First of all I’m quite worried about this, I don’t wanna be psychotic but it’s strange, whenever I see something online about an old person being hurt or babies I get this weird sadistic feeling almost like I’m glad. I was a bad kid and did awful things that I would never do now. But I hate it. I don’t wanna feel like that. I feel crazy and idk what to do, but it’s like genuine. I’m worried
Yeah that’s OCD. If you were evil you wouldn’t be worried about it and you wouldn’t be on this app. Evil people like their thoughts, want their thoughts. If you have an “evil” thought and don’t want it or are scared by it that’s just OCD. Don’t fight the thought, it won’t turn you evil. It’ll help calm your brain.
Would an evil person question if they’re evil?
@ConcernedStudent But this is a fact, do you think I can change the way I feel?
If you feel that way, why would you be questioning it?
@ConcernedStudent Because I don’t want to be a bad person, but this real
@ConcernedStudent Do you think I can change it
@gam1278 the fact that you are stressing about being a bad person already means that you aren’t. bad people don’t get anxious or stressed about being bad. but just a heads up looking for reassurance can be harmful sometimes and send you deeper into the hole:( but it’s good that you are being aware that you’re not a bad person!! hang on in there i’ve also been in the same loop wondering if i’m a bad person or not but this just means i am a good person which SO ARE YOU!!! just let the thoughts flow in and out trying to stop them will make you more anxious you’re doing great:)
People are complicated. It’s easy to think we can only be “good” or “bad.” This is frankly something I’ve been struggling with. And the truth is I have made mistakes in my past (and I’m not talking about my OCD/intrusive thoughts). I’ve been mean to people. Indifferent to people. Didn’t help people. And it sucks looking back on it. But there’s also a tomorrow. A lot of life left. Start with one nice gesture
@ConcernedStudent Thank you
I’m not a psychiatrist, but as someone with intrusive thoughts, I feel like our thoughts dial our senses and rules of morality on us to an eleven. Any slip up or immortal thought (whatever that is to you) can feel like a nail in the coffin of “I’m a bad person.” But that’s something you get to decide on. You can’t control what other people think of you (again, something I’m struggling with). But you can decide to try to do nice things, help when you can, etc. You are human
OCD attacks what you value the most! So intrusive thoughts about babies and old people likely means you care deeply about the well-being of those demographics. You are NOT your thoughts
I don’t want to be like this
Does this mean I’m terrible, no one’s replied
I have these intrusive thoughts that I know are morally wrong. The thoughts say that I want for a certain bad to happen to someone. Such as rape. I know that I do not hope or wish such a thing on anyone, but it feels like my mind is trying to force me to agree with hoping or wishing whatever bad thing on a specific person. After the thoughts have been there for a while, I feel ashamed and feel like a psycho.
I know that one of the things they do is like animal cruelty and that really disturbs me. I fear I might have done something when I was a child and I just don't remember it. A memory popped up right now. I remeber once when I was really really young a snake appeared in my street. Everybody around went to see it, I think it was kinda small I don't remember that well, the only thing I remember is that I think I was riding my bike and a man killed the snake and to make sure it was dead I I rode the bike over it. Does that make me a psychopath??? I never hurted any animal and I never wanted to. When I was young I even wanted to be a veterinary. But does this makes me be a psychopath??!??!
I wanna cry, when I was a kid,like a toddler. 4-6 maybe. I used to do horrible things to my cat, I choked it twice.my bdother did too if I remember right, but still. Ik this isn’t false memory. I’m 100% sure I ddi this as a kid. But now looking back at it I’m like wtf??? But I’m scared because whenever I see animals hurt now or accidentally hurt my animal that thing pops up in my head again and I feel weird. I can’t explain the feeling but it bothers me so bad. I want to cry. I don’t like this, i rlly feel like I’m a bad person. Idek if this is ocd. What if I genuinely have mental problems???
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