausea and it's really worrying me and scaring me
I started dealing with OCD when I became fixated on health issues, particularly the fear of contracting a life-threatening disease. If I experienced any kind of medical symptom, no matter how small, that even remotely hinted at something potentially fatal, it would drive me crazy, and I couldn’t stop obsessing over it. Then one day, I started having intrusive thoughts about accidentally hitting someone with my car, and I would end up driving in circles to check if I had. Eventually, I found myself overwhelmed by a flood of new obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One day, while I was at the park, a squirrel came near me, and for some reason, I felt like it attacked me. I Googled it and learned that squirrels could carry rabies, which spiraled me into a deep fear of rabies. I became consumed with the thought I received a bite from a squirrel, raccoon, or bat any time I’m in areas that trigger me. It started off only being inside then transferred to even being in my own home. This made me obsess over every physical sensation in my body, compulsively checking to make sure nothing was wrong. One compulsion that I hated the most would to be putting rubbing alcohol on me to make sure that I had no open wounds. Every day feels like I’m walking around in a fog of anxiety, constantly worrying that I won’t even make it to old age. Sometimes, it gets so overwhelming that I just want it all to end. It stresses me so bad at times to where my brain feels like I’ve been studying all day.
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