Will I be the same person after ocd recovery?

Honestly I think that we can only be better humans after this ..

But I want to feel like me again. I feel like a stranger. I hate this feeling so much

I know how it feels trust me, I was about that age when it hit me , but I think that every person with or without ocd has to go through change to grow and than to come to him/her true self. There will be some bad , but also some really good days, stray strong.

I lived with OCD for so many years, it truly was/is part of my identity. I, too, had fears of who I would be after recovery. These fears are how OCD keeps us stuck. If we spend time thinking about who we are, will be etc. we are allowing OCD to control us with uncertainty. Don't let OCD trick you. As you move towards recovery, don't be surprised by the nagging doubts that you may have. The uncertainty, and learning to live with it (and not answer OCD's questions) is part of recovery and recovery will lead you back to who you really are. It did for me.

I actually felt like I wasn't me when my OCD was at its peak, and then after treatment and retraining myself to not do compulsions, I felt so much more like myself. I had that stranger feeling when my OCD was bad but now I don't feel that way so you might feel more like yourself actually.

You're 14, so you're not who you're supposed to be yet anyway. Your values and what you love won't change. Your personality won't change. What may change is your view of worrying, your thoughts, etc. But once you recover, and you will, you'll smile and laugh again and be yourself. None of us are who we used to be before the OCD took control. But we might be a better version. I feel for you.

You will be a person who can remain functional and happy with your life despite having anxious thoughts. That I think definitely is for good

I cant tolerate change, I hate it. I'm only 14

You're telling me I will be depersonalized for the rest if my life. I don't feel like me. In sorry but I want to go back