I've got a horrific false memory of me doing something to my little brother while sleeping with mental images and everything. Surely I would have felt guilty about this happening after it happened not months/years after. I seem him he's all happy and enjoying life meanwhile I'm depressed as hell because of something I would never do. How am I suppose to go on my vacation with this on my mind and severe anxiety
Hello! I'm going through a false memory crisis too at the moment. I'm more than happy and would actually be quite grateful if you'd like a chat :( I feel your pain
Yeah it's tough because logically mine doesn't make sense like why would I worry about this now. Surely it would have been the 1st thing that popped in my head when I was wondering "Did I ever harmed a child?" and surely can't forget about something this horrific then suddenly pop up. But my mind wouldn't leave me alone. I feel stuck in my bed unable to do even the basics because if this. Like am I really gonna ruin my life over something that probably didn't happen like wtf š. It's very painful
@lcc1999 Yes!!!! I completely agree and understand every single thing you re saying. I feel so consumed and feel I belong in prison.
@Ilovedylan20@ How do you usually cope with yours? Is it something related to POCD or harm or something else? I've had false memories before that kind if gave me a bit of breathing space like "oh I was too young" or something like that but this one is bad.
@lcc1999 Harm and pocd. :( have you had harm? Yes this one for me is sticking and I just budge it šš„ŗ
@Ilovedylan20@ Mine has been mostly false memories related to cheating or POCD. Pocd and false memories combination has been lethal. My OCD started not long ago but I'm already in so deep
@lcc1999 I just feel at the end of my Thether will galse memories
@Ilovedylan20@ This is affecting other people too. Like I asked my mum if I even deserve to live and my girlfriend says that I'm not myself anymore. I hate this I don't want to hurt anyone emotionally, physically or sexually. Sometimes I don't even know if this is OCD or not or am I just a freak. I just want everything to be OK
Iām going thru something similar and the uncertainty is so scary. I hope youāre okay, I know how hard this can be, you must be so strong ā¤ļø
@Phoe.nix Thank you. Are you okay? I feel each day just gets harder not easier š¢
It's hard very hard. It's like why do I have to have these demented type of ideas. It's very hard to live with, my brother means so much to me I really don't want it to be true.
TYSM for askingš„¹š„ŗIām okay, thank you. Trying to take things day by day. I will say, seeing others experiences that they post about on here has been helpful because Iām able to see how similar our thought processes are and accept that maybe itās ocd. Doing ERP has helped a lot but Iām kind of still at the beginning
@Phoe.nix Bless your heart. Us Ocd community must stick together. Are you going through false memory attack too? Isn't it just soup destroying :( xx
@Ilovedylan20@ We really do, there is no one who understands us better than each otherā¤ļø and yes I am. It has consumed my life for almost 2 months. Itās made me question everything. But Iām trying to push through and take it one day at a time. Holding out hope and trying my best not to drown in this. I hope youāre doing okay too, I know this is like the hardest thing ever and Iām so sorry youāre dealing with thisā¤ļø
@Phoe.nix Same, mine has been near to two months also :( makes me so sad! You have worded it so well. It is so hard because once we become so consumed we just absolutely drown in despair don't we š¢šxx
@Ilovedylan20@ Yes friend it absolutely feels like that, like I can barely live in the moment. I guess it is important to remember that it is OCDs job is to make us doubt everything
@Phoe.nix But don't you feel the false memories feel so real? Xx
@Ilovedylan20@ Yes they rly do and it hurts that we have no way to know if they are real or not. Itās like I wish I just knew this one thing, but I never will- so uncertainty is the only way forward I guess
@Phoe.nix Same here- I've carried out so many compulsions to work it out but it just leads me to more confusion or I find coincidences that don't help the situation
@Ilovedylan20@ Exactlyyyyyyyy. Iām so sorry youāre dealing with this I know itās so hard and scaryā¤ļø but you are stronger than you know. The SOS button on here has helped me for sure!
