- Username
- Mooooshroom
- Date posted
- 1y ago
No hope.
I don't think it's ocd anymore. I'm convinced that I'm going to hell and there's nothing I can do. I don't want to i want to go to heaven. these thoughts are killing me. I can't do this anymore.
- Username
- taurisingtaurising
- Date posted
- 1y ago
i’m struggling with religious theme as well, i hope it gets better for u
- Username
- FearAndLoathingFearAndLoathing
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Do you mind if I ask, are you protestant, Catholic, or something else?
- Username
- MooooshroomMooooshroom
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I'm catholic
- Username
- FearAndLoathingFearAndLoathing
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
@Mooooshroom - I'm a Lutheran, so you'll have to forgive me if I'm getting anything wrong here about Catholicism. I hope this is helpful to you and not annoying or preachy, so if it bothers you just ignore everything past this point lol. First off, never underestimate God's ability to forgive or his ability to understand what you're going through. Even Saint Paul was responsible for the murder of Christians before God got to him. I don't know what kind of compulsions you're dealing with, but I'm guessing one of them is confession. The process of confession within Catholicism is a great thing, but unfortunately it is quite literally set up like an OCD loop. You state what you've done that is evil, and the priest gives you reassurance and possibly a number of prayers or Hail Marys. Additionally, Catholic doctrine emphasizes good works and deeds, which you may be tempted to believe you have not done enough of. So while I'm not saying you should stop confession or stop doing good works, understand that in a lot of ways, the church's institutions are set up for people who don't have the broken guilt loop that we have. A normal person would understand that their sins are forgiven. We can't accept that, so much so that we think our need to punish ourselves is greater than God's ability to forgive. Martin Luther, who has the distinctions of having OCD and being excommunicated by the church, would confess his sins for hours on end, so much so that the other priests got sick of his scrupulosity. But the reason he was excommunicated was not because of any of the minor transgressions he confessed to day in and day out, it was because he stood up to the excesses and the sins of the church leadership. Pope Francis agrees with this assessment, at least as far as saying that Luther "delivered medicine" to the Catholic Church via the Reformation. With all that being said, what I'm trying to give you a little relief. But from experience, I know that if it helps, it will eventually lose its ability to do that. I would strongly recommend you do therapy if you haven't done so already. It really does help, if you're with someone who understands OCD. The therapists here are literally the only people I've found within 400 miles of where I live, so I'd really recommend it on this app.
- Username
- ohseedee8ohseedee8
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I go through the same thing
- Username
- Gabrielle100%Gabrielle100%
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Jesus once told a Saint that he would start creation all over just to hear her say “I love you.” He would do the same for you. I’m assuming you’re Christian. God has taught me several lessons in the last two years. I learned His grace is so infinite and so accessible. His very essence is love. Love is to will the good for another. St. Therese said if she were the darkest sinner she would throw herself at the feet of Jesus for mercy. I have struggled for almost ten years with this type of OCD. It was the first theme I ever had. I still have it. Hang on new bubble.
- Username
- Gabrielle100%Gabrielle100%
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I would do two things. Number one, read “A Story of a Soul” by St. Therese. She had this type of ocd as well and overcame it. Idk if your Catholic or Protestant but it’s a good story for any Christian. Secondly, something you could do anytime the ocd gets bad(or when it’s fine) is the surrender your ocd to Jesus. Don’t ask Him to take it, surrender it to Him. Unite your suffering to His cross. Invite Him in on it. You can ask for healing. You can ask for strength to bear this cross. Whatever you do, surrender it to His will. Bear it with love. As St. Therese said, “If you bear your crops with anger and sadness, if will drag you to the depths of Hell. If you l bear it with live, it will lift you to the heights of Heaven.” That doesn’t mean you seek out suffering, or that you like it. It means that you do it for God. It doesn’t mean you won’t ever be sad or miserable, but when you are you turn that misery over to Jesus. Just as Jesus need help carrying His cross, you need it as well. Let Him help you. He understands the need for help.
- Username
- SarahRobSarahRob
- Date posted
- 1y ago
I saw in a lower comment your Catholic, I am too. I struggle with these kinds of thoughts as well. But God wants us with him. He doesn’t send anyone to Hell who earnestly wants Him. I know it’s hard to believe in the throes of it all, but God wants to be with you even more than you want Him. Check out St Theresa’s letter to her cousin Marie Guérin. They both had our affliction, and St Theresa’s advice to her cousin gives me much comfort personally.
- Username
- Iceberg22Iceberg22
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Scrupulositysolutions.com is so helpful. I understand the pain of these thoughts. Just know that God loves you and is strong enough to hold and keep you, regardless of how you’re struggling. There is hope & freedom🩵
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- Username
- cerulean
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I have Religious OCD and it's absolute torture. I'm always worried that I'm not saved or that I'm a terrible Christian, or that God is disappointed in me. I feel guilty almost constantly, and the only way to find relief is by seeking reassurance, either through Christian articles online, or through talking to my pastor. I'm sure my pastor is annoyed with me by now because every few weeks, I call and text him, urgently asking him for help. And now that I've discovered what ROCD/scrupulousity is, it's gotten much worse. At first, I was relieved to know that I'm not the only one who suffers from this, but then I started to realize that I compulsively seek reassurance. So now I feel guilty every time I pray or read Christian articles or talk to someone about my problems, because I'm terrified that I might be compulsively seeking reassurance. So now I've become obsessed over the fear of engaging in my compulsions! I don't know what to do. I just want to have a normal, functioning Christian life. I just want to stop living in constant fear and guilt. I would never kill myself, but sometimes I feel like life isn't worth living and I secretly hope I'll die in my sleep so that I won't have to live like this anymore. I just want to go to Heaven to be with my Jesus, where He will "wipe away every tear from [my] eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things [will] have passed away." I can't live like this anymore. Someone please help me.
- Username
- La25
- Date posted
- 43w ago
Help
Whenever I have thoughts about things that are hard for me to handle I have intrusive thoughts about letting myself die and go to hell and I'm tired and I'm worried that I carelessly agreed that I wanted to die and go to hell and now I'm scared what if I ended up agreeing to it!? I'm panicking. I know God knows my heart and I'm really tired and the thought happened when I was under stress but I had an intrusive thought saying I wanted to die like that and I think I carelessly agreed to it (although I know fighting your thoughts makes OCD worse)
- Username
- FunkyFred
- Date posted
- 37w ago
Just over it tbh
How do you guys deal with religious OCD? I don’t wanna go to hell.. i’m so scared of blasphemous thoughts.. i feel like i force horrible blasphemous thoughts.. what am i evil? i’m seriously about to cry cause God please help me.. somebody please just help me
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