I don’t understand (pls help)

i don’t understand what’s going on. All of the sudden i started having intrusive thoughts and I thought the “devil” had me and i was about to check myself into a mental hospital but then one of my friends who also has ocd told me that she has these too and i felt less alone. Then for like a day or two I was fine and then I went to therapy and was triggered (? idek) and the intrusive thoughts came back and now i’m even worse than I was before and I don’t even know what’s going on. I can’t figure it out and I can’t stop reading and posting on this dang app BECAUSE IM CONFUSED AND SCARED IM JUST SCARED and idk if this is reassurance seeking or what but I have my first therapy appointment with someone on here on wednesday but i’m scared that I won’t make it… Idk what’s going on and idek if I DO have ocd bc i haven’t been diagnosed

Username: rprimo01rprimo01

Date posted: 1y ago

I have been having similar experience to what you have. It made no sense to me either. Like i had never had any intrusive thoughts or such and it just totally came out of nowhere.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

All I will say is that ERP is really hard and it might even be scary at points, but it’s been totally worth it for me. Because learning about my OCD and understanding how and where it likes to hide, gives me the ability to stand up to it. OCD can be a real bully at times. And it’s hidden itself in new and many facets throughout my lifetime. I’ve done my best for the last 29 years to “ignore” or “allow only the small obsessions” to happen… so that when the big ones would come, or the dark thoughts would happen, I’d give myself a sense of control… but I didn’t have the right tools to help me theology some of the worst of it. I finally found NOCD and it’s been truly helpful. Because of ERP I am learning new and helpful ways to deal with dark thoughts, how to move through the anxiety of compulsions and obsessions. I really hope you give it a try and I hope you find the right therapist for you to help you through understanding. It is uncomfortable in the sessions. But the idea of ERP, from my understanding, isn’t to help you just feel better by talking about it. But to help you learn how to chase OCD away by being able to let the anxiety pass, using techniques of small exposures and gradually making them greater. Giving you tools to use throughout your life to manage your OCD. I know you’re capable. I hope you do too. And I hope that one day for all of us here, we can manage our OCD so well, it barely effects us in our daily lives anymore. 🫶

Username: doeji123doeji123

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous thank you so much :,) I have a bit of a clearer head today because of the meds i took i think but rooting for all of us and hoping this new ocd therapy will workout for me!

Username: caterpillarjourney caterpillarj...

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey, I get you! I also was “triggered” before my first therapy session. You should try rescheduling your appointment if time is an issue, if its a mental worry, i would try to set time before the appointment and try to prepare yourself in whatever way you find best, maybe feeling your emotions out, getting in a calm relaxish headspace, trying is all that matters! Speaking of trying, maybe you have OCD maybe you don’t?! but you’re trying to figure it out and thats powerful! You’re not alone!

Username: doeji123doeji123

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@caterpillarjourney the thing is i think i was triggered because of the therapy i’m in right now but i’m not sure… I just don’t think she knows much about ocd so i tried to join this to see if I really have ocd and see if i can get the help i need because it’s getting worse :( Thank you for your insight though!

Username: caterpillarjourney caterpillarj...

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous Do what you think is best for you! I personally have had a good experience with this program, and I hope you can find a solution that works for you<3

Username: Jay

Date posted: 4y ago

hi everyone, i’ve been using this app for about 2 weeks now, maybe a little more or less than that, i can’t remember exactly when i downloaded it because these past 3 weeks have all been a blur. ive mostly just been lurking and observing other people’s posts and conversations. i’m currently suffering from some bad existential ocd. i haven’t been getting a lot of sleep since lockdown started. i’ve known i’ve had ocd for awhile now but i’ve never gotten any kind of help for it. i don’t talk about my problems to anyone and keep all my thoughts bottled up until i get over things on my own. but every time i go through a phase like this it gets worse each time it comes back. i haven’t felt like this in over 3 years and i thought i was done a finally free but now it feels like my life is over. i had a doctor’s appointment this past Tuesday and i’m going to be getting counseling (i’m not sure if there’s a difference between counseling and therapy, the word my doctor used specifically was counseling. she might have just said that but meant therapy or maybe there is a difference im not sure) but i don’t see the point. everyone tells me to ‘embrace the uncertainty’ but i don’t know how i can go on living happily with the possibility of my worst fears being true. i won’t say what they are in this post but if you’re curious I’ll tell you. i put a trigger warning just in case i get into the conversation of what exactly my worst fears are with anyone and i don’t want to trigger anyone who’s also dealing with the same problems as me. i just thought, in case im wrong-which i hope i am-that it wouldn’t hurt to talk it out right now. my mom and dad don’t fully understand and i don’t want to scare them and it might be a few more weeks before i start counseling.

Username: Allier792

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m scared

Hi. I’m just really scared and I want to ask questions. I have been ocd and have been really suffering since December. The intrusive thoughts come like I want them now and it’s more of a “ well oh yeah you want to do that, and it’s gonna happen” and I start panicking and can’t focus and it scares the shit out of me. Is that ocd? Or is there something wrong with my brain and I’m actually some psychopath you see in a movie? I’m terrified. Im scared to be around my family, I’m scared to be around everyone. But I’m scared to be alone as well because I’m alone with the thoughts. What if these aren’t intrusive thoughts and I’m actually some terrible person who’s gonna hurt someone or is actually some psychopath who’s crazy? I hate this so much because I use to be so happy and not have any of these intrusive thoughts or worried that I was going to to hurt someone and now I’m so scared all the time. Can someone please answer some of these questions? I just want to make sure that this is ocd and I’m not a terrible person.

Username: chloe_h

Date posted: 46w ago

Understand OCD

I have my first therapy apt Monday - looking forward to it! However, I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD. I’m advocating for myself and hoping to figure out what all is going on so I can learn correct coping techniques to get better! I guess I’m writing this to maybe see if anyone can help me understand or can relate!? I had my first panic attack a few months ago! After a few weeks my mind got scared that feeling anxious and stressed out was going to make me become schizophrenic or some insane situation. I somewhat got over that fear after several months of everyday panics about it. Now I’m in a loop and scared everyday that I’m “stuck”. I felt like I was experiencing dereliction and things weren’t real. And my mind takes off with that feeling everyday and feeds me these constant ‘what if’ thoughts and make things seem real. I am worried and in tears off and on everyday. It’s like a tug of war because I know it’s not true but in that same breath I feel like it’s real and true! It’s exhausting and scary! Can anyone relate? Does this sound OCD related? Thanks so much! Hugs to everyone ❤️

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