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This app makes me cry happy tears sometimes too (sorry for randomness)
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People who are not specialists in OCD are obviously unlikely to understand the different patterns and themes - in the same way that I wouldn't be able to identify a brain tumour because I'm not a neurologist, not everyone can identify OCD because they're not OCD specialists! I read a book called 'Pure', written by someone who was told she could be gay when she should have been diagnosed with OCD. Luckily for her, she did eventually get diagnosed. But when that one person misunderstood, it really ruined her mental state even further for quite a while. The lack of awareness of OCD is quite shocking
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I mean because what I say is always understood by at least one person
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Agreed! It’s my first day on it but so glad I’m here.
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My first psychologist told me I was depressed when if fact I have self-harm OCD. Worst thing is she fed my OCD and I was constantly anxious. Then I changed psychologist and I am so much happier. I’m getting better too.
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Sending hugs and my best wishes your way! I hope you get a better therapist too
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Thank you so much! I guess the point of therapy/psychiatrists is to make you feel better not worse right? And if it makes you feel worse something is wrong.
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Exactly. I wish I’d realised that sooner instead of wasting two-four months and money on someone that didn’t understand me
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Yes, that’s Rose Bretacher, there’s a TV show now about it! I now have been twice misdiagnosed! My therapist said it’s the highest form of exposure she wouldn’t ever make me do!
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Mm! I’ve wanted to watch that! And omg twice?! And I like your therapist.
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Yeah I had to avoid the TV show because my counsellor told me it had a lot of sexual scenes (it's essentially Rose's intrusive thoughts, acted out - really clever!). Considering I have similar intrusive thoughts to Rose & the character on the show, it would have been pretty intense for me at the time ?
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But it's an amazing book and the show is meant to be extremely well done
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Was the book a bit better? Maybe I should read it.
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Ah right... is the book better to read? Cause I have sexual intrusives and issues like that
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Yep, the book is much easier. There aren't pictures or anything so it can't get stuck as images in your head! It does describe her intrusive thoughts, but it's about how she lives with it and how she learned to recover. It's definitely worth reading if you can get it, it was really encouraging for me to read about someone struggling in the same way as I do. It made me cry when I read it, I'd never felt so understood ?
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@Dolphinkick, yep me too haha. I even cried when I first read an article about intrusive thoughts, it's just so nice to not feel alone. I guess that's why it's nice to read books about it too
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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I’ve recovered from HOCD before and got my attraction and my usual actual identity back. I was recovered from end 2022- start 2025 until I got triggered UGHHH😭 My HOCD is REALLY trying to convince me and it’s SO annoying cause I genuinely don’t want these thoughts. I know I naturally like men and always have done so. I can’t wait for my first therapy session in two days Omg! I need your advice, not necessarily reassurance, but more advice? My HOCD is throwing random “proof” I did/ saw as a child in my face, which back then had no meaning in my life and I continued to live a perfectly heterosexual life. I’ve educated myself about arousal non concordance / child’s play, but it still doesn’t remove the HOCD. I’ve read therapists great explanations on how it’s not a sexuality issue, BUT ITS AN OCD BRAIN ISSUE. So basically I’ve been straight and i will die as straight. But my ocd is still continuing with the intrusive thoughts/flashbacks. I’ve had some moments where I haven’t done as many compulsions and had less anxiety but still had those damn thoughts and I DO NOT want those damn thoughts. I have so much proof and factual/logical explanations but HOCD is still continuing to thrive. I absolutely hate this and I feel so alone. I wish there was a reset button cause I don’t want these thoughts to happen. I want a man and I stand by that. How do y’all deal with these situations? Cause sitting with the thoughts is clearly not helping.
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