Someone shut up my brain
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- 6y
pureolifepureolife
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- 6y
You probably get other reactions like depression or guilt. Also, I know for me that even when the original obsession stops causing as much anxiety that the things I’ve been avoiding still do. It’s all part of the process though! Over time, anxiety diminishes. Then your brain waits to see if it can find a way back in or if you’re really sticking to your OCD recovery. In time, you should see less intrusive thoughts, but be patient. It’s not immediate.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 6y
Hi, maybe this helps.. for me in the first 8 months to a year when that theme started - full blown panic, obsessions 24/7 no time to rest at all not even in my literal dreams. Now the thoughts and the anxiety diminished a bit but instead I noticed I am getting more and more a depressed mood. I sort of think of it as the time where the backdoor spikes start to hit you. When I finally had a therapy place I told my therapist about my worries about not having the anxiety I used to have and instead just feeling down. She told me that it's a quite normal process for OCD. She often notices that OCD and Depression go hand in hand but in the beginning when the thoughts are there in such an intense state there is simply no room to feel sad and guilty like pureolife said because your in panic mode all the time. What I am trying to say is that it's a long process and it's important to have someone by your side who can help you to guide you through this. Best wishes!
BDDBDD
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Thanks. That really helps Ruthi. That describes very closely to the other things I am experiencing as I recover too. That really makes a lot sense. Really, thank you for sharing that!!
BDDBDD
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And it gets into my dreams too. And I had not found anything that supported that. But I knew it was true because it was happening to me.
BDDBDD
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- 6y
And thank you pureoflife too! Thanks for sharing and helping.
BDDBDD
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- 6y
I get anxious wondering where the intrusive thoughts went! Ain’t that some bullshit. Of course that gets a little something going again usually. And yes, if I’m calm and I really think about it, it’s like brain searches for anything that might possibly be left. I’ve only been doing treatment for 5-6 months so I’m new to this.
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- 22w
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