Username: Going to fight OCD

Date posted: 1y ago

Intrusive thoughts SO-OCD

Curious to hear how other peoples intrusive thoughts come up in regards to this theme? I constantly have an “I’m gay” replaying in my head and it’s the first thing that sometimes plays in my head when I wake up. I can’t tell if this is an intrusive thought or if I’m just in denial with myself. It doesn’t really give me anxiety anymore like it used to. More sadness/ state of depression and just overall annoyance. I’m in a relationship and when I started to date my current bf is when all of this came up for me. Curious to hear other people’s experiences with the kind of thoughts they have. Granted I have been dealing with this since about Nov of 2022 or maybe even earlier and it feels like I’ve had an array of intrusive thoughts. Quite frankly I also don’t have an OCD diagnosis but a previous therapist I had(not an OCD specialist) told me that I just have GAD with OCD personality and traits.

Username: blazedblazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

This was my experience too! I randomly got an intrusive thought one day that said “what if you don’t like men?”, and that’s when I started to spiral. I thought about being a lesbian pretty much all day, everyday, and was having breakdowns regularly. The levels of distress I had were severe for months. But now I can manage it better, and my mood has improved since then. I still get flare ups sometimes but overall, the thoughts just linger in the back of my head, and I experience depression too, especially when I’m fixated on it. So you’re not alone! I definitely can say that it does get better, but it will take some time and patience ❤️‍🩹 I’d also highly encourage you to see a doctor or an OCD specialist so they can help you, and to see if you meet the criteria for a diagnosis.

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@blazed I think mine started a little more gradually. The guys I were dating just weren’t working out for me and my family kept asking me why.. lol I also was scared a little they were gonna conclude that I was gay. One day my brothers friend also made a comment that I was lesbian and in that moment I got super anxious. I think it was downhill from there and I was truly convinced I was and I reacted that way because he “figured” me out I guess. Lol so my anxiety attaches to that. Thank you for all your kind words!! I plan on making an appointment :)

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Mamba24 I have had this from friends as well and it sent me but I was a bit younger than when I developed soocd fully so I guess it was a good and bad thing.

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

I also want to add that this has been an everyday thing for me. Some days it’s more in the back of my mind, but I’m usually thinking about being lesbian every single day and that I’m lying to myself and everyone around me, especially my boyfriend. Is this supposed to be something you constantly think about? It’s weird because I feel like I’ve had other themes of OCD earlier on in life and it would come and go. This however has been constant.

Username: hellopeoplehellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 1y ago

@Mamba24 Hi there. I’m sorry for your experiences with so-ocd. The goal is to keep our intrusive thoughts just floating around but not grasping into them as some source of truth, I’m glad you have days where it isn’t all consuming. Exposures really do help and writing scripts!

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@hellopeople Hi, thank you! What are the scripts you are referring to?

Username: hellopeoplehellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 1y ago

@Mamba24 Hi, scripts can be used as an exposure. Writing out a worst case scenario and then reading it and sitting with the anxiety, it can be practiced with a therapist in ERP

Username: Mike_dMike_d

Date posted: 1y ago

Laughing because that’s what mine does as well. Just says that all day 😂 makes me sad, down and unmotivated

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Michael F Lol sometimes I laugh at myself when I have certain thoughts😂 yesss I feel you on the sad and down part. Sometimes I just wish I was asleep so I don’t have to deal with it (but sometimes I even have dreams about it lol).

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 1y ago

I think when people have OCD they get so hyper-focused on not wanting to have a certain thought or feeling, that it is there more and more frequently. Try your best to not engage with it- not try and solve it or do anything with it- they are just words, just thoughts- you don't need to 'do' anything.https://youtu.be/VYht-guymF4

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@NOCD Therapist - Stacy Q. Thank you! I will try not engaging with it but it has been a little difficult lately

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 1y ago

@Mamba24 - It definitely can be! But you can train your brain!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Hello my mind does the same thing as well. In fact, it will randomly feel like I am going to come out to my family one day while talking to them on the phone.

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous I feel you on this. I actually came out to my cousins a while ago and they were super supportive but it still didn’t feel right. It’s weird. My cousin also told me to go experiment, but I just don’t want to.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Mamba24 Oo with the experimentation...I already did so in my younger years and I realized that I wouldn't like it if it wasn't the ocd wanting the certainty.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

unfortunately for me my mind is going through a period where it is telling me that I need to experiment to find out what I truly am because I will never know

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous Yes I have this same thing. The what if sex is better with a girl or what if this feels better? I’m constantly comparing it with my current experience and it’s just a nightmare.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Mamba24 Same. It is terrible because I know it is something that I am not interested in but my mind is like what if??

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous For me it’s even harder because I’ve always watched w/w p*rn and have enjoyed it but have never thought I wanted to do that in real life so quite frankly I’m confused to an extreme. Lol

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@Mamba24 Ooo....when i used to watch porn too I did watch it one day out of curiosity and masturbated to it which made me feel guilty and started this whole cycle

Username: Going to fight OCDGoing to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous I feel like I started watching that kind earlier on so now I can’t remember if it ever made me feel guilty lol

Username: missbluesky

Date posted: 3y ago

I feel like I can’t identify intrusive thoughts…I’m just constantly trying to figure my sexuality out. Like, it’s the first thing on my mind in the morning and the last thing before I go to bed and I’ve been diagnosed with OCD several times but like??? Why do some people know they’re having “1-3 thoughts per hour” if I can’t even identify them?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: perezmt

Date posted: 2y ago

Sexual Orientation OCD

I’m a lesbian and I constantly have intrusive thoughts that being who I am is bad morally. Also, feel like sometimes I am attracted to men but I know I am not. Is there anyone with a similar experience? Whenever the thoughts come I feel stressed. Sorry, if Thai triggered anyone.

Username: Going to fig...

Date posted: 1y ago

SOOCD

Not officially diagnosed with OCD, but will I ever get over this or is it just a part of my life now. Have been constantly having thoughts every single day for almost a year it feels like. There has barely been times where I’m not thinking “I’m gay” or having it in the back of my mind. This just brings extreme guilt as I’m in a relationship. Not sure what to do. Everything from my past is proof. This morning I was just bombarded with “ I’m gay” “im gay”

Sexual Orientation OCD

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