I sometimes find it hard to recognize the compulsions, I think I'm going to start a "ban book". And when I do have a compulsion, I feel like the urge to complete the compulsion has already planted its seed too deep in my brain. Like either I didn't realize it was a compulsive urge too early, or I'm just too worn out to resist it.
The more you do ERP the easier it gets to recognize and resist compulsions.
At times, my intrusive thoughts get so intense that all I can do is lay frozen in my bed and hope I fall asleep, and usually I do even if I'm not tired. My brain just wears me out and I wanna escape through sleep. (Sadly it doesn't work all the time)
I just realized that I have this compulsion where i search ocd forums up and down, looking for someone describing the exact scenario/event that im obsessing over right now. Otherwise it’s like i cant convince myself that it really is ocd. Its so stupid because even if I find what I am looking for, I know it is only giving me temporary relief. I was just about to post a description of the theme/scenario here, but I am proud that I stopped myself ⭐️
Help me! I acted on a compulsion and now I feel like want to keep doing it. I’m scared. I had been doing okay for these past two days but idk. What should I do?
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