Help (anyone else with same obsessions)??

@Ryeloafbread Im always asking another if they tried the same and writing to my family to tell them im afraid its real because it feels that way

@Lfccc If your afraid, then buddy it’s not you. Suicide is pleasurable to those who want to take the easy way out. If you are afraid it means you don’t want too. Pray and don’t respond to those thoughts no matter how bad they sound.

@Ryeloafbread Then my head says im not afraid… and then its real… but i always want to hear it is not true, because i cant convince myself right now :)

@Lfccc It’s doubt, it’s happened to me before you will always doubt yourself and your own life. Remember it wants you to think your not afraid and when you question if your not afraid you will then be afraid that your not afraid. It’s meta in a way. But it all circles back to a fear of death.

@Anonymous 99 I agree as it’s happening to me as well and it’s trying to pull the stops to make me feel like I am a threat to myself. Don’t fall for the bait. Stop researching and seeking reassurance you already know the definition of ideation and OCD you won’t get anywhere with new evidence or info. Sure you have an epiphany but don’t make it a habit of being a problem solver. You will even doubt what I am saying but it happens just say “maybe, maybe not” or “I might, I might not” and move along

@Anonymous 99 But when its the ocd… it’s never dangerous right? Just unbelieable hard to live with

@Anonymous 99 And sometimes it causes anxiety and sometimes not… and that makes me doubt again

@Lfccc You just keep doubting yourself. Stop with the questions and stop trying to solve it.

@Lfccc Yeah the anxiety will come and go. The goal isn’t to get rid of the anxiety. That’s the problem we keep trying to “fix” our reactions, or analyze our feelings. We have to just accept whatever comes in and however we are feeling and not try to achieve a feeling.

@Anonymous 99 I agree. I also believe that doubt is the biggest one with suicidal OCD. I believe that when we doubt our own lives and our existence we just give into the anxiety and just cause fear. Do you think that ignoring the doubt and images with ERP is a good way of just moving past this, I am recovering myself and it’s very difficult and it makes me doubt myself and OCD but I know this is the only way to heal.

@Ryeloafbread Yes 100%. I’m still recovering and trying to maintain recovery, and I think just embracing the doubt is the best way to go. Just saying maybe and maybe not, I’m accepting this uncertainty, is the best way through OCD. It’s so much easier said then done, but it seems like that’s the way through.