Someone shut up my brain
- Date posted
- 5y ago
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
You probably get other reactions like depression or guilt. Also, I know for me that even when the original obsession stops causing as much anxiety that the things I’ve been avoiding still do. It’s all part of the process though! Over time, anxiety diminishes. Then your brain waits to see if it can find a way back in or if you’re really sticking to your OCD recovery. In time, you should see less intrusive thoughts, but be patient. It’s not immediate.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y ago
Hi, maybe this helps.. for me in the first 8 months to a year when that theme started - full blown panic, obsessions 24/7 no time to rest at all not even in my literal dreams. Now the thoughts and the anxiety diminished a bit but instead I noticed I am getting more and more a depressed mood. I sort of think of it as the time where the backdoor spikes start to hit you. When I finally had a therapy place I told my therapist about my worries about not having the anxiety I used to have and instead just feeling down. She told me that it's a quite normal process for OCD. She often notices that OCD and Depression go hand in hand but in the beginning when the thoughts are there in such an intense state there is simply no room to feel sad and guilty like pureolife said because your in panic mode all the time. What I am trying to say is that it's a long process and it's important to have someone by your side who can help you to guide you through this. Best wishes!
BDDBDD
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- 5y ago
Thanks. That really helps Ruthi. That describes very closely to the other things I am experiencing as I recover too. That really makes a lot sense. Really, thank you for sharing that!!
BDDBDD
- Date posted
- 5y ago
And it gets into my dreams too. And I had not found anything that supported that. But I knew it was true because it was happening to me.
BDDBDD
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- 5y ago
And thank you pureoflife too! Thanks for sharing and helping.
BDDBDD
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- 5y ago
I get anxious wondering where the intrusive thoughts went! Ain’t that some bullshit. Of course that gets a little something going again usually. And yes, if I’m calm and I really think about it, it’s like brain searches for anything that might possibly be left. I’ve only been doing treatment for 5-6 months so I’m new to this.
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- 8w ago
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Mt2019
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- 4w ago
Question about HOCD
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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