I’ll be doing something normal and I won’t even have an intrusive thought and my brain will be like “SEE? This proves you’re not _____” etc.. like it just AUTOMATICALLY reassures me. Maybe this a symptom of denial 👎👎or maybe it’s OCD
I used to do this all day every day :). It is the OCD, it is so sneaky and persistent :) It's like, give me a break, I'm not even thinking about anything. Just allow that thought to be there, just like every other one. Don't answer or analyze. One thing I noticed, if I thought "I wonder if that's my OCD" it always was :)
It’s the ocd
Not anymore, no
Is it okay to feel disconnect from your partner? Like i can feel my brain fighting to recognize him but idk. Im so scared. I love him so much
@Sreevidhya Yes this happend to me
@1234ocdisabitch What do you do then? I have had these moments of realization and calm down but then i dont recognize him and i panic thinking that i dont love him
Yesss
This is my case with my partner. As in I’m anxious whether i love him or not and then when smth happens between us i get worried and then my brain goes “see? You do love him”. Like ik but i just don’t like going back and forth
@Sreevidhya YEAH EXACTLY and it’s so bad!! Like ok brain I appreciate the gesture but I hate going back and forth it’s like a reverse intrusive thought!!
@Rage against the machine Like our ocd literally tries playing the good and the bad guy but all ik is that it’s the bad guy.
@Sreevidhya Right?? I don’t know how it can be like a bad guy living inside of me. It’s like a separate person!!
@Rage against the machine Exactly and i hate it honestly. Makes me feel so disconnected from my partner. I’m sorry I’m bringing my relationship into this but I’m kind of struggling with it rn
@Sreevidhya No problem friend!! I’m struggling with mine - I have TOCD and ROCD and I went to my boyfriend’s house and I just felt so very disconnected. I love him. I just felt so detached
@Rage against the machine Are you doing any therapy
@Sreevidhya No, unfortunately. I have a doctor’s appointment on Friday next week and I’m trying to hold out until then.
@Sreevidhya Are you?
@Rage against the machine No not really. I’m relatively new to knowing about ROCD. I was going crazy and did research and found out what was going on. I’m thinking of therapy but idk if anyone would specialize in it where i live.
@Sreevidhya I highly recommend it. I’ve been struggling with OCD almost my entire life and I have never been to therapy, and I wish I did. My ROCD was bad like yours (before the horrible TOCD consumed my life) and it was really upsetting as it attacked my relationship that I value so much.
@Rage against the machine What’s TOCD
@Rage against the machine I honestly want to but idk if therapists get specializes in it. I have arranged a call within the app.
@Sreevidhya It’s Transgender OCD, where I fear I am transgender instead of what I am now.
@Rage against the machine Ohhh okayyy
Like when i talk to him i can not talk to him like a friend but i don’t want to say anything cause i feel like ocd latches into every reassurance i give myself and make it worse
@Sreevidhya Say it’s ocd and that’s it , ocd can’t harm ur realtionship your obviously worrying u care so much about him y’all will be fine .
@1234ocdisabitch I just want to recognize him thats it. Get that realization
@Sreevidhya You will soon! Don’t worry idk how to goes back to normal BUT IT WILL ! Just try to aknolegde the thoughts and be like ok? Good for u ! (To the thoughts)
@1234ocdisabitch Hopefully with therapy.
Hey love I need some advice
@1234ocdisabitch Yes
When an intrusive thought comes I can’t just say “that’s not true” and just move on. I always feel like I have to disprove the thought and be able to say it with confidence but the problem is that the ocd doesn’t allow me to feel and say it with confidence so I get stuck for hours or even days. How can I stop feeling like I need to do this?
When I was a child, before I knew this was OCD, I struggled with constant "magical thinking" compulsions (don't step on the crack or mom's back will actually break, etc). When I later learned this was OCD, it almost immediately solved it. Any time I got a magical thought, I would say to myself "that's just an OCD thought. ignore it." and it just stopped coming! Like seriously it fixed the magical thinking stuff forever. But of course the OCD has resurfaced in other ways. So naturally, I've tried to use the same strategy since I had so much success with it previously. But I wonder sometimes if telling myself "that's just OCD" is almost functioning as a reassurance compulsion? I hate how meta this gets. For example, I have ROCD that comes and goes. So sometimes I'll get a thought like "what if i'm still in love with my ex?" and then I'll tell myself "that's obviously just an ROCD thought" and will feel relief, almost like reassurance. But it comes back. So is telling myself that it's OCD a reassurance compulsion ?? It's just so weird because it worked so perfectly as a kid with the magical thinking thing.
Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.
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