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rocd anxiety and guilt
cheating ocd constantly making me feel anxious and guilt feelings in my chest.. idk what’s reality anymore:( urge to confess to cheating but idk when I did or if I even did.. this sucks
cheating ocd constantly making me feel anxious and guilt feelings in my chest.. idk what’s reality anymore:( urge to confess to cheating but idk when I did or if I even did.. this sucks
I have the same type of OCD, and have come up with hundreds of scenarios that “might have” happened. they feel so real, and I don’t have a good way to combat the thoughts or prove that they didn’t happen which gets me to the point of feeling like i need to confess to my boyfriend and have done it many times, and the relief it brings is only temporary. here’s an article i read about false memory OCD that really helped me to realize that maybe i’m just making this all up. https://www.sheppardpratt.org/news-views/story/did-we-already-discuss-false-memories-and-ocd/ if you need anyone to talk to i’m happy to help
@Anonymous thank you for this article it helped a lot, do u have any social media I can msg u on?
@radicalfaerie on instagram
@Anonymous okay I followed you!
For the past 3 months ish I’ve been struggling on and off with this anxiety and fixation over my relationship. To wondering if i still have feelings for an old friend, wondering if i actually love him, wondering if the thoughts are all real and im just trying to cover it up with ocd. It sucks, when im talking to my boyfriend i feel fine. The words i love you and talks about the future come naturally. I can’t imagine myself with anyone but him. But this constant rumination on my relationship is KILLING me and I’m scared it’s going to ruin what i have. It makes me numb and disconnected which therefore makes me believe the thoughts even more. They just feel so real sometimes and it’s so scary like why can i not just enjoy it. We’ve been together for a while so i know there’s periods of like feelings ebb and flowing but this is so much more. It’s just constantly sitting on my chest with anxiety. My compulsions are coming on this app, looking at photos of us and confessing it to him. He’s very understanding and helpful. I love him so much. I just need help / I’m also just starting new meds as well ..
My rocd is spiraling so bad i feel like I’m terrible and can’t recover 😓 idk wuts real anymore yet ik i never wanna leave my man😓whats wrong w me
Currently I have several different OCD fears that pop up throughout the week depending on the situation. I've noticed a commonality between all of them are the fears relating to memory/false memory. Today is the ROCD struggle I've been dealing with. I know OCD has been trying this on me lately because of how much I love my spouse. They are my absolute best friend and she's my world. I value our marriage and friendship more than anything. OCD has latched onto one specific female coworker. And I don't even know why because even if I were single I wouldn't be into her. Even still, OCD makes me think I've cheated on my wife every time I'm alone with this coworker at work. Always starts as a what if, followed by imagery, followed by feelings that I must've actually done something and can't remember it. Usually fearing I've kissed her. It hurts because I know I'd never do that to my wife and I love her so much...the idea of losing her kills me, especially if it were the result of something I did. Just wanted to vent. Feel free to share your experiences or vents as well
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