last time i was on this.

about. a week or so ago. but i’m currently scared. my ocd pretty much came into effect around nine months ago and completely ruined me. but 9 months later and i’m barely going on this app, doing compulsions, or just getting obsessions in general? and when i do get obsessions compulsions and the obsession doesn’t rlly last that long. all the while this is a good thing, does this mean i haven’t had ocd all along? if i haven’t then that’s terrifying and does that invalidate what i’m feeling? is this ocd making me type this? or is this just apart of recovery.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Username: ada110

Date posted: 70d ago

OCD is chronic so it lays dormant; the disorder part where you are bothered by it and engaging in compulsions can come and go (usually go after lots of ERP work), so I suppose it's different for everyone and could work to any timescale. The important thing is to get therapy so you can learn the tools to recognise it and try and manage it if and when it comes back, and of course go back to therapy whenever you feel you need. If you think it's your OCD making you doubt this right now then it probably is your OCD. It can come and go in recovery too.

Username: SL1K

Date posted: 64d ago

@ada110 do you think i still have ocd? it hasn’t effected me in awhile atill. every now and then i’ll overthink things and obsess a little but i won’t do compulsions like come on this app and ask questions, instead i try to just let the thoughts be there until they go. does this mean i still have ocd because my worry is that if i don’t have ocd does that mean my ocd false memories in the past were real all this time? idk i’m really scared and confused.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Username: ada110

Date posted: 64d ago

@SL1K It's not for me to diagnose you it would be best to speak to a trained therapist. But from what I understand you can recover from the 'disorder' part where you're giving into compulsions, but that essentially OCD can't be 'cured' completely so there might still be times where it still affects you (makes you anxious etc, makes you give into compulsions) and that could be to a greater or lesser extent than before.

User type: OCD Conqueror

Username: ada110

Date posted: 64d ago

@ada110 Also I think to be honest the fact that you're doing better and now you're thinking 'oh no does that mean I never had OCD' is probably actually OCD trying to worm its way back in, making you doubt. It's a doubt disorder and you can have doubt about OCD itself as well as specific themes.