- Date posted
- 2y
Schizophrenia ocd
I’m very upset, I think I have schizophrenia. I have always had a fear of it. It doesn’t run in my family at all but I’m a very anxious person and I tend to worry about marry different mental illnesses. I had a massive panic attack that led me to spiral about different themes of ocd and mental illnesses, before that I was fine. I have been having auditory hallucinations as I’m falling asleep of babbling or random conversations, my family have had this before but since I’ve been anxious it’s been happening more common, when I open my eyes it’s stops. I have had this a couple years back and it freaked me out but my mum said it’s just what happens when ur close to sleep. A couple years ago I saw spiders all of my grandmas bed when I woke up once and their eyes were glowing I was freaking out and I put my hand out and felt nothing, I thought nothing of it after cause I thought it was just idk something that happens when u wake up sometimes and then 2 years ago I saw a woman shadow at the side of my grandmas bed, once again I freaked out and woke my grandma up and turned back and it was gone. After that I experienced nothing else I wasn’t even worried and then recently tik tok had been coming up with multiple mental disorders like schizophrenia and someone said if u see shadows or daydream that’s a symptom of schizophrenia and while in my stressed state this sent me to spiral and now I’m hearing talking as I sleep and I’m scared. I just want to live a normal life I’m sick of being stressed I want to be happy. I thought it was my anxiety before but now I think it’s not. I’ll also add when I first was anxious I was looking around the room and noticed the walls weren’t completely clear and were a bit shadowy but not In the shape of a person and my mum said that, that’s normal and everyone sees that and then the anxiousness went away and I wasn’t worried anymore and then I got triggered again by seeing another thing about it. Do you think this is anxiety or should I be worried.