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- Date posted
- 2y
relatable?
does anyone else have ZERO libido or get immense anxiety when their partner tries to initiate intimacy because of SOOCD or ROCD?
does anyone else have ZERO libido or get immense anxiety when their partner tries to initiate intimacy because of SOOCD or ROCD?
I feel this way whenever a guy shows interest in me bc I get so fixated on not being attracted to men more than anything else. It ruins the whole experience!
@blazed Omg meeee!!!!!
YEP! Can relate 100000%
if i dont get immediately grossed out or overwhelmed i always end up crying. i've kinda just had to step back from sexuality as a whole
@erikataylor Right there with ya. You’re not alone
So can ocd make it harder to find attraction to guys ? I’ve just been going through this thing where like I know a guy is attractive but like I can’t feel it. If that makes sense ?
@jocd Okay thank you !
Whenever my gf kisses me i get a Ball in my throat Does that count?😭
@Michael F definitely
@Anonymous Then yea, I’m in the same boat. I’m not doing well currently:(
@Michael F I thought did Erp for this theme and recovered :( I’m sorry this is bothering you again
@Anonymous Oh i have, but maybe not well enough
@Michael F Did you recover??
@Anonymous I’m not sure tbh 😳😂
and my fear of failing and not being able to please will feed that, which will keep me from the experience even though I want it and I know it will be hard to get out of it unless I have the opportunity to regain trust with a girl who has patience with me
@Carlos A Not the best situation 😮💨
@Carlos A Ironically that was my original fear not being able to get my thing up and if i didn’t what did that mean?
@Carlos A I get it
@Michael F Yeah, It can actually happen to anyone and I think most men have, but when you go through what can be hocd, it's fuel for the fire.
@Carlos A Sexuality has always been weird to me tbh. Was always a trigger as young as i remember, idk how old you are but i remember this being triggering early
@Michael F 26 now, like 6 and a half y, but for me now it is a frustrated desire, being afraid of not working
@Carlos A I get it. Sorry bro. You got a friend here if needed
@Michael F we have each other on instagram lol yeah me too bro
Yup more so when I had SOOCD
@jocd It’s all about ERP and meds for me. ERP worked really well and I’m finding it’s not an issue for me right now.
This was me yesterday!! The woman I ‘m talking to was being extra flirty and it was making me SO anxious. I was so turned off because it felt like she was coming on too strong and that since I was turned off, I was going to end up hurting her. It was a terrible cycle of fear in my mind.
Yes. It’s horrible!
so damn relatable..
Unfortunately
How long have you suffered from so-ocd 🥲
Yasss!!!
I just saw my boyfriend, and even though everything was okay on the outside, inside my mind it was a storm. I kept having thoughts like: “You don’t like him.” “You’re not feeling anything.” “You’re pretending.” “You don’t care.” And then, he said something sweet — something that should’ve made me feel happy: “We should marry.” And instead of warmth, I felt anxiety. A pit in my stomach. A voice in my head saying: “You don’t want that.” “You’ll never stay with him.” “If you really loved him, you’d feel joy.” And I hate it. I hate that I’m in this state. I don’t feel connected. I don’t feel clarity. I don’t even know what I feel anymore. I just feel… numb. And the worst part? It feels like I don’t even care. But I know I do. Somewhere, beneath all the noise and panic and obsessive thoughts, I care. I want to feel close to him. I want to stop second-guessing every word, every touch, every thought. This is ROCD. It makes me question everything. It makes me feel like I’m lying — even when I’m not. It steals the moments that should feel warm and turns them into confusion. If anyone else feels this awful mix of numbness, fear, and guilt — please tell me I’m not alone.
Hi everyone, I’m a 30-year-old woman, and I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 5 years. I’ve always felt emotionally close to him — he’s caring, supportive, and we planned a future together, including having a family. I don’t want to leave him. He means so much to me. But for a while now, I’ve been obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction to him anymore. It’s not like I never felt anything — when we first met, there were butterflies, excitement, emotional connection… something real. He was never “just a friend” to me. But the physical side of the relationship feels like it’s slowly faded, and I’m panicking about what that means. I keep thinking things like: – “Maybe I chose the wrong person.” – “You can’t be in love without sexual desire.” – “If I was truly in love, I would still want him.” – “What if I’ve been lying to myself this whole time?” Sometimes my body reacts — I can feel physical closeness or even arousal — but my mind shuts down and says: “no, this isn’t right.” Other times, I feel tension, resistance, or even disgust during intimacy, and I can’t tell if that’s anxiety or if something is fundamentally wrong. What makes this even more confusing is that I truly believe that real love includes sexual attraction. For me, it’s all part of one feeling — not separate. So if the attraction is gone, does that mean the love is too? Is it possible that this is still OCD — that my mind is obsessing and disconnecting me from my real feelings? Has anyone experienced something similar? Any support would mean so much. I feel so stuck between my mind and my heart.
I’m struggling with something I’m afraid to even admit out loud. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with someone I love deeply. He’s kind, safe, and emotionally close to me — and we’ve built a life together. But I keep obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction anymore. Or maybe… I never truly did? At the beginning, I felt butterflies, excitement, connection — and I assumed that meant I was also attracted to him physically. But now, after reading so much and reflecting more deeply, I’m starting to wonder if I ever truly felt sexual desire in the way I was “supposed to.” Maybe my feelings were more about emotional longing, comfort, and romantic closeness — but not sexual chemistry. And now I don’t know what that means. OCD makes it so much worse. It constantly tells me: – “If you really loved him, you’d want him.” – “You’re leading him on.” – “What if you’re lying to yourself?” – “If you try to fix this and fail, you’ll have to leave.” I feel stuck between wanting to fight for this relationship — and being terrified that trying will just prove it’s hopeless. Has anyone experienced something like this? Can OCD really make you question something so deeply personal? And how do you move forward when even trying feels terrifying? Any thoughts or support would mean the world right now.
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