I have been having difficulty with therapy. I get appointments but I refuse to go to them. I get nervous and terrified of what could happen, it used to be easier but now I find it difficult to join the sessions. I feel awful for letting down my therapist but I just cant figure this out.
So, ask yourself, what's your alternative? Do you want to suffer in the OCD hellhole the rest of your life or get well? What do you have to lose? Be sure your therapist is a trained OCD therapist. You'll know you have one if they use ERP as a therapy tool. The NOCD site has a lot of good ones. One other thing: don't be afraid to spill it all out to your therapist. Like priests in confessionals, they've heard it all before...
Hey Juan, I too deal with what you described. I’m in erp now, and really dread doing my exposures for fear I might actually act on my thoughts. I have a hard time accepting the thoughts, as I feel it would make me start to like them. Everyday it takes a lot to muster up the courage to do them. I know you can too. You got this!
I’ve dealt with some of the same OCD themes you mentioned in the post and I know just how scary it can be to even think of sharing those thoughts with a therapist. But like others have said, if you have a therapist who is truly dedicated to treating OCD with ERP they’ll understand that those thoughts go against your values. With ERP the goal is to find comfort in the discomfort and to accept the uncertainty of those intrusive thoughts. Yes, it’s hard work but you’re worth the time it takes to get the care you need and deserve
Yes, ERP is very scary. It's counterintuitive, because it makes you go TO the fire, instead of running away from it, which is the natural response. It makes us face our fears, and over time it works!
I feel like I’m always letting my therapist down , but I just feel so cornered when she wants me to go to group sessions ...
Is anyone here refusing to see a therapist because they’re afraid their fears will turn out to be true ?
So i was on a wait list for therapy and finally i have someone that can help me. I received a message from a therapist and i lost my shit. I started panicking and my brain is making up all sorts of terrible scenarios. For exemple, i have suicidal ocd and im terrified to potentially be suicidal. Welll my brain is telling me that the therapist will know that im suicidal and will make me go to the hospital. It makes me want to never get help because of all the scenarios. I dont know if its ocd. I want to cry, im so scared
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