I've got a horrific false memory of me doing something to my little brother while sleeping with mental images and everything. Surely I would have felt guilty about this happening after it happened not months/years after. I seem him he's all happy and enjoying life meanwhile I'm depressed as hell because of something I would never do. How am I suppose to go on my vacation with this on my mind and severe anxiety
Hello! I'm going through a false memory crisis too at the moment. I'm more than happy and would actually be quite grateful if you'd like a chat :( I feel your pain
Yeah it's tough because logically mine doesn't make sense like why would I worry about this now. Surely it would have been the 1st thing that popped in my head when I was wondering "Did I ever harmed a child?" and surely can't forget about something this horrific then suddenly pop up. But my mind wouldn't leave me alone. I feel stuck in my bed unable to do even the basics because if this. Like am I really gonna ruin my life over something that probably didn't happen like wtf š. It's very painful
@lcc1999 Yes!!!! I completely agree and understand every single thing you re saying. I feel so consumed and feel I belong in prison.
@Ilovedylan20@ How do you usually cope with yours? Is it something related to POCD or harm or something else? I've had false memories before that kind if gave me a bit of breathing space like "oh I was too young" or something like that but this one is bad.
@lcc1999 Harm and pocd. :( have you had harm? Yes this one for me is sticking and I just budge it šš„ŗ
@Ilovedylan20@ Mine has been mostly false memories related to cheating or POCD. Pocd and false memories combination has been lethal. My OCD started not long ago but I'm already in so deep
@lcc1999 I just feel at the end of my Thether will galse memories
@Ilovedylan20@ This is affecting other people too. Like I asked my mum if I even deserve to live and my girlfriend says that I'm not myself anymore. I hate this I don't want to hurt anyone emotionally, physically or sexually. Sometimes I don't even know if this is OCD or not or am I just a freak. I just want everything to be OK
Iām going thru something similar and the uncertainty is so scary. I hope youāre okay, I know how hard this can be, you must be so strong ā¤ļø
@Phoe.nix Thank you. Are you okay? I feel each day just gets harder not easier š¢
It's hard very hard. It's like why do I have to have these demented type of ideas. It's very hard to live with, my brother means so much to me I really don't want it to be true.
TYSM for askingš„¹š„ŗIām okay, thank you. Trying to take things day by day. I will say, seeing others experiences that they post about on here has been helpful because Iām able to see how similar our thought processes are and accept that maybe itās ocd. Doing ERP has helped a lot but Iām kind of still at the beginning
@Phoe.nix Bless your heart. Us Ocd community must stick together. Are you going through false memory attack too? Isn't it just soup destroying :( xx
@Ilovedylan20@ We really do, there is no one who understands us better than each otherā¤ļø and yes I am. It has consumed my life for almost 2 months. Itās made me question everything. But Iām trying to push through and take it one day at a time. Holding out hope and trying my best not to drown in this. I hope youāre doing okay too, I know this is like the hardest thing ever and Iām so sorry youāre dealing with thisā¤ļø
@Phoe.nix Same, mine has been near to two months also :( makes me so sad! You have worded it so well. It is so hard because once we become so consumed we just absolutely drown in despair don't we š¢šxx
@Ilovedylan20@ Yes friend it absolutely feels like that, like I can barely live in the moment. I guess it is important to remember that it is OCDs job is to make us doubt everything
@Phoe.nix But don't you feel the false memories feel so real? Xx
@Ilovedylan20@ Yes they rly do and it hurts that we have no way to know if they are real or not. Itās like I wish I just knew this one thing, but I never will- so uncertainty is the only way forward I guess
@Phoe.nix Same here- I've carried out so many compulsions to work it out but it just leads me to more confusion or I find coincidences that don't help the situation
@Ilovedylan20@ Exactlyyyyyyyy. Iām so sorry youāre dealing with this I know itās so hard and scaryā¤ļø but you are stronger than you know. The SOS button on here has helped me for sure!
@Phoe.nix What does that do!? Just feels so real :(
@Ilovedylan20@ Thatās the little blue button on the bottom right if this app. It kind of leads you through coping skills based on the theme youāre dealing with
@Phoe.nix That's amazing. How are you doing today?
@Ilovedylan20@ Iām doing okay thank you, how are you?
@Phoe.nix Think I'm slowly coming out of my relapse, I've accepted there's physically no more working out I can do :( x
@Ilovedylan20@ Thatās good friend, I know how you feel- itās like we come to a point that we have no control over stuff. Therapy is helping me with that
@Phoe.nix Yes Absolutley. I've had a new false memory today and using this as a key opportunity to not ruminate x
@Ilovedylan20@ Super proud of you friend, you got thisā¤ļø
@Phoe.nix Thank you so much. I have woken up and the urge to work out is so strong and I feel really tearful but I'm going to try and get on with my day :( how are you?
@Ilovedylan20@ I feel the same way friend. Separating ourselves from that urge is so hard, but Iām so proud of you for pushing through and trying to get on with the day.
@Phoe.nix Thank you so much. I can't thank you enough for replying and being so kind. I've been signed off work today :( I feel heart broken
@Ilovedylan20@ Thatās so sweet, ofc weāre all here for each other on here š¤ and Iām sorry, what does that mean?
@Phoe.nix I've been signed off work so I won't go in as I'm too unwell with Ocd :(
@Ilovedylan20@ Aw dang. Iām rly sorry to hear that friendšplease take this time to take it easy and restā¤ļø
I have had the same false memory/instrusive image of me doing something horrible to someone when I was 12 and they were younger. It is a memory based on a real event. I truly donāt know if itās real or not but obviously, the more I think about it the more I think itās true. This has led my mind to become slightly paranoid. I worry that if this horrible image in my head is true then one day the person I might have hurt will come and k*ll me. Iām really scared I feel like I wonāt feel better as long as this āmemoryā is in my head. Does anyone have advice?
I asked my brother if I did something and he said no I donāt believe him I think heās lying last night my mind was trying to convince me to do something to him like what if I did something in my sleep or we did something and I donāt remember it because I donāt remember anything my brother asked me this morning where is his iPad and I donāt remember him asking me that so thatās where Iām worried what if itās the same I feel a sensation down there so Iām convinced I did something really bad
A couple of days ago I felt asleep on the coach, and it was 12:50 am when I woke up, so I had to go to my room which is in the other floor (my room is in the first floor and the living room is in the second floor, the architecture is weird but my house is a duplex apartment), in order to go to my room I had to walk through the hallway and my 12-year old brotherās room is nearby, so I felt a lot of anxiety and I was recording a video as proof that I didnāt do anything wrong, the problem is my video wasnāt sent, so I didnāt have proof, reassurance, but I still went downstairs to get to my room, I donāt know what to do, frankly I donāt wanna continue, please can someone help me, I think this is false memory ocd and sexual ocd, but please please help me, I canāt do this anymore, I canāt study I canāt focus on Anything else but this, and my mind really thinks I have done something to my brother, that I have raped him or that I have sexually abused him, I seriously canāt stop thinking about that, and whenever I focus on something else, my mind tells me that I shouldnāt focus on anything else because how can I? āIf you rape your little brother you shouldnāt focus on something elseā and my mind also thinks that I shouldnāt stop thinking about this because If I stopped my memories could become blurry or could seem like very far away memories, and I wanna have clear memories. Please please help me , I honestly donāt wanna go on, donāt wanna live anymore. I live in Peru, so there are not many expert therapists about ocd or false memory/ sexual ocd, please help
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