- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Progress!
I decided to make a list of all the things I can do that I haven’t been able to do in so long. I’ve felt a bit defeated the last couple days, until I realized I’ve made so much progress and accomplished so much. - eat food with my fingers without worrying my fingers are contaminated. - drink water at a normal pace instead of chugging it without worrying it’s been tampered with - cry without worrying it means I’m suicidal - have a pain in my body without worrying it means death - feel sad without worrying it means depression - feel happy without worrying it means mania - see things out of the corner of my eye without worrying I’m hallucinating - get harm thoughts without worrying it means I’m going to harm someone - went to bed without peeing 3 times first - fell asleep before brushing my teeth and didn’t worry my teeth are going to fall out - I’ve tried new food without worrying I’d be anaphylactic to something in it - accidentally ate half a raw chicken sandwich because I didn’t dissect it and inspect it before eating it (I didn’t get sick, I was fine). I also didn’t Google the symptoms of salmonella or worry I was going to die - don’t feel the need to check my backseats when I get to work incase I forgot a kid in the back - I don’t need to rinse out every dish I use before using it - havent had a panic attack in a month - I can do dishes without background noise - I can sit in silence I still have a lot of work left to do. But these things I haven’t been able to do in so long. If you’re in the midst of ERP and you feel hopeless, you’ve got this. You can handle it. It sucks, it’s shitty, it’s hard. But it’s worth it!