Does anyone else try to convince themselves they sexually assaulted someone or convince themselves someone sexually assaulted them? I feel so alone and have gotten to the point of suicidal because of these thoughts. I would love to know if anyone else feels this way. I’ve gotten a lot better with this but have not met anyone who thinks this way so it’s isolating.
I’m sorry to hear you feel that way,, you’re not alone, I also have similar thoughts, sometimes I feel like I make up memories I know never happened when it gets that bad,, and it’s very anxiety inducing. But don’t give up. I hope we all get the help we need, stay strong we’re all rooting for you❤️
@MemoM Thank you so much❤️
I’ve definitely had these thoughts before. to the point where they make me physically ill. You’re definitely not alone ♥️
@rorie SAME. I used to get physically ill from them all the time before realizing I had ocd. Thank you for sharing❤️
I am so sorry you’re experiencing this. Everyone has intrusive thoughts, but those of us with OCD get stuck on ours. OCD is ego-dystonic, meaning the intrusive thoughts/images/feelings go against our values and make us uncomfortable. OCD can make you doubt literally anything. But you are not alone, I know I’ve experienced this fear too and I’m sure others have as well. While it is scary, recovery is possible. I definitely recommend giving NOCD a call for their free consultation. On another note, I completely understand how these feelings and fear can make you feel suicidal. But please know you won’t feel this way forever; it will pass and you WILL get better. If you ever feel that way again, give the Suicide Hotline a call (call or text 988) or visit their website here: https://988lifeline.org/ I believe in you and we’re here for you!
Honestly, this is so common in OCD- OCD makes you feel never quite sure enough. The good news is that this is very much treatable. You can get to a place where this isn't tormenting you and where you are living your life in recovery. Have you done any ERP? There can be so many reasons why people don’t start treatment for OCD. I know that for me, I didn’t really know that this was a real illness and that others experienced the same types of symptoms. I was embarrassed and felt ashamed. When I finally opened up about what I was experiencing there was such a sense of relief that washed over me, just knowing that the OCD specialist didn’t scare or run off because of what I told them was pretty amazing. I am so grateful that I finally opened up because I learned that I wasn’t alone and that there was a treatment that could help me. And it did! Our Care Team will typically begin with a 15-minute call to discuss treatment, answer any questions you have, and book your first appointment. Please feel free to schedule a convenient time that works best for you here: https://learn.nocd.com/scheduler
Is anyone else here female and suffer from Pedophilia OCD? It has been absolutely debilitating for me the past year. No matter what I tell myself, I can never rid myself of these thoughts. I don’t even like children, yet I have these horrific thoughts that plague my mind day in and day out. I was doing well for awhile until I had a dream last night and it triggered everything again for me. I just want it to stop. I know I’m not my thoughts, but it’s been too much for me to handle.
Need some advice here as I feel like such a sick twisted person..I feel like I may have sexual intrusive thoughts ocd but sometimes I think it’s just me and my twisted brain- intrusive thoughts about my family members has turned into pedophilia ocd and what makes it worse is that I work with children. Lately I’ve been seeing sexual intrusive images of me sexually abusing young children normally male, and I am obviously distressed by them and I would never act on that but it makes me feel like I would actually do that cause of the feeling I would get and it’s all so confusing and scary cause I would never do that to a child. Please someone help that has maybe been through a similar experience?
Serious trigger warning here for POCD and suicide. I have these thoughts, urges, and feelings that are terrifying. I don’t act on them and I believe I would never act on them but it feels so real and horrible. I don’t know how this started and I want to believe I am a good person but I’m just so scared that I’m going to do something terrible. And even just these thoughts scare me to my core and make me think, “oh what if I am a pedophile” even though I know I’m not, and I don’t know how to deal with them. When I can keep myself busy it gets easier to forget this stuff, but if I have downtime I can’t get it out of my head. I had a young girl, most likely middle school age, come into my work with her parents today and I was terrified of the idea that I could be attracted to her. I don’t believe I truly am but my thoughts get so aggressive that I don’t even know what to believe. I avoid a lot of things but sometimes you don’t have the option to avoid and it just gets things further stuck in my head and I end up fixating on awful things. I wake up with this stuff floating around my mind and I can’t get it to go away. I’ve even considered just ending it to all to make it easier on myself and to make sure that I never have the opportunity to act on these horrible thoughts and feelings. I don’t ever want to do these things and I know it may sound ridiculous, but the consequences of these actions I haven’t committed scare me as well such as people no longer trusting or loving me, prison, hurting someone else in any way, not being a good person, etc. I just can’t find anything that helps fix this. I have broken down many times due to this issue and I feel like it’ll never go away. I know killing my sled is not the answer and I know I will never act on any of this but the thoughts and feelings are so aggressive that I live in an almost constant state of fear of my own mind and body. I hate this. What did I do to deserve to suffer this way? Why me? Why can’t I just be a normal person with normal human thoughts and why of all forms of OCD did it’s have to be this one? I don’t know what to do. Someone please help me fix this before I lose hope.
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