anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

please help; i’m feeling crazy

i don’t even know if this is OCD because it’s not even over an obsession. every second im reminded of anxiety and it causes me to get anxiety and my brain makes me panic. everything i do im reminded that i can just panic right now over everything and anything. nothing is helping at all. ive like lost control of my thoughts completely. idk if i have a panic disorder or what. i’m reminded i have a brain and it scares me. i just want my brain turned off i feel horrible. just feel like there’s something seriously wrong with me and i’ll never get out of this. does anyone else experience this🥺

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

hey i experience this

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 thanks it’s comforting to know someone else does i can’t even read the forum cause then i convince myself i’m crazy and my ocd is different than everyone else’s therefore it’s not ocd. i’m so tired of living like this 🥺

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous i completely understand. It feels like it’s not really ocd because this subtype is talked about less but lemme share an article with you

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 https://www.sheppardpratt.org/news-views/story/navigating-hyperawareness-obsessions/

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 thanks a lot. it’s funny because i was googling and this did come up but tried not to look into it too much and do too much googling. but it’s actually comforting to know it’s an actual thing and an obsession. ugh this one has been the worst one so far but i’ve said that about my past onsessions

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous i get that man

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

It’s like the thing i can make myself imagine anything, so it goes to things we don’t want at all, like i can make myself think about a panic attack and induce a panic attack and just like any other intrusive thought the more u try to get rid of it the more it sticks. just the idea of having a brain can feel so scary, i’ve been there, going through it right now. Sit with the anxiety, your brain will catastrophisize and make u think whether ur developing psychosis or this or that. I know it’s hard but sit with the anxiety, and let the thoughts come and go even if ur hyper fixated on just “thinking” taking place. I know it’s hard but i believe in you

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 it’s been the scariest feeling 🥺i am sitting with it. but then my brain will say you’ll be sitting with this forever and you’re crazy and this is never going away. like i can’t catch a break

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous yup i had those thoughts too, treat them like intrusive thoughts, it’s okay. have u tried erp and therapy?

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 i have but with this hyper awareness i’ve just convinced myself the ERP isn’t working and that i’m actually crazy and stuff so i was ready to give up on everything. i was having super bad brain fog which i freaked out about and was very emotional. what is ERP like for this hyper awareness subtype?

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous I’ve not tried ERP yet, i’ve been dealing with it on my own and this “brain fog” how does it feel?

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 it may have been the hyper awareness. i was scared of having to plan out every word i’ve said to people or like being able to work or do anything. like one day i woke up and was freaking out because i felt spaced out and couldn’t focus too well on what i was doing or what people were saying. my therapist said i was disassociating

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous yup i was gonna say u might have dissociated

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous do u have discord or something that we can use to connect?

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 i don’t :( let me look into that. is it free?😭

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 i made one! my username is krheencz idk how to use it though lol

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous that’s the # and the number

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@stutisharma05 it says krheencz #6745

anxiousmess

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

at what point do i give up and go to a mental hospital; what’s if it’s psychosis or schizophrenia or something that i’m experiencing?

anonymous314

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous it’s not psychosis or schizophrenia, they are intrusive thoughts

cows12465

Date posted: 23w

anyone else?

I have panic disorder, and OCD and anxiety. Does anyone else ever feel just off the edge all the time? Like I always feel like something’s off or something’s gonna happen. I don’t know how to explain the feeling. But I always feel off and when I feel off I panic

kayla.

Date posted: 22w

any advice, thank you.

so since mid december i’ve been feeling like this , well first in mid december I’ve started feeling anxiety like normal, normal as in physical things like feeling like im going to pass out, shaking, chest pain, etc. but then it got worse , then it turned into more of mind stuff like feeling not real , feeling weird like idk. my mind is always runningg like on over drive, like looking back at myself that doesn’t seem like me. like idk. i can’t stand to look at myself anymore bc it doesn’t feel like me. i can’t be alone , when i think about to it makes it sm worse. but how do i stop thinking ab it? or make it better. i’m scared it’s gonna get worse. like i can’t even do my makeup anymore bc i think something bad will happen. i can’t go certain places , like stay the night bc i think something bad is gonna happen.

alyssa_h

Date posted: 19w

i can’t do this much longer

i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…

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