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This app makes me cry happy tears sometimes too (sorry for randomness)
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People who are not specialists in OCD are obviously unlikely to understand the different patterns and themes - in the same way that I wouldn't be able to identify a brain tumour because I'm not a neurologist, not everyone can identify OCD because they're not OCD specialists! I read a book called 'Pure', written by someone who was told she could be gay when she should have been diagnosed with OCD. Luckily for her, she did eventually get diagnosed. But when that one person misunderstood, it really ruined her mental state even further for quite a while. The lack of awareness of OCD is quite shocking
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I mean because what I say is always understood by at least one person
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Agreed! It’s my first day on it but so glad I’m here.
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My first psychologist told me I was depressed when if fact I have self-harm OCD. Worst thing is she fed my OCD and I was constantly anxious. Then I changed psychologist and I am so much happier. I’m getting better too.
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Sending hugs and my best wishes your way! I hope you get a better therapist too
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Thank you so much! I guess the point of therapy/psychiatrists is to make you feel better not worse right? And if it makes you feel worse something is wrong.
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Exactly. I wish I’d realised that sooner instead of wasting two-four months and money on someone that didn’t understand me
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Yes, that’s Rose Bretacher, there’s a TV show now about it! I now have been twice misdiagnosed! My therapist said it’s the highest form of exposure she wouldn’t ever make me do!
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Mm! I’ve wanted to watch that! And omg twice?! And I like your therapist.
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Yeah I had to avoid the TV show because my counsellor told me it had a lot of sexual scenes (it's essentially Rose's intrusive thoughts, acted out - really clever!). Considering I have similar intrusive thoughts to Rose & the character on the show, it would have been pretty intense for me at the time ?
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But it's an amazing book and the show is meant to be extremely well done
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Was the book a bit better? Maybe I should read it.
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Ah right... is the book better to read? Cause I have sexual intrusives and issues like that
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Yep, the book is much easier. There aren't pictures or anything so it can't get stuck as images in your head! It does describe her intrusive thoughts, but it's about how she lives with it and how she learned to recover. It's definitely worth reading if you can get it, it was really encouraging for me to read about someone struggling in the same way as I do. It made me cry when I read it, I'd never felt so understood ?
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@Dolphinkick, yep me too haha. I even cried when I first read an article about intrusive thoughts, it's just so nice to not feel alone. I guess that's why it's nice to read books about it too
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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What’s your experience on: Losing opposite gender attraction? And, False attraction to same gender? I have both and I feel like I don’t know who I am. I can’t parent or be a husband due to the mass panic and anxiety. Just wanted to know if anyone has had both and regained theirself?
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