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- 2y
Will I be the same person after ocd recovery?
I fear that I will be permanently changed if I recover from ocd and I will never be the same person again.
I fear that I will be permanently changed if I recover from ocd and I will never be the same person again.
Honestly I think that we can only be better humans after this ..
But I want to feel like me again. I feel like a stranger. I hate this feeling so much
I know how it feels trust me, I was about that age when it hit me , but I think that every person with or without ocd has to go through change to grow and than to come to him/her true self. There will be some bad , but also some really good days, stray strong.
I lived with OCD for so many years, it truly was/is part of my identity. I, too, had fears of who I would be after recovery. These fears are how OCD keeps us stuck. If we spend time thinking about who we are, will be etc. we are allowing OCD to control us with uncertainty. Don't let OCD trick you. As you move towards recovery, don't be surprised by the nagging doubts that you may have. The uncertainty, and learning to live with it (and not answer OCD's questions) is part of recovery and recovery will lead you back to who you really are. It did for me.
I actually felt like I wasn't me when my OCD was at its peak, and then after treatment and retraining myself to not do compulsions, I felt so much more like myself. I had that stranger feeling when my OCD was bad but now I don't feel that way so you might feel more like yourself actually.
You're 14, so you're not who you're supposed to be yet anyway. Your values and what you love won't change. Your personality won't change. What may change is your view of worrying, your thoughts, etc. But once you recover, and you will, you'll smile and laugh again and be yourself. None of us are who we used to be before the OCD took control. But we might be a better version. I feel for you.
You will be a person who can remain functional and happy with your life despite having anxious thoughts. That I think definitely is for good
I cant tolerate change, I hate it. I'm only 14
You're telling me I will be depersonalized for the rest if my life. I don't feel like me. In sorry but I want to go back
I feel like every person I see who has recovered from OCD doesn't have my theme. I feel like I woke up in a nightmare I can't escape and it'll never end. Do people actually get better from this?
The subject of OCD matters to the sufferer because it feels like confirmation that they are fundamentally unlovable and unwanted—as if even existence itself doesn’t want them. They feel like an error, carrying a deep sense of guilt and shame, as if they were inherently wrong. They suffer from low self-esteem and a deep internalized shame, because long ago, they were fragmented and learned a pattern of fundamental distrust—especially self-distrust. But the real trouble doesn’t come from the content of the most vile or taboo thoughts. It comes from the fact that the sufferer lacks self-love. That’s why, when you begin to walk the road to recovery, you’re taught unconditional self-acceptance—because that’s what all sufferers of OCD have in common: if you aren’t 100% sure, if there isn’t absolute certainty, the doubt will continue to attack you and your core values. It will make you doubt everything—even your own aversion to the thoughts. You have to relearn how to trust yourself—not because you accept that you might become a murderer someday—but because you enter a deep state of acceptance about who you truly are. It’s not about becoming a monster at all. It’s about making peace with what lies at the root of the fear. Making peace with the guilt. With the shame. Making peace with yourself and the person you fear you might be. Because that fear is not rooted in reality. It’s not rooted in any true desire to act. It’s rooted in your identity—specifically, in what might threaten it. That’s what confirms the belief that you are fundamentally wrong. And OCD fuels that belief by using intrusive taboo thoughts to attack your very sense of self. But then I wonder: let’s say, for example, someone fears being or becoming a sexually dangerous person—how could that person practice unconditional self-acceptance? I would never accept myself if I were to harm anyone—the thought alone makes me want to cry. I know it’s not about whether or not someone acts on the thought. It’s about the core fear underneath it. So how do you accept yourself when the thoughts—and the feelings around them—feel so completely unacceptable ?
i suffer from severe contamination ocd and I'm starting to think i will never be "normal" again I have already done 20 sessions of ERP I've also tried 6 different medications so far The medication and ERP have so far reduced my OCD by 25-35% but i remain very limited and far from "normal". have any of you who also suffered from severe contamination/disgust OCD managed to recover fully and have a normal life? is it even possible for someone like me to ever have a normal life again after 7+ years of severe contamination OCD?
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