I Can't Show You (a poem)

I wish I Could ...Draw . . . . . . . . If I could draw, . . . Then I could Show you. . . . Then you could see, With absolute clarity, What lives within me. You could see how it moves How it eats, how it Breathes _________ How it looks as it chases, How it won't let me flee. It won't let me flee. Won't let me flee. Let me flee.. Let me flee... LET ME FLEE. . . . . But. . . . . . I can't draw.... So you can't see. . . .I I'd Tell you About it... But I can't really speak I'd write you about it... But I can't really think. . . . I can see it. . . I can see it. . I can see all it's teeth. But I can't draw. So I can't show you. . . . I can't show You. . . . I Can't Show You Me.

Jak71

Date posted: 2y

I love this! Thank you

bigdreamstob...

Date posted: 2y

that was…..so raw and real and expressed an enormous feeling with such little words

BrokenOrBorn...

Date posted: 2y

Thank you 💕 💕

Sillyguppy

Date posted: 23w

Feeling down.

Was just remembering and ruminating on extremely traumatic and disturbing drawings I looked at as a teen. I'm trying to move past it because I cannot go back and unsee what I've seen, it's so difficult though. Feeling like people would look at me with disgust and I don't deserve the love that I crave desperately.

mental Warrior

Date posted: 23w

The darkest poem I've written

Tw- hell, torture, die To experience hell twice Sounds like my joy ride To continue living in my headspace Not getting adjusted to a new setting Not having to squint my eyes And readjust to the light After living in the dark for so long Hell does not scare me It sounds too familiar But heaven does I am afraid I will never be enough I cannot have enough faith Or enough compassion Nor can I be selfless I am afraid of loosing my last bit of sanity Trying to go against my ruined flesh Bringing everything to the surface and having to face the mess I've become So let me take the easier path Let me burn in hell Torture feels more welcoming either way How can my heart ever fathom love When my heart has turned dark I'm afraid of being scolded And told I'm such a mess (Honestly how I'm feeling rn!)

flyana

Date posted: 18w

A nice DM sent me spiraling

I used to post my art online a lot, and I was so proud of it. But the last year or so, my OCD has been making me feel like I don't deserve to post because "no one would support me if they knew how flawed of a person I am." Today, I got a message from a stranger saying they missed seeing my art and wished I would start posting again. It was soo damn nice, and I wanted to be happy about it, but my fears immediately hit me hard. Would this person still want to follow or support me if they knew everything about me? Of course, my therapist pointed out that there are sooo many people out there who post constantly and have no problem asking their supporters to help them, and surely they're also flawed people, but they don't let it hold them back. I know I'm only human... but I've seen so many people gain success, only to get knocked down, and it terrifies me. This is probably my biggest internal struggle. Sometimes, I want to give up art completely, but the little kid in me who dreamed of being an artist is saying, "Why are you giving up on us?" I feel kinda weird posting about this, but I hope you guys get where I'm coming from. If anyone has any insights or thoughts on this topic, I'd reeeeally appreciate them.

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