Yeah, by the time I was your age I had lost everything and everyone. Was all alone in the world. And the worst was that nobody knew back then about ocd.
My family just hated me, people described me as weird or nuts because I changed and became very introverted,... it was so hard that I had to leave home, run away, just to save myself.
I was backstabbed by my closest ones so many times, father tried to strangle me, they proclaimed me crazy and had two men and a doctor come unexpectedly to my home to put me in a straitjacket and forcefully take me to a mental hospital which they referred to as the nut house. I spoke to the doctor that came with them and she found no reason to forcefully take me anywhere. I confided in her about how my family treated me just because I didn't want visitors in the flat every single day all afternoon ( 2 bedroom apartment, 4 people, no peace to do school work, to learn. I was awake all nights long, because only then it was quiet and peaceful in my home) and because I wanted for my family to spend some more quality time together alone without other people. I resented other people, but it was not their fault. My ex mom and ex sister made sure that they were in our flat every day.
The doctor told me that my plan to run away was the best thing for me to do and gave me her phone number in case they tormented me some more. She kept my plans a secret, but told my parents if they do anything to upset or hurt me I have her number and she will report their behavior to the authorities.
I spent two more days at home and then left and never came back. Over 1/4 of a century ago.
I somehow survived. No friends, no relatives, alone. I was hungry, starving for almost 2 years. Then I got a decent job and met my husband and it was better. But even after that, all years till now, ocd has been demolishing, wrecking my life from time to time. Medication saved my life.
So, see dear. I understand you and feel your pain completely. But if I made it through with ocd and no money, nobody's support, in a city far away from home,.. you will too. I am sure. How can I be sure? Because in contrary to me, you have us, our support.
We are here for you! You will make it.
Love and hugs.