last time i was on this.

about. a week or so ago. but i’m currently scared. my ocd pretty much came into effect around nine months ago and completely ruined me. but 9 months later and i’m barely going on this app, doing compulsions, or just getting obsessions in general? and when i do get obsessions compulsions and the obsession doesn’t rlly last that long. all the while this is a good thing, does this mean i haven’t had ocd all along? if i haven’t then that’s terrifying and does that invalidate what i’m feeling? is this ocd making me type this? or is this just apart of recovery.

ada110

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

OCD is chronic so it lays dormant; the disorder part where you are bothered by it and engaging in compulsions can come and go (usually go after lots of ERP work), so I suppose it's different for everyone and could work to any timescale. The important thing is to get therapy so you can learn the tools to recognise it and try and manage it if and when it comes back, and of course go back to therapy whenever you feel you need. If you think it's your OCD making you doubt this right now then it probably is your OCD. It can come and go in recovery too.

SL1K

Date posted: 2y ago

@ada110 do you think i still have ocd? it hasn’t effected me in awhile atill. every now and then i’ll overthink things and obsess a little but i won’t do compulsions like come on this app and ask questions, instead i try to just let the thoughts be there until they go. does this mean i still have ocd because my worry is that if i don’t have ocd does that mean my ocd false memories in the past were real all this time? idk i’m really scared and confused.

ada110

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@SL1K It's not for me to diagnose you it would be best to speak to a trained therapist. But from what I understand you can recover from the 'disorder' part where you're giving into compulsions, but that essentially OCD can't be 'cured' completely so there might still be times where it still affects you (makes you anxious etc, makes you give into compulsions) and that could be to a greater or lesser extent than before.

ada110

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

@ada110 Also I think to be honest the fact that you're doing better and now you're thinking 'oh no does that mean I never had OCD' is probably actually OCD trying to worm its way back in, making you doubt. It's a doubt disorder and you can have doubt about OCD itself as well as specific themes.

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Date posted: 19w ago

I'm sorry if I keep posting I'm just scared..

Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..

Mika05

Date posted: 15w ago

Worried about not being anxious?

These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.

lalalalal166373

Date posted: 12w ago

what if it’s not ocd

so i was on instagram and it came up with other signs of ocd then someone commented this doesn’t mean you have ocd now im stressed that its not ocd background - i had so-ocd for a few years then got treatment for it but am now on the waiting list for further treatment for other stuff but i dont have another theme which makes me feel like its not ocd my day to day life consists of touching the door handle every time you go past it or someone will die, and inability to send emails without re reading loads of times and getting other people to check because im scared i wrote something bad but the what if it’s not ocd thought is triggering me now and i don’t know what do

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