Does anyones ocd got to this point?

So i realized why i thought im in danger or im dangerous to others. I have harm ocd and at some point my ocd told me that the only way i can make this go away is if i act on it. And then i started thinking im in danger, i need to go to a hospital or something, and because i was thinking "is this thought true?" i thought that that means i actually thinking about it cause my mind was answering with "yes its true". Then i started feeling like i want to do it and i will do it so i started to go crazy and panic. That made it worse that i read in the past that someone with ocd actually acted on their obsessive thought cause he thought then it will go away. So this is were that feeling of i want to do those bad things come, i didnt do anything tho, but does anyone had the same experience? How to react to that when my ocd tells me the only way to make it go away if i act on it?

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

So sorry you are going through this. I've been there and it's very scary. A few thoughts: 1. The fact that it's scaring you and causing you anxiety is an indication that there's not much chance that you'd actually commit any of the intrusive thoughts. 2. When I was going through much the same thing my therapist had me challenge OCD. She asked me write down all the reasons why OCD is telling me to commit these acts, i.e...what good it would do for me. Obviously, the list was short. Then, she had me ask OCD what kind of factual data it had to support its suggestions. Does OCD have a crystal ball that can see the future? Of course not, so the factual data was non-existent, just a "malware" suggestion. I received a great deal of relief practicing this exercise and still practice it to this day when I experience a flare up. 3. Keep using the ERP tools. I can only speak for myself, but they work for me. When I have a flare up, I accept the uncertainty that, no matter how miniscule the chance, some day in the future I may actually physically act on any of the intrusive thoughts, because I don't know the future. I then ask myself: am I doing it now? Am I plotting to do it? Do I have a choice? I stay in the present, not in the "what if(s)." Over time using these tools my anxiety level has dissipated to the point where I now live in relative tranquility. Hope this helps. Hang in there, it will get better!

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y

My mind is really creative. Actually i dont know why but i did the same as you but mentally, i asked what are the reasons i would do them, then my mind gave me reasons, 1. Because this will never end and youre sick with this life(this is why i was afraid im suicidal cause having these responses sounds really like that,but i was still panicking) 2. Because if you do the harm thoughts , you hurt someone maybe you learn how is it really and you will never do it, 3. Maybe you like it, who knows, just try it, and 4. You want to hurt people because what they did in the past to you, they bullied you, you were always weak in their eyes. These are all answers that really sick minded people would think, no suprise that i was really feeling bad and had panic that im going insane and i will act on these thoughts.

LuisMadison

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Please mark this as a trigger warning next time. Your ocd is lying to you. Also please talk to the people your ocd is obsessing over and talk to your therapist about this.

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Yes, OCD can get really creative. Please know that you're not alone. Others, including myself, have gone through this. Please try to concentrate on the present. What are you doing NOW? Anyway, are you seeing a therapist certified in OCD/ERP? They can be a world of help to you. I was in really bad shape until I found NOCD.

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y

Yes im seeing a therapist. Im having difficulties trying to stay in the present moment and not give attention to anxiety or the thoughts. I tried it now and i just felt like i intentionally went back to anxiety and to think the thoughts, like i dont want to let go of anxiety, like im enjoying it and idk why, what can i do, i try to understand why i do t want to let it go

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

I used to do the same thing, try to figure out why, and I always came out on the losing end. I began seeing significant improvement when I finally just shrugged my shoulders and said, "beats the hell out of me. It's all OCD." That epiphany was very important to me. Just keep seeing your therapist and keep working the ERP program. You'll get there. and

PRIV8

Date posted: 2y

So the feeling that i dont want to let go of anxiety and worrying is still an obsession?

Aphid123

Date posted: 25w

Is this even OCD?

Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!

Catlove9

Date posted: 25w

What do you say to OCD when you have harm urges?

I am struggling right now with intrusive harm urges. They feel real and it feels like I am going to act any second. It feels like I have to hold myself back, which is a scary thoughts. I am trying so hard not to compulse, but does anyone have tips on what they do in these situations?

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 23w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

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