Lifelong issues

From the time I was a small child I was labeled as crazy, off in the head and repeatdly told something is wrong with you by family and so-called friends. This was due to my counting rituals saying 12,12 over and over until things felt right and these actions would accor walking on the sidewalk and if I didn't step over a crack just right I would have to go back and say 1212 until things felt and the same happened with light switches. When I read the obituarys in the paper I couldn't look at " young ages" such 20 or 30 I would have to look at an older person's age and count 1212 in sets of fours until I felt I performed the ritual property. Then came trying to prove nothing was wrong me aka people pleasing all to no avail. Lastly I currently say prayers at 50 years that I have to say a certain number of time although not driving under bridge. This has been a lifelong problem and I admit I need additional help with ocd in conjunction with Wellbutrin. I'm at the point where I realized the 12 steps saying that I must acknowledge complete defeat to move forward. I ask all of you to pray for and allow me to join this fight against ocd

rt1973

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank both of you for your responses and when I get home this evening I plan to read more how ERP will help me and also reach out to a therapist who specializes in ocd

Anonymous

User type: Staff

Date posted: 1y ago

That's so awesome to hear. I think it will be one of the best decisions of your life. Truly.

Anonymous

User type: Staff

Date posted: 1y ago

I am so sorry that you are going through this. OCD can be so debilitating. Please know that you are not alone. People just cannot know what they don't understand. We can educate but at the end of the day, they still may not ever understand. But please know that the OCD community gets it and we are here for you. The amazing news is that OCD is very treatable and you can live a life in recovery. If you haven't done any ERP, I would HIGHLY recommend giving it a chance, it can be life-altering for the positive! Best wishes to you!

VGH

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi, I’m sorry that you have struggled with OCD. I too have had it for a lifetime. Have you reached out to NOCD to find a therapist that specializing the treatment of OCD? It has made all the difference in my life, it is never too late to start therapy I like to think of it as acceptance, acceptance of uncertainty and the feelings that accompany uncertainty. We have uncertainty, we feel distress and we perform a behavior that relieves that distress. With practice, we learn to accept the uncertainty and distress while we move forward with our lives. As we learn to do this, we are defeated less and less by our OCD. Hope this helps.

Vee4

Date posted: 14w ago

I think I have severe ocd

So I've had OCD since I was a child. Like really young. The first intrusive thought I can remember was when I was 5. It just keeps getting worse and lately they've been making me physically ill or throwing me into extreme panic attacks again ( ones where I can't move my body ) the other night I thought God was trying to kill me because I was thinking about ending myself from OCD+ life issues but in reality I was just having a panic attack😭😭it affects me daily. It gets a little better with therapy but I don't see therapy coming into my life any time soon and I'm not even sure if I would want to go (for multiple reasons). To wrap this up if you have severe ocd can you tell me what it's like?? I don't want to label anything without proper research and hearing others perspectives. Thank you!! <3 (My profile says all of my subtypes if that helps any)

Evieb123

Date posted: 14w ago

urgent help needed

Hi everyone, I’m reaching out here because I know this community understands the daily battles of living with OCD. Recently, I hit a really dark place and tried to take my own life. It’s been hard to admit, but I’m still here, and I’m trying to find a way forward. OCD feels relentless sometimes—the intrusive thoughts, the constant doubt, the cycles that never seem to end. It became so overwhelming that I didn’t see a way out. I know I need help, and I’m working on reaching out to professionals, but I also wanted to connect here. To those who’ve been in a similar place: What helped you keep going? How do you manage the darkest moments when OCD takes over? I feel like I’m holding on by a thread, but I’m holding on. Any advice, words of encouragement, or personal experiences would mean so much to me right now. Thank you for reading this, and for being part of a space where we can be honest about our struggles.

Dennasw

Date posted: 10w ago

My first day

Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this

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