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- Date posted
- 2y ago
having a flare up
im stuck in rumination rn and every time I try to distract myself i feel absolutely awful im so scared not to ruminate
LowellTLowellT
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I fully understand your struggle. I have a hard time with that as well. I’m 62 and I’ve had OCD since my 20’s but I didn’t know it was OCD then about 2 years ago it skyrocketed and I have now been with NOCD just over a year and it has been a huge help. I don’t know if your getting counseling for OCD. If you aren’t I would recommend the free 15 min. call to NOCD. In OCD counseling there is exposure and response prevention (ERP) that is exposing our self to what triggers us and not do the compulsion to ease the anxiety. For me one of my ERP was when I felt guilty for something I did I had a loop tape I would listen to that said “I am not the man of integrity I profess I want to be” That was really tough in the beginning. But it has become less of an issue for my brain. It takes work but it is worth it. When we start to ruminate and try to reason with OCD we loose. We can never present enough facts to please OCD. When we ruminate we are try to problem solve. But if we were to just agree with OCD the struggle (ruminating) would stop. This is possible in stages as a NOCD councilor could help you with. I know it is tough. I have shed tears and sweat from anxiety saying “No” to OCD. I know you can as well. The only difference between you and me is what triggers us. I know you can say “No” to OCD 👍.
Jeffrey Jeffrey
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@LowellT So well said. I fell off the habit of agreeing with ocd - and now that I am working to get back on it is getting better. For me I worry my partner is a bad person and I don’t know it. Agreeing with whatever ocd throws at me is hard but I know it is the only way out.
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