Foggy Memories

Anyone suffering from real event/false memories OCD or both have the habit to think hard about the past to check if you did nothing wrong but it’s all foggy and it leaves you very uncertain? I am currently struggling with this because I was accidentally exposed to adult content at such a young age and I am so afraid that I might have shown it to my lil sis. Like, I am so afraid to be a bad sister to her. I confess to her and she told me that it’s okay since she doesn’t remember anything and that I haven’t shown her anything inappropriate. She tells me that I have been a very good sister but I can’t shake off the feeling. Can any of you give me tips on how to forgive and/or move on from my past?

Username: Jo0Jo0

Date posted: 1y ago

If the thought/fear of having been a bad sister in the past is preventing you from being present today… have you tried accepting without looking for forgiveness that you might have been a bad sister? The only thing you can control/know is what you do with the time you have with her today, and it sounds like you do care about her a lot. That to me should weight a lot more than any foggy memories OCD brings back 💜

Username: McDuckoMcDucko

Date posted: 1y ago

You can't change the past and looking for answers will only change what OCD says you remember about the event. What needs to happen is you need to accept whatever part of the memory you know happened and accept that the fuzzier parts could have happened. We're human and we make mistakes and I'm sure your events aren't unique, people make mistakes and we need to move on from them. From here on out you need to focus on what enriches you as a person and what interests you. Do not let OCD define how you spend your day. Don't ask for reassurance, don't research anything, don't check anything, just live in the moment. Go to the gym, go explore something cool outside, make new friends, be creative, just don't let OCD stop you from realizing your goals.

Username: Yellowjacket Yellowjacket

Date posted: 1y ago

I relate to this completely. I always have fear and doubt that I have done things even when I know I haven’t and I struggle to find reassurance in my memories due to nothing seeming so sure. I always search for ways to fact check but there isn’t always something to comply. This might not be the best way but I try to distract myself, or speak to someone involved to get closure. The latter is probably the more effective option. Possibly attempting to get closure and then just trying to distract myself after the fact with something that interests me.

Username: Watermelon🍉Watermelon🍉

Date posted: 1y ago

Thank you all! Your responses really helped me ☺️

Username: letsgo

Date posted: 5y ago

TW!! POCD Please help. I’ve been doing decent lately but just need support on something that has kept me stuck. I can’t tell if this is a real memory or not, but I’m pretty sure it is. Maybe distorted. But feels so real. And I’m terrified. Last year before my huge OCD spike. So before I even knew I had OCD. I remember being around kids at work, and this girl in a skirt was on a climber on the playground and I remember looking up and you could see her underwear. I remember staring for a minute, and it was kind of like a car accident, I couldn’t look away. I remember finally coming to my senses and saying I wonder what people would think if they knew I was doing this. After that, I completely forgot about it until my spike in October and I’ve been living in a prison of regret and guilt ever since. I sometimes see that child at work still and I get a rush of anxiety and guilt. I just don’t know how to move pass this, for this reason it gives my OCD proof that I am what I fear so much. Is it possible that I was experiencing intrusive thoughts then and just didn’t care enough or realize it. I’m so broken from this. I hate what I’m going through. I hate myself if this memory is real.

POCD

Username: Rhonda1997

Date posted: 4y ago

I am 20. Around a month ago, I suddenly remembered something very bad I did when I was ten. At the time (when I was ten), I didn’t think twice about it, but ever since I remembered it, I can’t stop thinking and obsessing over it as I do not understand how I could have ever done something so bad. It really bothers me, and now I am contemplating wether or not I am a bad person. I have read many articles about this, scanned them, looked for people who have done similar things. According to them, I have past event ocd. I can understand that, but I consider what I did too bad for it to be that. Here’s what I remember of it: When I was 10, my sister was 7, and around that age we would often just walk around naked, wrestle, and etc just like kids. This is probably why I didn’t think twice about what I did. At that time, I would hump various things, not knowing what it meant. I can faintly recollect humping my sister. I do not understand why I did it, but it bothers me a lot and makes me wonder if I am a bad person. I realise it’s horrible, but I didn’t know what I was doing at the time.

Username: Coffeelover11

Date posted: 1y ago

Anyone else experience this?

Does anyone struggle with real event ocd and having to confess to their partner? I have so many regrets on things I’ve either done or thought and feel like I can’t move on or be better until I’ve been forgiven for them. Mostly things that happened a couple years ago and I don’t know why it’s all of a sudden bothering me now but it makes me feel like I’m the worst person ever. I’m even questioning how I thought or felt during that time and I’m confessing to thoughts or things I may or may not have done or thought. It’s so confusing and I feel trapped in my own head. If anyone has any tips I would appreciate it. Thank you for you time

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