@Phoe.nix What does that do!? Just feels so real :(
@Ilovedylan20@ Thatās the little blue button on the bottom right if this app. It kind of leads you through coping skills based on the theme youāre dealing with
@Phoe.nix That's amazing. How are you doing today?
@Ilovedylan20@ Iām doing okay thank you, how are you?
@Phoe.nix Think I'm slowly coming out of my relapse, I've accepted there's physically no more working out I can do :( x
@Ilovedylan20@ Thatās good friend, I know how you feel- itās like we come to a point that we have no control over stuff. Therapy is helping me with that
@Phoe.nix Yes Absolutley. I've had a new false memory today and using this as a key opportunity to not ruminate x
@Ilovedylan20@ Super proud of you friend, you got thisā¤ļø
@Phoe.nix Thank you so much. I have woken up and the urge to work out is so strong and I feel really tearful but I'm going to try and get on with my day :( how are you?
@Ilovedylan20@ I feel the same way friend. Separating ourselves from that urge is so hard, but Iām so proud of you for pushing through and trying to get on with the day.
@Phoe.nix Thank you so much. I can't thank you enough for replying and being so kind. I've been signed off work today :( I feel heart broken
@Ilovedylan20@ Thatās so sweet, ofc weāre all here for each other on here š¤ and Iām sorry, what does that mean?
@Phoe.nix I've been signed off work so I won't go in as I'm too unwell with Ocd :(
@Ilovedylan20@ Aw dang. Iām rly sorry to hear that friendšplease take this time to take it easy and restā¤ļø
Ive been having terrible irrational thoughts that Ive cheated and donāt remember. Like the guilt made me repress the memory and im actually an awful person and someoneās gonna expose me. I know itās not true and I love my boyfriend more than anything but i feel so guilty for something ive never done. its been making my life so difficult and i dont know how to explain it without sounding like im covering something up :( Its making me think that I need to break up and i donāt want too, but the guilt and anxiety is eating away at me. I feel like I need to get better before I continue on or iām going to permanently ruin everything with my mental illness
I have false memory real event ocd, Iāve been married 13 years and I used to constantly bring up past mistakes from when we were dating and it RUINED our marriage, but I got medication and therapy and things got better untill a few weeks ago where everything crumbled. I have a memory that is 13 years ago of me being intimate with my husband (than boyfriend) while being intimate I have a memory of sending a text to a male who obviously liked me but I didi not while my husband was under the covers . And I keep thinking over and over how disgusting and inappropriate it was to do that especially doing it in the middle of being intimate š. I have confessed this to my husband last year and he didint believe me saying itās probably a made up memory and would are not a slut and wouldnāt do that. Now i have guilt all over again for weeks and itās taking such a toll on me itās all I think about and try to remember every detail Iāve thought about it so much I donāt even know if itās 100 percent true. But I can vividly see it when I close my eyes. How do I get over this guilt without confessing? Confessing would absolutely destroy my husband.
Hey i dont even know if i belong here or not because i dont think so i have ocd i am just making an excuse for the past crimes i have committed i am 18 now and about to be 19 so just wanted to share something i know for sure i have done this crime when i was 13 or 14 because why would i think and feel guilty over an act i have never committed for 5 years so yeah i came to know about this thing OCD and now i am putting my crimes to it and false memory that kinda stuff but in my mind its always like that "you have done those acts i have proof" after asking my sister 3 times that do you even remember a glimpse of my inapproriate behaviour towards you but no she has answered "nope if i did i would tell you i never felt uncomfortable around you " well how may she remember when she was sleeping when i did those acts and yeah she was 12 too so she must be a deep sleeper well my mind have too much proof that i am a sexual abuser i dont know why i am still typing but just wanted to know do i deserve to live anymore because according to me i am done i cant tolerate these disgusting thoughts about my sister and i may be a threat to her and i dont deserve to live in this family i love them so much but i cant do it anymore i am such a monster they deserve so much better
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