Hey guys so my psychiatrist basically said I suffer from moderate OCD and prescribed me Sertraline(Zoloft) but I needed up canceling my Medicine and my whole entire visit there because none of the therapist does ERP so I decided to try a place the specialize in OCD. I wanna stay far way from meds. I suffer from OCD killer thoughts but is this considered OCD when you think you have a mental illness where gonna go all crazy and start being violent? Like at times I’m scared I’m bipolar, or schizophrenic. Before I would be worried and anxiety would rise when I thought of hurting other people, but now sometimes my urges feel so real I think about hurting someone and I feel like I enjoy it and I don’t feel the guilt. And sometimes I feel intense guilt for my parents thinking wow I feel so bad for their daughter cause she’s gonna be a murderer. Like sometimes I feel like I could do things I was once scared of. Like for instance, today there was this dude staring at me and I straight forward told him with an attitude “ what are you staring at” And sometimes all my other old intrusive thoughts come back ( aka being bisexual, committing suicide, thinking about self harm) what do I do... I feel like a mess. And I constantly search up all the other mental disorders that Amanda Bynes has and lady Gaga. I’m so confused I’m a mess. I feel anxiety but then my minds tells me I love murder, jail and violence. Sorry this is so long I’m so lost I wanna be normal again.

Hi! I take zoloft for OCD and it’s helped me a lot. I wasn’t keen on taking meds but I really needed help. I do this along with cognitive behavioral therapy. Something I also found helpful was being mindful of the thoughts and calling them out as OCD. For example, when I’d get an intrusive thought I would say, “this is OCD not me!” Or “Okay Chancie, stop. This is your OCD.”

I understand. You definitely should find a therapist ASAP to work with who can guide you through treatment. Best of luck!!

Do you believe OCD is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain? Do you have opposition to taking medicine for other conditions like asthma, infections, etc? This is no different. Some people just need medications for different things. There has been hundred of research studies showing SSRIs are effective for anxiety and OCD as well as safe. You must come to a place however that taking the chance is worth it. Yes, what if you feel some ill effects? You could stop the medication. But what if you feel better than you have in ages? The decision is up to you. All I can say is that sertraline has made such an improvement in my life and I have only been able to start managing my OCD because of it

Hi Naeun, I’m going through the same thing you are. It takes a huge toll on me and it makes me feel like crap all day every day. Do you have snapchat? Maybe we can talk there and if you’re up for it, vent to each other.

OK hi, do you have these thoughts all day?

I’ve been suffering for a month now but I haven’t been diagnosed completely, the therapist told me I do show signs of OCD but never gave me a diagnosis. I do suffer from anxiety though.

I get anxiety from thinking I’m gonna take meds. I saw something violent trying to see and test to see if I was gonna get anxiety and I felt like I really enjoyed it and wanted to smile. But it bothers me , but I enjoy? And feel fascinated ? I’m so lost wtf is going on with me. I can’t even talk to people.

Yeah I wanna try ERP first and don’t wanna rely on meds. You know what else scares me is that I had a dream once that I ki**** someone and I didn’t even guilty because I “forgave myself” like I said it’s ok u hurt this person because of ur ocd and it freaked out. I don’t want any meds to change chemicals in my brain. Ugh

@worrieddriver thank you! Personally I am against medication because Zoloft caused ( TRIGGER) My grandfather to commit suicide. So therefore it gives me anxiety taking them. I know everyone is different but please do get where I am coming from ❤️The side effects are also what scares me and esp since I started college I can’t risk staying feeling sick. Also I just wanted to know if the things I mentioned were OCD things. Like thinking I’m bipolar and everything. Also I don’t wanna be reliable on meds. And when I get off them temporarily I don’t wanna be reliable. Hope you get it ❤️?

Also I’ve seen some people commenting how Zoloft has lost its effectiveness and they had to keep switching meds. And how someone was even more suicidal and I’ve dealt with suicidal OCD. So I hope you get it but thank you !

No I don’t have snap sorry !! But please do tell me here love ya

@bributterfly yes!!! All day they feel so real !!! :/ I’ve had it for a year

Harm ocd is the worst! Do you ever fear saying something inappropriate?