Username: Tee10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Existential OCD

Why is OCD so confusing? My obsessions upset me so much because the truth about them is quite concerning and depressing to me. So how is treating OCD going to help me when it feels like a REAL problem to me. What if I am never able to accept the uncertainty of my issues. It doesn’t even feel like an OCD problem to me…it feels like a reality problem. I’m not happy with reality and the truths about existence, so of course it’s going to make me sad. I guess it’s just my own mind though. My concerns and thoughts are REAL. If I could go back to not thinking about these certain things, my whole perception on life, myself, reality as a whole would be fine. I feel like people tell me it’s OCD but I don’t agree..yet I don’t actually know what the real problem is. What if I can’t accept reality? It’s such a terrifying feeling to have. I feel so crazy.

Username: Dee88Dee88

Date posted: 1y ago

I know- it’s very scary- but a lot of the questioning if something is ocd- is often ocd playing tricks on our us. With ocd I often feel like my brain is showing me something and I HAVE to pay attention but really, we don’t. With really tricky thoughts I think it’s best to operate under the idea of. Do I want to get better? Yes. Am I willing to treat this as ocd even if it might not be to get better? Yes. And then proceed with ERP therapy- knowing that any time your brain says ‘this isn’t ocd’ we treat it as our ocd brain trying to trick us. ❤️

Username: Tee10Tee10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Dee88 Makes sense. I really don’t like how on some days I’m understanding and accepting. And other days I’m just completely lost and confused. It’s like nothing makes sense.

Username: r.achelldr.achelld

Date posted: 1y ago

That’s what OCD does best— makes anything and everything seem like the realest of problems. It attaches genuine fear, your bodies fight or flight instinct, to whatever it wants. I know it seems VERY real, and that the possibility that you may never accept this is causing distress. BUT! This is your OCD playing tricks on you- telling you ‘you may never get better.’ This overwhelming panic in this very moment will pass, and pushing through the uncomfortable moments will allow you to see more clarity on how to accept uncertainty. Wishing you only the best of luck, you’re awesome !! :)

Username: Tee10Tee10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@r.achelld Thank you so much. That’s what I miss… CLARITY. I get so down because I think of the old me. Things made sense, everything was clear. I was confident in all of my thoughts, opinions, feelings, beliefs, perspectives. And now it’s all just… mush.

Username: Tee10Tee10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Another horrible question my OCD asks is “if this is just all in your head and BS, then how are your happy feelings real if those are all in your head too?”

Username: Ihateocd72Ihateocd72

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I have this exact issue as well.

Username: Tee10Tee10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Peaches1127 I’m sorry. Its so difficult and confusing. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

Username: Ihateocd72Ihateocd72

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Tee10 me either. Existential stuff mixed with suicidal ocd is the literal worst….like Omg. I wouldn’t wish this on the devil himself.

Username: Tee10Tee10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Peaches1127 I deal with the same themes. I feel like a lot of people who have experienced an existential crisis have feelings of hopelessness but OCD just makes it so much worse.

Username: Ihateocd72Ihateocd72

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Tee10 right. I don’t want to trigger you but the ones I dislike the most are “you don’t want to exist.” Or “you want to die and are uncomfortable being alive” brought on by the intense unwanted feeling of wanting to die :) so then I believe it and don’t know what to do.

Username: Tee10Tee10

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Peaches1127 Oh yes that’s so very scary ☹️

Username: DimitrisH

Date posted: 23w ago

Existential ocd?

Does anyone had or have the existential fear of our brain functions. I have so much hyperawareness in my thoughts, I focus all the time in my feelings and my intentions in order to check if I am strange or not and if I have control of my actions. I do psychotherapy 4 years and I thought I was fine. But this June I had a derealization episode(or ocd) , after that a depersonalization episode (or ocd) and after that I have obsessions about our existence and that every aspect in our lives has to do with our brain and for some reason these thoughts scary me. I know that at some point is ocd but I am very confused why this thoughts scary me so much. I observe others and I am curious how it's possible not to think about that and this make it worse . I am so anxious because obviously we are our brain ,I know that and brain has to do with everything,but I don't know why it make me anxious and if it's possible to live without these thoughts. I do many compulsion but my biggest is to figure out if I have compulsion in order to figure out if my thoughts is ocd or delusions. It's so real and these thoughts really bother me. Any other with same experience?

Username: lunalady

Date posted: 20w ago

Only Conscious Person Obsession

Currently obsessing over me being the only “real” or conscious person in the world, and that everyone I love isn’t actually real. I know deep down that this is ocd, but I feel like by not ruminating I’m just ignoring the fear (which feels so real and scary). Has anyone experienced anything similar and how did you get out of this worry? Trying not to seek reassurance as it’s one of my compulsions, but I’m very distressed.

Username: Asiul79

Date posted: 19w ago

Existential ocd and will I go crazy?

I think that basically the thought right now is a fear of being alone both physically/literally and philosophically. It feels like an excess of awareness that I am an individual, I am me and only her, always and forever. And who am I? Can I trust myself? Am I 'trapped' inside myself? Anyway, a lot of thoughts about self-worth and identity. Then I get scared of not being able to trust myself, of depending on myself to do things from the most basic like brushing my teeth to, I don't know, working and supporting myself, controlling myself, etc... and then I feel scared of going crazy because I don't think these thoughts are normal and that makes me feel even more alone, even less connected to others.

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