This is needing advice/ support and kinda a rant. I’ll keep it short. Life has been really stressful lately. I have ROCD. I question often if I love my husband. I also get very obsessive about my feelings (if I’m fully happy in life, if my emotions are being blunted by medicine, so forth). I have been working hard to overcome it, but sometimes with the way life is I have trouble. Our MIL had to move in with us. She’s disabled and can’t afford to live on her own. This has made her so depressed. She’s negative all the time. But she’s also very picky. She likes things her way. We are undergoing construction on our house and she keeps questioning the people and complaining. It drives my husband and I crazy. There are other stresses going on but not worth going into. My husband is getting fed up. Life has been so busy and stressful he’s feeling down. It makes me feel down, and puts me in an ocd/depressive cycle. I feel like I’m numb to life right now. I’m getting little enjoyment out of things. And when I do, it’s only on my own. I come home and home is just a ball of stress. Even when my husband is in a good mood, I just can’t get over what’s going on. I’m not talkative. I feel like being alone, I can’t enjoy our time together. It’s like I want to be mad and upset. It’s easier I think. I don’t know. Our 1 yr anniversary is coming up next month and it’s horrible but I feel like I don’t even wanna celebrate. We were so happy on our wedding day. And life since then has been non stop stress. I feel stuck guys. I don’t know what to do. Life is getting in the way of us being able to connect and be close. In the beginning I was positive and and strong, but I think I’m just worn out now. Of course my ocd loves to feed of the thoughts that I’m not happy and this means I don’t love my husband. And I’m doing ERP on it. But anyways that’s it. Anything anyone has to say is appreciated. Everyone on this sub is amazing.

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

I’m so sorry things are like this for you, but you recognising that this is your OCD is already a good start! I’m very proud of you for that step.

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

I hope your husband understands as well, right? and I hope he can understand if you feel unwell on your anniversary. Me and my girlfriend’s anniversary was yesterday and i felt unwell, too, and she understood. That’s a good, loving relationship

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

I’m so sorry this is happening, but I’m sending strength and luck your way.

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

Yeah, he keeps asking if I’m okay and if there’s anything I can do. He does get sad when I’m down, but he cares for me really well.

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

Thank you for the kind words!!

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

I’m happy you seem to be in a healthy relationship! Really, those words can be extremely helpful for those of us who have OCD. I hope the ERP goes well, by the way! If there’s ever anything else you wanna say, we’re all here (or at least I am) to listen.

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

Thanks so much!!! I wish we could message people on this app

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

if you have tumblr, you can always contact me there; the username is the same. @fleurisez

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

and me too, actually :( but it’s alright, we can manage

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

I don’t have a tumblr! I do have Reddit though

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

ill make a reddit later, then :p do you have discord?

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

I don’t! I don’t even think. I know what that is lol. I feel old ?

Anonymous

Date posted: 6y

hehe i get it!!! but i’ll make a reddit later. what’s your user on there?

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

ocdthrowawayhey

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

amandarin

Date posted: 6y

I find Reddit to be great for ocd as well, sometimes I post on here and there. Sometimes I pick one. It’s nice just finding support

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