I do a lot of compulsions at work and it’s exhausting. I don’t want to call off but I just don’t feel like dealing w my ocd. I know I’m playing safe by calling off. I know erp is important in the journey but today I really just don’t feel like it.
I took a week off because I couldn’t stop flinching back every few minutes from intrusive thoughts and it looked like I’d been physically hit and would sometimes scream, which is obviously alarming to witness. I was able to stabilize/rest my brain and make a plan to break bad habits and set up supports and accountability moving forward. I feel more rested and equipped to deal with going back tomorrow, even though it’s still scary. Definitely not a long-term fix by itself, though! I think of it as taking a breather from a marathon.
I understand your struggle. I don’t know if your getting counseling with NOCD or for OCD. One thing I have found that helps in dealing with OCD is realizing no matter what the “theme” is it is just about doubt. Did I turn the light off? Did I just insult them by what I said? Did I just hit someone with my car? Am I …? Etc. That helps me because I know what to hone in on - doubt. I also know that the more I let OCD direct my life the smaller my world will get. No one can make the choice for me. Believe me I have shed tears and sweat from anxiety saying “No” to OCD. But the more you and I say “No” to OCD today will make next month that much more easier. I know you can say “No” to OCD. The only difference between me and you is what triggers us. You can say “No” to OCD 👍.
It’s important to take a break sometimes so you don’t burn out. You have to do what’s best for you and your mental health.
Get you. Take care and don't blame yourself. There are lots of ups and downs. Hang in there, you are not alone.
Thank you guys so much! I decided to go to work. I can’t let ocd win.
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@Monitica Believe me. I fully understand the struggle. I hope you have an encouraging day 👍.
It's too much for me right now, and I'm really struggling. Like really bad. Right now, um going to just focus on letting thoughts go, like... IDK MINI ERP? I'm going to try not to analyze them. It's too much for me, trying to figure out what's a compulsion, what's ocd, what's not... I've gotten worse, I is thinking. I don't know if I'm doing it wrong or something, and I have a therapist on NOCD and stuff, but it's just not working. Not now, at least
My OCD is telling me I should write a long email to the guy in my past who I’ve been obsessing with and use the Hurricane Ian hitting Florida as an excuse to start a conversation because his family lives there. Or maybe use the “delay” feature on Outlook to send the email then delete it, so it won’t send. OR ask one of our engineers here if we have an internal system where we can unsend an email to someone. I feel so much anxiety right now, I feel lightheaded and nervous and shaky. I have this slight feeling of throwing up. Note that the guy and I only talked for about a month, and haven’t been in contact. He did say happy birthday through a fast click greeting feature on LinkedIn last year but that’s it. We do not have contact right now. But my OCD wants me to contact him or at least ATTEMPT to contact him but if I delete the email before it sends then I get that huge relief of overcoming something, then I “never have to do it again.” A part of me wants to know what that would feel like when I do all these things. It’s at my workplace too so… I need help because I’m trying to avoid my workplace now by taking half days for the rest of the week.
how do you all deal with going to work while having ocd? i have to go to work tomorrow for the first time in a while and i’ve been obsessing really bad the past couple of weeks. i’m scared i won’t actually be able to function or anything because all i’ve been doing every day all day has been obsessing. i’m really nervous. any advice will be appreciated.
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