the fear of schizophrenia is absolutely so strong, I want reassurance but I know it doesn’t help. I’m having relationship thoughts, I’m looping on every single thing that goes on in my days I am so lost and I don’t want to live this way anymore. It is so hard. I feel like I’m stuck in a never ending hellacious dream and all I want to do is cry. No one around me understands, I feel like I am crazy and I’ve lost my mind. I’m so tired :/
Heyy!! Please Don’t give up i know it’s easy to say it but you’ve got a lot of memories to make yet. These thoughts are here to ruin your life (they only want to do that or want to see you sad or angry) you are a beautiful person inside and out. Please do not let evil and the bad stuff OCD is take over you. You are stronger than that. You are amazing. You are great. You are loveable. You MATTER. Remember it’s OCD i classify it it helps me a lot. And you may ask how do i know; you just look at the symptoms (rumination, obssesive, feel like u need to do something to stop that, etc) YOU ARE AMAZING ❤️
I understand! It feels like absolute hell and sometimes it feels normal or becomes your normal and it is the worst thing ever I completely understand. It gets better. It will get better. I have had the worst 3 days of my life the last few days I understand. I felt like giving up to but I didn’t truly want to. It will get better for all of us!
Don’t give up. There is hope, you can get better. Ocd sucks and it will take the life out of you. But we’re all here for you and we stand by !
I understand. OCD loves to switch themes with us as well because maybe we stopped giving attention to one, so now it wants to see what it can do to continue grabbing your attention. Are you currently in therapy for OCD? An OCD trained therapist would be able to help you with ERP to help you with this. Try to be kind and gentle with yourself. You can do the hard things, even though it feels impossible. Know that guy don’t have to play the game with OCD.
Really thought about whether or not to post this but I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing/what helped them out of it. I have fears of psychosis/schiz/delusions and I started having intrusive thoughts that sound and feel delusional even though I know they’re not true, and I don’t actually believe them. I obsess over whether I think they’re true and if I’m actually delusional, then I start to feel really disconnected and dreamy (like derealization?) but then I get worried that I’m actually dissociating and/or losing my mind. I rly struggle w these thoughts as they make me so uncomfortable and make me feel like I am delusional. I will reread things I wrote, rethink things I have already said to make sure they’re coherent, argue w my thoughts, constantly check to make sure I know who I am, where I am, know who my family is, etc. to ensure I’m not losing my mind. My themes switch from this, to harm ocd and I’m just really having a hard time w the thoughts mixed w the disconnected feeling. It makes me want to stay in bed forever and cry because I don’t wanna feel this way anymore. Any advice would be so helpful.
I’m going through what is hopefully just a really bad hypochondria episode where I’ve convinced myself I have schizophrenia. It’s been about 8 months and I’ve been through a range of crazy symptoms but the most prevalent symptom is getting crazy delusional thoughts like “what if my wife is a demon and trying to get to me” “what if NOBODY is real and these are all monsters/demons out to get me” etc etc. the thoughts are absolutely terrifying and they make me look at people differently, i get paralyzed with fear and i have to question myself whether I truly believe the thoughts or not, they feel so real, when they come on I catch myself genuinely feeling paranoid that they are 100% real and having a panic attack, but then the tiny bit of me that’s still rational brings me back to reality. And from then on I have to question myself all day “do I really believe this?” “Well you technically can’t disprove those things” “if it’s not real, then why does it FEEL real?” “This really is schizophrenia” “ what if it’s not schizophrenia but ACTUALLY real?” “who do I go to for help?” “What if I can’t trust anyone” and the scariest of them all…”why would a see a doctor if this is all real” etc, it’s literally hell. I can never give a satisfying “No, I don’t believe this” to these thoughts. I can go days and weeks and be able to confidently shrug them off and tell how ridiculous they are only for them to come back with a vengeance the next day. No amount of evidence can calm these thoughts. I no longer have little breaks where I’m not thinking about this, this obsession has completely consumed me. I feel like nowhere and nobody is safe, I just feel so fucking stuck and isolated. I try so hard and pull myself back to reality and provide myself with evidence for why these thoughts cant be true, but there’s just almost like a gut feeling, and such a sense of urgency and panic that comes with these thoughts that it’s becoming more and more difficult to talk myself out of this thinking. I’m truly at my wits end. This has ruined my life. I could really use some reassurance even though I know it’s bad. I have never been like this before until I started obsessing over schizophrenia. I’ve been like this for 8 months now. I’m at the point where I either believe the thoughts are true or this is ocd or schizophrenia, there is no more fear that I might believe the thoughts, it is now, fear that the thoughts are REAL. Can ocd/anxiety really be this severe?
Hello I am new to this but I have this intense huge fear of developing or becoming slowly schizophrenia. I have a parent who had it and every since then I fear I will meet the same fate and I want the thoughts to stop I have ADHD and GAD and some depression lately and all that fuels my fears cause I don’t understand all my disorders but I question my reality and it scares me I feel blank at time and I feel scared all the time with what ifs playing over and over and then I get stuck look for reassurance and certainty that I am ok. I have three boys and one has autism who self harms and when I try to sleep I fear I will believe my dreams are real and loosing my mind and my reality and my anxiety goes up more. I don’t know what to do and there are no specialist near me that can help and I can’t afford anything and this app doesn’t accept my insurance I really want to feel better and not be stuck isolated and scared to leave for fear I will show signs in front of people and not realize when I will be gone from reality I wanna cry everyday and I feel like I need to run away. Can someone please tell me I am not alone. And the more I read about it the more I get confused or believe I have those things. I am scared help 🥺
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