No hope.

I don't think it's ocd anymore. I'm convinced that I'm going to hell and there's nothing I can do. I don't want to i want to go to heaven. these thoughts are killing me. I can't do this anymore.

taurising

Date posted: 2y

i’m struggling with religious theme as well, i hope it gets better for u

FearAndLoathing

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

Do you mind if I ask, are you protestant, Catholic, or something else?

Mooooshroom

Date posted: 2y

I'm catholic

FearAndLoathing

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Mooooshroom - I'm a Lutheran, so you'll have to forgive me if I'm getting anything wrong here about Catholicism. I hope this is helpful to you and not annoying or preachy, so if it bothers you just ignore everything past this point lol. First off, never underestimate God's ability to forgive or his ability to understand what you're going through. Even Saint Paul was responsible for the murder of Christians before God got to him. I don't know what kind of compulsions you're dealing with, but I'm guessing one of them is confession. The process of confession within Catholicism is a great thing, but unfortunately it is quite literally set up like an OCD loop. You state what you've done that is evil, and the priest gives you reassurance and possibly a number of prayers or Hail Marys. Additionally, Catholic doctrine emphasizes good works and deeds, which you may be tempted to believe you have not done enough of. So while I'm not saying you should stop confession or stop doing good works, understand that in a lot of ways, the church's institutions are set up for people who don't have the broken guilt loop that we have. A normal person would understand that their sins are forgiven. We can't accept that, so much so that we think our need to punish ourselves is greater than God's ability to forgive. Martin Luther, who has the distinctions of having OCD and being excommunicated by the church, would confess his sins for hours on end, so much so that the other priests got sick of his scrupulosity. But the reason he was excommunicated was not because of any of the minor transgressions he confessed to day in and day out, it was because he stood up to the excesses and the sins of the church leadership. Pope Francis agrees with this assessment, at least as far as saying that Luther "delivered medicine" to the Catholic Church via the Reformation. With all that being said, what I'm trying to give you a little relief. But from experience, I know that if it helps, it will eventually lose its ability to do that. I would strongly recommend you do therapy if you haven't done so already. It really does help, if you're with someone who understands OCD. The therapists here are literally the only people I've found within 400 miles of where I live, so I'd really recommend it on this app.

ohseedee8

Date posted: 2y

I go through the same thing

Gabrielle100%

Date posted: 2y

Jesus once told a Saint that he would start creation all over just to hear her say “I love you.” He would do the same for you. I’m assuming you’re Christian. God has taught me several lessons in the last two years. I learned His grace is so infinite and so accessible. His very essence is love. Love is to will the good for another. St. Therese said if she were the darkest sinner she would throw herself at the feet of Jesus for mercy. I have struggled for almost ten years with this type of OCD. It was the first theme I ever had. I still have it. Hang on new bubble.

Gabrielle100%

Date posted: 2y

I would do two things. Number one, read “A Story of a Soul” by St. Therese. She had this type of ocd as well and overcame it. Idk if your Catholic or Protestant but it’s a good story for any Christian. Secondly, something you could do anytime the ocd gets bad(or when it’s fine) is the surrender your ocd to Jesus. Don’t ask Him to take it, surrender it to Him. Unite your suffering to His cross. Invite Him in on it. You can ask for healing. You can ask for strength to bear this cross. Whatever you do, surrender it to His will. Bear it with love. As St. Therese said, “If you bear your crops with anger and sadness, if will drag you to the depths of Hell. If you l bear it with live, it will lift you to the heights of Heaven.” That doesn’t mean you seek out suffering, or that you like it. It means that you do it for God. It doesn’t mean you won’t ever be sad or miserable, but when you are you turn that misery over to Jesus. Just as Jesus need help carrying His cross, you need it as well. Let Him help you. He understands the need for help.

SarahRob

Date posted: 2y

I saw in a lower comment your Catholic, I am too. I struggle with these kinds of thoughts as well. But God wants us with him. He doesn’t send anyone to Hell who earnestly wants Him. I know it’s hard to believe in the throes of it all, but God wants to be with you even more than you want Him. Check out St Theresa’s letter to her cousin Marie Guérin. They both had our affliction, and St Theresa’s advice to her cousin gives me much comfort personally.

Iceberg22

Date posted: 2y

Scrupulositysolutions.com is so helpful. I understand the pain of these thoughts. Just know that God loves you and is strong enough to hold and keep you, regardless of how you’re struggling. There is hope & freedom🩵

sophia70

Date posted: 23w

I can’t function

My religious ocd is so bad I can’t do anything I wan to anymore and want to check in myself to a hospital. I can’t dress the way I want, do anything at all and feel I just convert to full Christianity so I do not go to hell. My ocd tells me I hate Hod and talk crap about God when I don’t.

Tulip1234

Date posted: 7w

Religious OCD

I keep having disgusting sexual and intrusive thoughts about God Jesus, Holy Spirit I feel hopeless and like there’s nothing left for me. What if this is who I am and how I think I can’t even pray without having thoughts or images.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5w

My mind seems to be imploding in on itself

So, alot has changed. I'm Christian and currently believe we are in the end of times. It's changed my whole perspective on life. I quit my job and moved back in with family, starting to go to church, apologized to those I hurt except, one person who I talked to two family members and they told me to delete the message and with my other apology ( that i also believed was God telling me to confess in 2020) i lied at some parts because of shame and confusing myself most likely intentionally. I confessed everything to my dad and he says since i turned from it, repented, that i need to let it go and continue forward. Since then, my minds been saying that I'm outside of God's will and everything's gone down hill. I had also prayed that God exposed me and now it's like all this evil and wickedness that feels like it's coming out of my heart settles into my chest. I've prayed to God, worshipped to God, but thoughts and images of being sent to hell or my loved ones pops into my head and I've gone to sleep twice each night accepting the fact that because of me not doing so may have doomed me and my loved ones and I feel scared that I got so tired and stopped fighting it. I've had ocd since I was 7 but it just is so scary because it's hitting down to the wire and I'm scared that I was never a child of God at all I mean I have iniquity I thought I repented for but people I love still struggle with what I've done and I prayed for them and tried to help them and suggest therapy but I haven't did what I could to make it right like I should've. But these images and thoughts they're horrible. I feel like I'm against God truly and I'm like Lord change the circumstances and I won't resist so that I can preach Your word and everyday I feel like I'm gambling. It's like every thought is biblical for the most part. I don't want to kill myself cuz what if I have a chance that God will have mercy on me but....

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