Images/scenes keep popping up in my head of me and my dog TONGUE KISSING. And the more i try and stop it it won’t, but at the same time it felt like those were my thoughts. And now it feels like that’s what I want, like I wanna do that w my dog. I’m so scared and don’t even wanna be near her. I’m like crying because of this,I’m so scared I’ll act on this thought/urge. And I really don’t know if it’s intrusive or me. Im so scared.
Bruce, are you working with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP yet?
@Steven55! No, im not working with a therapist at all. I really want to but where I live there isn’t much people in general. I tried emailing nocd, but I did mention that I’m 14 so legally they can’t find a therapist for me.
@bruceWayne1 - I know you're 14. Weren't you going to talk to your parents, so they can get the ball rolling for you?
@Steven55! I talked to my mom, she did seem ok with the idea of me wanting a therapist. But she said where we live it’ll be very hard to find a good therapist for me. Which I understand, where we live there’s a very low population. I tried using that therapy website thing where u can see the therapists that are in ur area, I didn’t check every single one but none of them said they specialize in patients w ocd, most were like , ptsd,bpd and ect
@bruceWayne1 - Ask your mom to contact NOCD and arrange for a consultation. There's no reason why you should suffer because you're in a small town. All the NOCD therapists work with patients via Zoom. They are very effective. It's just like sitting in a doctor's office. Promise me you'll talk to her? I don't want you to go through what I went through when I was young. No one knew much about OCD, and certainly not how to treat it. I didn't get effective therapy until I found NOCD a few years ago, and I'll be 68 next year! You don't want to go through life like I did, especially since NOCD is an effective alternative.
@Steven55! Alright !! I’ll try. Thank you so much.
@Steven55! And Im sorry u had to suffer for so many years ,I hope you’re doing a lot better!
@bruceWayne1 - I am greatly recovered, thanks to the therapist I found on NOCD. Let's get you on the road to recovery now, so you can have a peaceful, mentally healthy life!
@Steven55! My mom had a call with someone in NOCD yesterday, it was too expensive , and our insurance doesn’t cover it. I’m really upset , I thought I could finally get help. The urges and feelings and thoughts are getting worse , I really really hate it😞
@bruceWayne1 - I'm so sorry to hear this, Bruce. There are other online OCD therapy practices available. Maybe one of they take your mom's insurance. I'll look around for you.
@Steven55! Thank you!
@Steven55! - Ask your mom to check out betterhelp.com and on-linetherapy.com I don't know what kind of insurance she has, but maybe they can help. She can also access the International OCD Foundation website check out what therapists are available in your area. I'll keep looking.
Alright! I’ll tell her when I get the chance, thank you so much!
I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
I posted about this a couple days ago, about a dog chewing a ball while laying in my lap and it was giving me a physical sensation down there that technically felt good because it was right there. I keep replaying the moment in my head as a compulsion and trying to figure it out and I won’t stop until it feels right. I feel like I would know 100% if I indulged in it and let it feel good so I shouldn’t even be questioning if I did do that bc idk if I did. I remember looking down at the dog and realizing that everytime he bit the ball and moved his forward is when it would feel good for me. And while I was noticing that, I can’t help but think back, was that me just recognizing or allowing it to happen or both??? What does that say about me if I allowed myself to indulge in the feeling.
i’ve already posted about this before but i keep thinking about it. i was sitting next to a dog and it was laying on its back laying face away from me. i kept getting intrusive thoughts about touching the dog inappropriately. and i was petting the dog to prove to myself that i wouldn’t. i remember i was leaning on the dog. then he kicked me with his back legs three times. i also was rotating my shoulder cause it pops and cracks when i do and i was trying to relieve it. i think i touched the dog and on purpose too, because thoughts were going through my head. after the dog kicked me i sat there for a second just pure panic and i ran to the bathroom, just crying non stop. i dont think i deserve to cry tho. i think my life is a over. the more i try to remember the more scary thoughts of what could’ve happened pop up. i’m just in denial and i want to be sent to a mental hospital.
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