Slightly freaking out

@gp Yes, ‎It may not be a lesbian, but the intrusive idea fights her convictions and makes her doubt itself. It is really strange and scary at the same time that it may actually reach sexual arousal if this intrusive idea comes to it in the middle of a group of girls and this makes OCD increase in people who suffer from

@Jennica B. Unfortunately it’s not that easy for some. For some reason, the thought makes us incredibly anxious. Lots of us have partners and lives that we WANT to continue with. You can understand how a thought/feeling out of nowhere leads to incredible anxiety.

@gp Also - at least for me. I have absolutely no issue with LGBTI or anyone. If that’s their choice, who am I to judge or say otherwise. I think sometimes this theme can look like homophobia, when it’s got nothing to do with that. It’s all about this random thought and feeling that seems to go against who we have been in the past, and our mind can’t seem to settle on anything. I’ve never had a romantic attraction to a male. The first thought came when I was 25. I’ve never felt anything but panic, fear, anxiety. And ultimately - I don’t want same sex attraction or romantic feelings. I want what I had before, opposite sex attraction an romantic feelings. Incredibly hard to resolve this happening.

@gp Yes I realized after posting this how dumb I was. lol. I mean it’s ocd so I get how it’s very hard to accept that.

@Jennica B. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to come across over assertive. It’s so hard to explain it all. Seemingly having no indication of being attracted to the same sex. You have a thought that your brain automatically says is dangerous. You interpret it as factual or meaningful. You can’t rely on your gut, or ‘deep down’ because it’s so confusing and anti-logical. Someone says - “just accept it could be true”. So hard. The fact you are on this forum tells me you’re likely battling or have battled ocd so no doubt you know just as well as everyone how devastatingly hard it is. Sorry if I came across a little strong.

@gp No you didn’t at all! I just realized after I posted that how silly it was for me to just say it’s ok! Accept who you are! I struggle daily a lot with ocd… I’ve gone through so many different themes and types of ocd. I actually am married and attracted to opposite sec so I’m surprised this theme hadn’t come up for me ever. And me religion (lds) is very against same sex attraction. I guess it’s one thing in life I just accept about myself. But I struggle HARD with ocd.

@Jennica B. - This is the nicest resolution to a conversation on the internet *ever*. You both are wonderful. Thanks for being here!