Existential OCD feel hard today

Do anyone who think about purpose of life, death etc.. also have this urge to do things that u will not regret after? Like there is ocd telling you to « go don’t waste your time »? Cause rn I’m trying to take rest from those 5 crazy days I’ve spent thinking about life and going crazy. But now when I’m with my mother, existential ocd show me that i want to spend more time, simple time with my mother. But I’m the type of person who is influenced by his environment, like since those 5 days I’ve change my mind from « I want my own apartment because I want to live my life by my own » to « we will die one day, I have to love my family right now. » but take time with them also give you intrusive thoughts with.. urge telling you you’re wasting time and you will regret after.. it’s so hard why why why, I have so much derealization since those 5 days.. and I’m tired but EVEN SLEEP is scary.. how do I end this.. how

Dee C

Date posted: 2y

Sorry you’re going through this. I can relate. From time to time I catch myself going down the OCD rabbit hole. When I do, I give myself some compassion and accept the uncertainty (maybe, maybe not). Sometimes I may practice some mindfulness meditation. Choosing instead not to engage with the OCD thoughts but watch them float on. Hope this helps!!!

Lightning

Date posted: 2y

@Dee C Thank you so much! Knowing that you’re not alone sometimes makes the big difference.. also you’re right I have to accept uncertainty, but existential ocd is the one who can in fact can’t be answered at all. Even if I want to reassure myself, its never enough cause this thought is a way bigger than any other ones. But I will try your advices, thank you so much again!

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Date posted: 2y

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Lightning

Date posted: 2y

@BlueMountain25 How do you always choose the rights words.. thank you so much it makes me feel better. It’s hard to be always worried about things that aren’t to be, but I will try to continue to do what with or without them. Also I think maybe I should tell my doctor asap that existential ocd is killing me rn cause I know i can’t do it alone.. but it’s hard. Thanks again, I feel sad that I can help you in return but really you’re a big help. <3

Dee C

Date posted: 2y

@Lightning Knowing that this is my OCD, I choose not to engage with or judge my OCD thoughts and watch them float on. Inherently, some of these existential questions have no answers. That being the case, I accept the uncertainty that I (or anyone else) do not know & rather than doing compulsions, I pass it on to my higher power and move forward living life in accordance with my values - My purpose in life is to have peace with myself and those around me. Hope this helps and know that you are not alone.

mossy123

Date posted: 22w

Existential ocd

So this past week I’ve had a really bad ocd spiral. I can’t stop thinking about death and what happens after. Because of this, I’ve felt no motivation to get out of bed. I don’t know if it’s burnout from school, depression, or just existential ocd. I can’t focus on the present,and I feel like I’m in a dream like state. I went through a similar time a few years ago, and was able to get out of it. Even if I do accept that death is inevitable, how do I get motivation to do anything when I know it won’t matter in the end? Any tips?

user23456789

Date posted: 19w

Existential OCD

Hey guys so I’m new here and just recently started struggling with some health ocd and thinking I had a brain tumor but it’s taken a turn for the worse and become this existential ocd where I’m questioning quite literally everything in my life, the purpose of being here and stuff. I just started meds yesterday, which is scary for me cause I’ve never been on them before. I keep having thoughts like, why does everything feel like a blur, what’s the meaning of this and I wake up every day with just existential dread. I’ve been having very vivid dreams that make dreaming and reality confusing I also am scared cause I’m dealing with some DP/DR as well. I just wish my life could go back to a few months ago before I knew all of this was possible. I guess I’m just writing this too get it off my chest and see if any of you all have gone through something similar and made it out okay?

Strezzy

Date posted: 12w

Existential OCD - anyone else relate?

My OCD has bounced around to a lot of different topics but my current spiral has been focused on existential dread - I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about my loved ones dying and not existing and about my own death and not existing anymore. OCD is trying to get me to find certainty in what happens after we die… and unfortunately I will NEVER be able to find certainty around this. This spiral started after the death of my beloved cat and then the almost death of my dog a week later. I think OCD attached to this idea that everyone and everything I love is going to die and I need to prepare myself for it and somehow KNOW what happens when someone dies. It’s panic inducing and really hard for me to sit with vs other OCD themes Ive had related to health, moral/hyper responsibility, etc. Anyone have this type of obsession around death of loved ones and how did you combat the intrusive thoughts and deal with the mental compulsions (rumination, avoidance, etc)?

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