- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
ROCD, Partner “flaws”
For the life of me I cannot stop ruminating. My fiancé shaved a few days ago, and I’ve maybe seen him beardless once in our relationship prior, but my mind on repeat keeps telling me “he’s ugly without a beard” “this angle makes him ugly” “look how weird this one tooth is” and it’s really irritating. My compulsion is to confess. Which I know is unproductive in many ways, in addition to just being kind of mean and selfish. I’ve already confessed twice and immediately regretted it, even though he accepted my apology. I’m extra stressed and unhappy at work which is probably adding to it. I’ve been trying to use the NRE “I don’t have to share that” but it isn’t working, my brain just keeps continuing the loop. Any tips/advice/support, is welcome. We’re getting married in a couple months and I’m so sure he’s my person, but these thoughts are just beating me down.