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- 2y
Anyone bi and has so-ocd?
{a bit nsfw} Hey, So I'm pretty sure I'm bi but think I still might have so-ocd. From around 12 I started watching gay porn and liked it, but also had crushes on girls previously. so the analysing and overthinking came with it pretty soon. can't say it nicer: Watching gay stuff makes me horny. But I'd have intimacy or a relationship only with a woman and I find women hot too. My anxiety is about being gay and only faking attraction to women. Since societal norms taught me heterosexual stuff ofc. I worry I only try to fit in and it's not real attraction to girls. I feel like I should feel. And ofc. there's the fear that it's not ocd but denial and ocd is am excuse. I haven't been disgnosed so might as well be true. My reassurance is erotic fantasies about women and watching hot girls and even porn to get an erection. These toughts and anxiety makes me lose focus, take up so much time and energy. I'm also super afraid of coming out or getting into a relationship until I 'figure it out'. 🙋 If you are bi with so-ocd, do you guys exists lol? how are you doing? how did/does it show up for you? What did you do to reduce the compulsions but also the anxiety?