Why do i feel like with hocd i look way more at girls than at boys. My eyes are just focused on girls these days i completely forgot about boys at this point. I hate it but when i see a pretty girls its like i must look while i never had that before. It makes me feel like im jusr attracted hut wont admit it. Its crazy because sometimes when guys stared at me im like why are they looking? Because i never understood but my mom said its just a guy thing they always look at girls. And now i feel like i “opened” my eyes and now i “see” the attractiveness in girls too. I hate it like now i look at pretty girls too and im like i never did this before. I dont unferstand its not like i want to be with them i just look ever since hocd. I always used to question myself like what do guys see in girls? I always thiught guys were cute snd then thought do they really feel this same warm feelings forgirls too? Like girls are boring and idk why u would be attracted to them. But now hocd come up and i try to force the feelings i felt for boys on girls and i feel like is real but it doestn feel anything like the feelings i had for boys so i just call it fake attraction towards girls. Ugh so complex

Don’t worry I’m like this too. Every since hocd, I notice every girl that walks buy. It actually also all started when I would notice I was looking at a girl, not checking her out but just looking. And that scared me. But you’re not the only one. It sucks, I used to notice every boy and call them cute or not.

i know i feel u. like i’ve always known girls were gorgeous of course we are!! but now it’s like suddenly i can’t stop staring at their breasts and butt. and before i used to notice ofc i feel like every girl does, but it was never like i wanted to go feel them or anything u know? like i would just be like “her boobs are nice i wish mine looked like those” or “that shirt really flatters her chest” or “ugh i wish my butt looked that good”. it was never like i wanted to go touch her and hook up w her none of that. now when my hocd makes me hyper aware of women’s bodies i get scared like what if before i was just blind to my attraction. but ugh i don’t even fucking desire women sexually. i think they’re pretty and all that and yeah i’ve kissed a few girls at parties being drunk and all but i’ve literally never taken it to heart. i never dwelled on it because it didn’t matter to me. i knew i liked boys.

now it just bothers me bc im like “well if u did that before u must be a lesbian or bi now” and it’s like i’ve always known it was boys not girls so like wtf HOCD

I know girl, boys fit me they used to make me soo damn happy idk what happened to all that all those feeligs towards them, the constant fantasizing and trying to get a boy to like you. Everything just went to dust

Exactly omg i can relate so much when u said like hyper aware its crazy. The butt and the boob thing too i always wish i had more cruves bc of woman that are build like that but now my mind says u do t want to look like them, u want to be with them. Im like wooow hollup where did thst even came from, why does my mind suddenly say thst while it never did before. I hate it bevaude it effects me so much. I feel gross and i feel unpure and just not myself when it happens its like no im not the girl my mind says i am, this all is not me.

Yes same! I used to just look at them to try and compare them to my body, or I’d be like “wow she have a nice butt” but never have I thought anything more than that. Ofc women have nice bodies, but I don’t wanna touch one or do anything sexual with one. I want a husband and kids and all of that. It just sucks, because I look back and I’m just like “what if I looked at them because secretly you desire to be with one?” Like wth. I hate this shit so much. Doesn’t let me rest with anything.

yes i know exactly what u guys mean. like i’ve even tried being like “okay fine i’m bisexual or i’m lesbian” just to make the thoughts shut the fuck up. and it felt so wrong and it made me even more nervous. like i was meant to want boys and that’s who i want so why does this shit haunt me

i know i know :( i wish this didn’t happen to us

If it makes you feel better I had hocd last year around this time and what I would do is I’d kiss a pillow and pretend it was a girl. It made me feel weird but overtime it helped me get over it because I knew i didn’t like jy

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So now anytime that thought comes I get out a pillow or something and get to kissing

It sucks, I used to like boys giving me attention especially the ones I liked and now Idk what’s going on.

I know i hate thatso mych i always wanted to get attention feom boys but never had but now i do but i cant feel it or something

I know but like since hocd it makes you believe the watching is more than just admiring it u know. We think it means something like being attracted tk it. But thanks for the support it does help because next time we do it we know its just because we comparing ;)

But the thought of ghat makes me sooo anxious like the thiugt that i dont like it doesnt even come up only thst im scared to do that