Mooooshroom
- Date posted
- 2y
No hope.
I don't think it's ocd anymore. I'm convinced that I'm going to hell and there's nothing I can do. I don't want to i want to go to heaven. these thoughts are killing me. I can't do this anymore.
taurisingtaurising
- Date posted
- 2y
i’m struggling with religious theme as well, i hope it gets better for u
FearAndLoathingFearAndLoathing
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Do you mind if I ask, are you protestant, Catholic, or something else?
MooooshroomMooooshroom
- Date posted
- 2y
I'm catholic
FearAndLoathingFearAndLoathing
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
@Mooooshroom - I'm a Lutheran, so you'll have to forgive me if I'm getting anything wrong here about Catholicism. I hope this is helpful to you and not annoying or preachy, so if it bothers you just ignore everything past this point lol. First off, never underestimate God's ability to forgive or his ability to understand what you're going through. Even Saint Paul was responsible for the murder of Christians before God got to him. I don't know what kind of compulsions you're dealing with, but I'm guessing one of them is confession. The process of confession within Catholicism is a great thing, but unfortunately it is quite literally set up like an OCD loop. You state what you've done that is evil, and the priest gives you reassurance and possibly a number of prayers or Hail Marys. Additionally, Catholic doctrine emphasizes good works and deeds, which you may be tempted to believe you have not done enough of. So while I'm not saying you should stop confession or stop doing good works, understand that in a lot of ways, the church's institutions are set up for people who don't have the broken guilt loop that we have. A normal person would understand that their sins are forgiven. We can't accept that, so much so that we think our need to punish ourselves is greater than God's ability to forgive. Martin Luther, who has the distinctions of having OCD and being excommunicated by the church, would confess his sins for hours on end, so much so that the other priests got sick of his scrupulosity. But the reason he was excommunicated was not because of any of the minor transgressions he confessed to day in and day out, it was because he stood up to the excesses and the sins of the church leadership. Pope Francis agrees with this assessment, at least as far as saying that Luther "delivered medicine" to the Catholic Church via the Reformation. With all that being said, what I'm trying to give you a little relief. But from experience, I know that if it helps, it will eventually lose its ability to do that. I would strongly recommend you do therapy if you haven't done so already. It really does help, if you're with someone who understands OCD. The therapists here are literally the only people I've found within 400 miles of where I live, so I'd really recommend it on this app.
ohseedee8ohseedee8
- Date posted
- 2y
I go through the same thing
Gabrielle100%Gabrielle100%
- Date posted
- 2y
Jesus once told a Saint that he would start creation all over just to hear her say “I love you.” He would do the same for you. I’m assuming you’re Christian. God has taught me several lessons in the last two years. I learned His grace is so infinite and so accessible. His very essence is love. Love is to will the good for another. St. Therese said if she were the darkest sinner she would throw herself at the feet of Jesus for mercy. I have struggled for almost ten years with this type of OCD. It was the first theme I ever had. I still have it. Hang on new bubble.
Gabrielle100%Gabrielle100%
- Date posted
- 2y
I would do two things. Number one, read “A Story of a Soul” by St. Therese. She had this type of ocd as well and overcame it. Idk if your Catholic or Protestant but it’s a good story for any Christian. Secondly, something you could do anytime the ocd gets bad(or when it’s fine) is the surrender your ocd to Jesus. Don’t ask Him to take it, surrender it to Him. Unite your suffering to His cross. Invite Him in on it. You can ask for healing. You can ask for strength to bear this cross. Whatever you do, surrender it to His will. Bear it with love. As St. Therese said, “If you bear your crops with anger and sadness, if will drag you to the depths of Hell. If you l bear it with live, it will lift you to the heights of Heaven.” That doesn’t mean you seek out suffering, or that you like it. It means that you do it for God. It doesn’t mean you won’t ever be sad or miserable, but when you are you turn that misery over to Jesus. Just as Jesus need help carrying His cross, you need it as well. Let Him help you. He understands the need for help.
SarahRobSarahRob
- Date posted
- 2y
I saw in a lower comment your Catholic, I am too. I struggle with these kinds of thoughts as well. But God wants us with him. He doesn’t send anyone to Hell who earnestly wants Him. I know it’s hard to believe in the throes of it all, but God wants to be with you even more than you want Him. Check out St Theresa’s letter to her cousin Marie Guérin. They both had our affliction, and St Theresa’s advice to her cousin gives me much comfort personally.
Iceberg22Iceberg22
- Date posted
- 2y
Scrupulositysolutions.com is so helpful. I understand the pain of these thoughts. Just know that God loves you and is strong enough to hold and keep you, regardless of how you’re struggling. There is hope & freedom🩵
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Anonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 24w
Can someone help
My ocd is going off the hinges. I can’t stop thinking God is angry at me and hates me and it’s weird. And can’t stop thinking everyone hates me. I can’t stop thinking that no matter what I try I’ll never get better. This sucks
Anonymous
- Date posted
- 12w
Religious OCD
Hey all. I need help. I am sitting on my bathroom floor freaking out and convinced that all my work towards getting better has gone out the window. I am so scared of the “bad guy” getting me all the time. I constantly feel like I have to prove to God that I don’t mean these awful feelings and thoughts that I have about the bad guy. I’ve had trouble sleeping tonight, going in and out of consciousness, all while dealing with bad thoughts going in and out of my head. Finally I woke up and am flooded with “you have so many thoughts and feeling that you let slide while you were trying to sleep. You had thoughts that you accepted the bad guy and you didn’t dispute them before you tried to move on. You have so much to answer for.” So now I’m sitting here in my bathroom floor hysterically crying and begging God to believe me when I say I don’t any of these thoughts or feelings… please someone help
dallia
- Date posted
- 16d
terrified
I feel so hopeless right now. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so tired of living with this constant fear and guilt. I keep thinking that God is angry with me and that I’m being punished. I’m terrified that I’ve committed blasphemy—especially against the Holy Spirit—and that I’m going to hell. Yesterday, because of my OCD-driven curiosity, learning more about my faith—especially about the Trinity—has left me mentally exhausted and deeply confused, like I’m losing my grip on reality. The thought that God might already be punishing me only makes everything feel heavier. I’ve been breaking down since yesterday and struggling with intense anxiety. Even trying to pray scares me, because I feel like God is so mad at me. Deep down, I’m afraid I might be beyond forgiveness. I feel completely lost and terrified.
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