Please help I struggle with harm Ocd. It’s directed towards my son. I feel like I’m going insane. I’m scared!! I’ve been throwing up all week. I use to see a therapist but I no longer can because I don’t have the financial resources. I don’t know how to cope, I feel lost!! Any going through this? Has any gone throw this and feel ok now?
Hey! Absolutely! Harm is one of my biggest themes. Continue doing the things that you love doing, even though you’re scared. Your brain is lying to you. I struggled with harm for a while but after medication and therapy it got so much better. I promise you will be okay!
Hello! I’m sorry that you’re going through this. When I first dealt with harm OCD, I was terrified of everyone and everything. I felt like my worst fears were coming to reality and I was scared to tell anyone. I eventually told my close friends how I was feeling and they gave me a bit of an understanding that those were intrusive thoughts. I took supplements which helped a lot with my OCD thoughts/stress. Keep yourself busy (I know this is difficult when you’re clouded with those harm ocd thoughts) trust me, it gets easier. It will get easier for you but for now try to understand that these thoughts are not you. Like everyone says, you’re terrified which means that it goes out of your morals. These thoughts latches onto people you love. Like the weather, things will clear up and you’ll be in a very much better place trust!
@Anonymous I started to get slightly better, I was functioning but now I’m a mess again. What supplements did you take?
@Newuser90 I take L-Theanine pills 200 mg. I take 1 every like 12 hours. & also am going to try drinking lemon balm tea, been getting a few TikTok’s come up that it helps with stress and anxiety. :)
@Newuser90 What was really difficult for me to accept was that the process is not linear. There were days where I had fallen 3 steps back and felt hopeless. It’s been 4 months since Harm OCD but I can tell you that I used to be in a state of constant worry & anxiousness 24/7. I would pray that one day it’ll just all disappear from my head & I will feel “normal” again. I even stayed home as much as because I was scared but I had to push myself eventually to go out and expose myself to my fears little by little. I truly hope that you feel better soon and that you can wake up without any fears and worries.
@Anonymous How long did it take to notice a difference with the l-theanine pills? The constant state of free is terrible, im self isolating again. I’m Afraid to be alone at home with my son. Literally feel like I’m going insane. I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore!! I pray that you and everyone that is suffering gets through it!!
@Newuser90 The supplement done wonders for my intrusive thoughts after a few days. I understand how it feels when it comes down to being alone… it was so scary and I felt myself anxious 24/7. Yesterday, I didn’t feel scared to be alone.. i was watching tv shows to occupy myself. I wish nothing but good vibes to you, you got this!
@Anonymous Thank you to u as well and thank you for taking your time to answer questions and share your experiences!! I appreciate it!!!
Your not alone I’m going through this as well it’s the worst things ever! However we are not your thoughts! It’s so scary and distressing!
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i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
Hello everybody I just am looking for someone to talk to about my harm ocd / false memory/ sexual intrusiveness. Anyone who has healed or found ways to deal with the illness. Feels like I’m losing hope more and more everyday. I want to be okay but it’s hard living with uncertainty and unwanted urges of doing something terrible. Thanks god bless.
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