I feel like I’m going crazy.

I’m sitting in my car right now. And I was fishing. Like I was having a good time and I called my mom cause she’s watching my daughter while we go and I got an intrusive thought when I saw my daughter. I’ve had this before. But when my daughter was younger her eyes are so dark they’re almost black and one day I was playing with her and I looked at her and demon popped into my head cause her eyes are so dark. I didn’t interact with the thought even though it terrified me. And I haven’t thought of it since well it just happened again when I called her and demon popped into my head again when I saw her for some reason and im freaking out I feel like im going crazy. Im scared I have some type of psychosis or something and I might hurt my baby. I have a therapist but I don’t have the money to see her right now. I NEED someone to tell me im not crazy. I know we shouldn’t ask for reassurance but I need it. This is scaring me so bad. I don’t want to hurt my baby. Im trying to have a good time and this happens. Plus im 12 weeks pregnant so my hormones are going crazy. I wish I was normal. I just wanna enjoy my baby and I can’t even look her in the eye. What’s wrong with me.

Username: Kilo2001Kilo2001

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m diagnosed OCD and with post Paartum ocd. I just want to be a good mom how can I do that with OCD. I’m just feeling so down

Username: 0.00.0

Date posted: 1y ago

I’ve never had a kid before and only my cat who I kinda see as my own kid but I think I can kind of understand how you feel. Sometimes when certain things I associate with someone or something makes me feel so bad and without even meaning to, start obsessing with it so I start to feel super guilty or put myself down. I start wondering the same thing like why can’t I just be normal and not have these thoughts and it just feels like sometimes it won’t ever get better. I guess I can’t really tell you what’s gonna be okay as we never know the future but I can tell you that you’re not alone in this constant struggle with yourself and I know it may be hard but don’t put yourself down because I bet you’re a good mom to your baby and will be as well for the one on the way

Username: aditaa aditaa

Date posted: 1y ago

So Ive had something similar happen but with my dog. It was night time already and at the park they have these yellowish lights. The light was hitting my dogs face and out of the know where I thought I saw like a evil look/face on him. I got super scared and told my fiancé and we just talked about it. It was just the way the light hit his face and due to my past experiences with scary stuff my OCD latched to that feeling or vision/emotion.

Username: aditaa aditaa

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m not sure if you’re religious but pray. It helps a lot in situations like these. Every time I felt this way I would play Christian music and pray and it would go away. Ever since then that hasn’t happened to me.

Username: laurlpn

Date posted: 5y ago

Ok.. so another one of my fears is the fear of being schizophrenic or psychotic. I’m 9 weeks post partum and I read about psychosis and it freaked me out!! I’m 29 years old and I know schizophrenia happens in your teens or early 20s. My therapist told me that as long as I don’t have a voice telling me to act on my intrusive images or thoughts that it’s not psychotic. Once she said that later that day the words “do it” kept repeating in my mind. I have 0 desire to harm anyone and I’ve never been a violent person. If anyone has experienced something similar please share! I feel like my mind loves to switch things up and play tricks on me.

Username: Kimberley*

Date posted: 3y ago

I'm so scared right now, I don't think my intrusive thoughts are intrusive anymore. I feel completely numb and disconnected from everything and everyone. I feel like I'm insane. I don't feel reassured by anything which makes me think I want the thoughts. for example I have harm ocd thoughts about my daughter and always have since she was born, she is now 9. I've suffered terribly with mental health since she was born. and an intrusive thought I have just had is "if I killed her i wouldn't be anxious anymore" can thoughts become this distressing? this can't be normal, please someone help.

Username: Kilo2001

Date posted: 1y ago

Ghosts

Has anyone here ever had obsessive thoughts about ghosts? Like what if there’s a ghost in the house? What if it’s a demon? And I get so scared. That stuff freaks me out so much. I had a nightmare last night about a Demon/ghost and it scared me so much. I usually have intrusive thoughts about harm and they center my daughter. And I woke up looked at my daughter and what if she’s a demon popped into my head. I get a sinking feeling in my stomach even typing it. I know she’s not but now I’m like am I going crazy? Like am Turning psychotic? I’ve never heard of anyone obsessing over this but me. And it’s taking a lot to post this cause I have a fear I’m the only one and I am going crazy but I know at the same time OCD can latch onto anything. I was doing so good with the harm intrusive thought. I can totally ignore them now. And I’m confident I’d never hurt my baby. So now I’m like is my OCD jumping to something else? But why this? It sounds so crazy!

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