Please answer harm ocd

Can harm ocd convince you that you actually like the thoughts or that you would actually want to act on it and that it would feel good to do that horrible thing? I feel like as time is going on I’m believing it more and more that I’m bad and it’s to the point where it feels like I want to act on the thoughts or I would like the feeling of acting on the thoughts but at the same time I’m crying all the time and miserable about this and I wouldn’t want to do that but I’m believing it so much and it feels too real and I feel worried because it feels like I want to act on it or would like the feeling of acting on it, is that an ‘urge’ at the start I use to get ‘urges’ but then it felt like it hasn’t happened for a long time but now I’m think is the reason it feels like I want to act on it or would like the feeling because I’m getting fake ‘urges’ and I’m confusing it for me ‘wanting to do that’ or that I would ‘like the feeling’ ? Like I wish I had a button to get rid of this problem because I would never want to be bad and wish I could have my old life back but at the same time I now it feels like I want to act on it and I’m worried I don’t want to be bad but I feel like I’m lying as well and secretly want to please advise me 😞 I’ve been in a state all day of worry, I was fine for a few weeks was feeling so much better and then I came on my period and suddenly it’s a huge turmoil of emotions and feels like a big problem and that I’m actually evil and would want to do that and I feel awful and miserable

Phoe.nix

Date posted: 3y

Friend I am dealing with the exact same thing; thank you so much for sharing and pls take some deep breaths I promise you’re not alone in this feeling I’m right there with you and I’m sure many others are too❤️

Chihuahuapri...

Date posted: 3y

I went through this, it’s the ocd I was so scared aswell I don’t wanna leave the house I wanted to stay cooped up in my room crying and the only thing that distracted me was playing on my switch or video games. I definitely think you should go to a psychologist because that’s what I’m doing and they will just help you out with taking back control of your thoughts and you will feel like you again, sadly I’ve got a new intrusive thought and I’m worrying about that now but I know I’ll get over it too. You will be fine just stay calm or even call like the mental health phone services that’s what I did while I was waiting for my psychologist and it helped! Wishing you the best and if you need someone to talk too I’m here ✨

Ocdlife123

Date posted: 3y

Going through the same! Really made me believe i am going to do it! Then the urge comes in and i find my self crying and making my self not :(

lu22

Date posted: 3y

@Anon12_ The worst part for me is that before it would feel like ‘urges’ but now it feels like I like the feeling of imagining doing that horrible thing so now it feels even more real

lu22

Date posted: 3y

@Anon12_ My thoughts are about smothering and it feels like I know how it feels to do that and that I like the feeling and now im worried that im desperate to feel that feeling of doing that 😞😞

vicki5621

Date posted: 14h

Heyy I know it's been a long time but I am going through the same things and it's so scary it feels like I am actually going crazy have you recovered???

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