Intensely afraid of dying from cancer

24 yrs old and fear the thought of breast cancer I have been checked multiple times had a breast ultrasound not even a year ago and still can’t shake the thought of it

I have had anxiety issues for years and have been in therapy for that. But a big change in my life made it spin out of control. Btw, I am a bit of a control freak. So, for the last year, health anxiety has reigned. It all started when I had a panick attack and ran out of the operation room where I had to go under for a very simple, preventive procedure (I was convinced I wasn’t going to wake up.) I faced it again and made it. But after that I have been going from one health scare to the other. Skin cancer, oral cancer, breats cancer, HPV related cervical cancer - went through each recently. These are accompanied by panick attacks, insomnia and anxiously googling symptoms and testimonials. Every visit to the doctor end with panick that I forgot to check other important symptoms or that she might not be taking me seriously and miss something important. Now I am worried about a lymph node under my jaw that is slightly swollen. I know chances are it is ok and it is not cancer, it’s my anxiety. But what if it isn’t? And on it goes. I just want to stop worrying and go a day without googling symptoms or health issues. I am waiting for it to pass as these periods of health anxiety are kinda like panicks attacks - they build up, they peak and then they pass. I am afraid doctors will stop taking me seriously (this week I saw my doctor for a melanoma scare and a sore breast.) I am afraid when my doctor doesn’t investigate further and I am afraid when she does. I know it is absurd (I recently googled eye cancer) but I can’t stop. Sorry for the long post, I guess I wanted to write it all down and share it.

Hi! I’m 27 weeks pregnant and deal with ocd obviously since getting pregnant a lot of my obsessive thoughts have changed and are toward pregnancy and parenthood but I have one I can not get over and it’s dying during labor… I have been scared of that since I was a little girl I remember my sister and me watching a video about something happening to someone during labor and them passing and ever since then I have been scared and sick that’s gonna happen to me. It’s so bad I want to set up a what if it happens so everyone knows my wishes but I also don’t want to because that triggers me so hard. I’m too the point now with this thought it’s effecting my everyday life I get physically sick anytime I think about going into labor. I feel so alone because I never hear anything about this.