Struggling with guilt and fear of harming my children due to OCD and depression.

I can’t stop crying.

OCD stole those precious moments away from my baby and I. She’s 18 months now but I went through so much. I was having really scary thoughts. I didn’t want to be around her cause I was scared I was going to hurt her. I avoided my baby when she needed her mother. I was so scared to be alone with her. It hurts so bad. She’s the most perfect thing on this earth and I feel like she deserves so much better. I’ve struggled with OCD and depression all my life. I’m so scared that I’m going to ruin her somehow with all my mental health issues. God I just want the best for her. I can’t get over the guilt. I’m 20 weeks with my second and I’m so scared. I love my babies so much but i don’t want to ruin them.

Username: tylermatthewsneadtylermatthew...

Date posted: 1y ago

Remember that the reason you fear these thoughts is because you are a beautiful human being. You fear hurting someone so much so that you obsess about it. People who genuinely want to hurt their children/loved ones don’t think twice about it. They just do it. Remember that it’s your OCD , and that these thoughts aren’t you. Intrusive thoughts suck !! And it’s gonna always suck especially when you mixed that with obsessive compulsive disorder. YOU will get through this. There’s no ifs ands or buts.

Username: KelSul73KelSul73

Date posted: 1y ago

I am in a similar place😭… I have my first daughter, and she is almost 15 months old. I have also let OCD take too much away from my daughter and I. I had spent so many months being fearful and getting images of harming my daughter; even today. It’s f***ing miserable😭 but we are amazing! We are moms that are trying our best and our best is good enough! You’ve had two precious babes that love you more than anything. And you will grow because you are seeking help and wanting more than anything to be the best mom you can be!

Username: KelSul73KelSul73

Date posted: 1y ago

One if the greatest gifts you can give your precious babies is sharing your struggles- mental health is SO important to take care of and sharing that with your children will be a LIFELONG gift for them.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m so sorry 🥹 have you done erp? You got this! Please seek therapy with an ocd specialist

Username: Kilo2001Kilo2001

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous I was in therapy. I don’t get the thoughts anymore I just can’t get over the guilt of having those thought and I it ruined what was supposed to be a special time.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Kilo2001 that shows you are a compassionate human being. I’m happy you recovered. She her mama now to create beautiful memories ♥️ praying I recover from you!! Luv you angel

Username: SPH

Date posted: 5y ago

Does anyone have postpartum-triggered OCD or harm thoughts involving their baby or children? I just had my first child two months ago and am obsessed with the fear I’m going to hurt her or that I don’t love her.

Harm OCD

Username: Kasey2001

Date posted: 2y ago

I have severe OCD and I experience all different types of intrusive thoughts and compulsions I fucking hate it! But one thing I struggle with the most is POCD! It makes me violently sick and disturbed but I know it’s not me and I know it’s not true but then why do I feel so disgusting? I have two children, one 5 and the other is 1, I don’t want to change my daughters nappys I don’t want to get her dressed (of course I do because I don’t have a choice) but it triggers me so bad and gets me in a state, I don’t know how to get over this I’ve had this certain thought for over six weeks and I can’t do it anymore, I’m so distressed they deserve better, why can’t I just be a normal person, I’ve actually thought about giving them up over these thoughts it’s breaking me and it’s breaking my heart, I actually can’t try beat this anymore.

Username: Caree

Date posted: 2y ago

I’m a new mom with out of control OCD

I’m a mom of a 6 month old and my OCD has gotten so bad that my brain constantly convinces me that I’m doing something bad to her or feeling a gross way about her to the point where I don’t even want to be near her. This is breaking my heart because I love my daughter so much and had such a strong bond with her and this is killing me and making me sad/feel disgusting at the same time.

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