It’s constant thoughts… even some like “oh what if <insert past person> sees you and thinks you’re pretty? And it repeats over and over. I missed my medicine dosage last night. Already prepared for the bad thoughts. I’m so sad. My rocd and false memory ocd is so bad. I really want to give up. I feel like I can never enjoy my relationship, I love him so much tho, more than I can even say
I have had this so many times. It really, really sucks. Now I am having it about a coworker and a friend that I used to flirt with sometimes. I sexual thoughts or thoughts where I imagine I’m dating that person and it feels like they aren’t always involuntary or intrusive 🙁 meanwhile I’ll be literally cuddling with my bf while it’s happening, the guilt is horrible
@spookycupcake Omg yes and another issue I have is whenever I post, or have pretty things of me on my social media my ocd is like “what if <insert past person> sees and think ur pretty” and it keeps repeating. like to the point where it seems involuntary. Just repeating. And when I go through my views or likes my ocd is like what if someone from ur past is in there? Its never about one person. It’s about a whole bunch of past people. But ocd usually clings into the ones my boyfriend overthinks about.
@cs223 Mine usually clings to specific people probably because I don’t have much dating history and then it tricks me into worrying that I still have feelings for them. But yes ugh it’s probably the most frequent and worst theme for me. I notice it gets extra bad at night when I’m trying to sleep or cuddle with my bf that’s when it makes me the most panicky. Otherwise throughout the day lately I’m able to kinda tune it out and tell myself “it’s okay I know it’s just the anxiety”
@spookycupcake YESS! at night it’s sm worse… and don’t even get me started on DREAMS. i have ocd dreams all the time. that put people from my past in my dreams. or sometimes I do smthng wrong in my dream. I use to have dreams abt my bf cheating all the time but since my rocd got worse it flipped onto me. Like omg all my ocd is is worrying if I did smthng wrong and forgot in my relationship, or just all these bad relationship thoughts. Like omg it’s so annoying. like last night I had a dream that included people from my past in. And yes my ocd clings onto specific people sometimes. It’s usually the ones where I had actual history with, dating, relationship, etc. it tricks me into worrying if I miss them or smthng. Bc when I get the thoughts I get sad and frustrated bc they won’t go away, but my ocd takes that and says I’m sad bc I miss the people that are popping into my head
@spookycupcake Omg and like if there’s a specific person from my past that my bf overthinks about or asks questions abt, my ocd makes those people the main ones that pop up in my head
@spookycupcake And it’s so much worse at night, when I’m half asleep and can’t STOP the thoughts. so they keep going and getting worse then i wake up and be like wtf… but then it feels like I was sitting there enjoying the thoughts
@cs223 Ugh sammee it’s just like my waking brain but in a dream and it plays out scenarios with people that I really don’t want to have. And it’s always people I had some sort of feelings for or “talked to” too, making me doubt if I’m actually over them. It’s nice to relate on this 😭
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@Anonymous I get those also:( it’s constant about his ex. My ocd is just sooo bad. Ik urs is the opposite but is mine still ocd?
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