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It's as if... the medication itself has become the compulsion.
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It can be, maybe you’re so used to relying on your tablets to make you feel better when you’re not feeling good. Fighting it without medication can be better. I know you can get through this. I have also been going through hocd. I’m getting through it. I also went the harm ocd. I had those thoughts as well. But I started to realize how much I would never want to do anything like that. And how my mind was just playing tricks on me. It helps to realize those things. But to answer your question. Yes I think the tables might be making things harder for you when you are off them.
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Contact your therapist or a 24 hour councilor. OCD is just a definition of mind tricks. So what if we think girls are attractive, it's okay to think other people are attractive. Maybe try to get olazopine for intrusive thoughts or diazepam if you're having a really bad day, but they do make you sleepy, I had them in hospital and it helped me calm down and sleep. Clearly you are not ready to go off your anti depressants just yet. It's more than likely that's why your head is a mess like this
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thank you! ? the tablets do help though as i also have generalised anxiety disorder and depression.
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