Having a hard time disregarding

So now it's switched to sending me images of women either doing graphic sexual acts on each other, or doing them on me! (Followed by a groinal response). The content is starting to bother me less, but the sensations I get after these thoughts (grounal), is what worries me?! I have never had a desire to "experiment" with woman because women are only aesthetically attractive to ME, its never really been sexual. So WHY do I keep sexualizing random women on the street?! On top of this, I feel like I've been noticing men less since this started about a year ago.

Username: blazedblazed

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

My SO-OCD started off exactly like this. I also had sexual intrusive images with groinal responses and it stressed me out so much. I got past it eventually, but I had to come to the realization that my intrusive thoughts aren’t my true desires. OCD knows I’m terrified of being gay, so it’s going to keep sending false alarms bc its job is to make you miserable. OCD will distort your reality and make you notice things that you wouldn’t normally pay attention or give importance to. It’s looking for anything to latch onto but the good thing is, you can take away its power by accepting the thoughts (even if you’re anxious), and continue living life regardless of what it tells you.

Username: ChristineKJ ChristineKJ

Date posted: 1y ago

You aren’t alone! I came through this theme and actually am dealing with a slight flare up now. The best thing you can do is dig into the ERP, despite how hard it is. You can focus on sitting with the groinal sensation while doing imaginable exposures or watching something triggering and allowing it to happen without assigning meaning to it. This one is challenging but the more you do it, the less and less your anxiety will start up around it!

Username: MossMateMossMate

Date posted: 1y ago

You sound just like me - I used to worry this a lot about different things, sexualizing a lot of different things and freaking myself out as well as having tingles in the groin area! I eventually read or heard somewhere that excitement and nervousness are the same emotion where we feel it in our body - So although your brain is telling you this is excitement, I reasoned with myself that it’s just anxiety - Make sure not to shut women out of your life or have close women relationships for fear that you’ll pounce on them bc you won’t. Our brains like to cause fear over things to help us have control in that area - You may find you’re resigning from men because you’re fearing what you’re feeling when you have the intrusive thoughts about women….. Push through! You don’t want to turn yourself off completely from love and relationship….. I did that for a long time because of my OCD

Username: Fabulousfaerie00Fabulousfaer...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

The thing is, I remembered the other day that I suffered from the subtype before (in early adolescence, while still having crushes on boys lol). In my late teens, I met and dated casually a couple of men. None of them shared my values or genuine interest in them. Flash forward to 2020, when I met my current partner, he's everything I've ever wanted in a man and more! But sadly my ocd attacks this as well.... I was just dreaming of what our engagement, marriage and family would be like the other day? I'm already living with him

Username: MossMateMossMate

Date posted: 1y ago

@PincheBella I find myself at constant war in my current relationship - He’s my partner through and through and I fight with myself, I fight with him, I struggle with anxious attachment and OCD and it’s all very hard….. Being alone has it’s benefits and struggles as well, but I do believe you’ll have better days if you keep pushing through and sit with the discomfort instead of deciphering it

Username: ewaedb

Date posted: 3y ago

Hey I really need someone to help me so please reply if you can. But basically I'm still getting LOADS of intrusive thoughts about this theme, but the thing is I have zero distress about it. The idea still bothers me and i still realise i don't want to be with a girl, but even imagining scenarios does not bother me at all anymore. Like i realise it is not that bad so i don't need to be disgusted by it but the fact that I'm not disgusted by it anymore makes me feel like i want it or something. I just want to be with a man.

Username: J_s_s

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

Help needed!!😩

Lately I've been having a lot of groinal responses, don't want them to be there. Before any of this even happened to me, I don't think I ever had a groinal response looking at another man, it makes me convinced that I've always been gay. I don't wanna be gay. This morning I had a dream about a rapper, it wasn't sexual but for some reason I was hard? I have always been a fan of his music and that's it. Now that's fueling my thought process even more and convincing me that I'm gay and I've been in the closet for a while At the same time i keep crying looking at my ex cause i miss her so much. Another thing to note that whenever i see good looking men or men that are gay i get groinal responses, whereas before this I don't think any of this happened to me. Whenever i look at these men i have to actively take a few deep breath's to catch up my breath, i can feel my heart beating. And most of the times I'm not even thinking anything sexual when ilook at these men it's weird. None of this brings me happiness at all. At this point I'm scared of my own groin cause i don't know what to expect or what's gonna happen. My brain keeps going you're in denial I've always been into women, as far as i can remember, I've lost complete attraction to them especially after my break up and getting depressed and having anxiety. And i keep thinking find a man attractive and if i get a groinal response, " wanna have sex with him" where as before any of this happened to me, these thoughts never even came to my mind, my 22 years of life feels like a complete lie and i hate myself, I've lost all motivation to do Normal things, i feel sleepy, i don't feel confident, loss of attraction, loss of libido, loss of will power, my thoughts keep morphing from " you might be gay" to "you are gay" to "you're bi" to "you're gay" to " you're in the closest" to "how are you gonna come out?". None of these thoughts make me happy, it makes me more confused and scared and kinda uncomfortable, and weirded out too. Another thing i did was since December till March i watched gay porn and barely got aroused and didn't really find it all that hot.? But my brain ignores that i understand now that it was a compulsive thing that's why i stopped but now i get so many groinals it's so weird Can someone tell me what's going on with me? Please please please someone take the time out of their day to read this and respond, thank you! 😩😩😩

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: NeverGiveUp

Date posted: 44w ago

Checking porn

I hate it so much because I'm not homophobic but I just don't want a y if this. My whole childhood and up to before this started I was disgusted by gay porn I never thought it was wrong it just wasn't for me and I was obsessed and loved the idea of being with a woman sexually. I've only crushed on women irl and only wanted to be with women the most towards a guy is I've found them aesthetically handsome but never wanted sex or crushed on them. When I check gay porn now I feel arousal but in my stomach I feel pain because I don't want it or like it. When I get arousal towards women I feel good, butterflies I want to do it in real life and I seek out a romantic and sexual partner I just don't get it why am I getting arousal response when I don't actually like it or want to do it in real life? It's so uncomfortable and depressing I feel like I'm losing myself cuz being straight has always been a big part of my identity and loving women.

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