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- 6y
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- 6y
Don’t worry I’m like this too. Every since hocd, I notice every girl that walks buy. It actually also all started when I would notice I was looking at a girl, not checking her out but just looking. And that scared me. But you’re not the only one. It sucks, I used to notice every boy and call them cute or not.
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i know i feel u. like i’ve always known girls were gorgeous of course we are!! but now it’s like suddenly i can’t stop staring at their breasts and butt. and before i used to notice ofc i feel like every girl does, but it was never like i wanted to go feel them or anything u know? like i would just be like “her boobs are nice i wish mine looked like those” or “that shirt really flatters her chest” or “ugh i wish my butt looked that good”. it was never like i wanted to go touch her and hook up w her none of that. now when my hocd makes me hyper aware of women’s bodies i get scared like what if before i was just blind to my attraction. but ugh i don’t even fucking desire women sexually. i think they’re pretty and all that and yeah i’ve kissed a few girls at parties being drunk and all but i’ve literally never taken it to heart. i never dwelled on it because it didn’t matter to me. i knew i liked boys.
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now it just bothers me bc im like “well if u did that before u must be a lesbian or bi now” and it’s like i’ve always known it was boys not girls so like wtf HOCD
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- 6y
I know girl, boys fit me they used to make me soo damn happy idk what happened to all that all those feeligs towards them, the constant fantasizing and trying to get a boy to like you. Everything just went to dust
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Exactly omg i can relate so much when u said like hyper aware its crazy. The butt and the boob thing too i always wish i had more cruves bc of woman that are build like that but now my mind says u do t want to look like them, u want to be with them. Im like wooow hollup where did thst even came from, why does my mind suddenly say thst while it never did before. I hate it bevaude it effects me so much. I feel gross and i feel unpure and just not myself when it happens its like no im not the girl my mind says i am, this all is not me.
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Yes same! I used to just look at them to try and compare them to my body, or I’d be like “wow she have a nice butt” but never have I thought anything more than that. Ofc women have nice bodies, but I don’t wanna touch one or do anything sexual with one. I want a husband and kids and all of that. It just sucks, because I look back and I’m just like “what if I looked at them because secretly you desire to be with one?” Like wth. I hate this shit so much. Doesn’t let me rest with anything.
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- 6y
yes i know exactly what u guys mean. like i’ve even tried being like “okay fine i’m bisexual or i’m lesbian” just to make the thoughts shut the fuck up. and it felt so wrong and it made me even more nervous. like i was meant to want boys and that’s who i want so why does this shit haunt me
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- 6y
i know i know :( i wish this didn’t happen to us
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- 6y
If it makes you feel better I had hocd last year around this time and what I would do is I’d kiss a pillow and pretend it was a girl. It made me feel weird but overtime it helped me get over it because I knew i didn’t like jy
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*it
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- 6y
So now anytime that thought comes I get out a pillow or something and get to kissing
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- 6y
It sucks, I used to like boys giving me attention especially the ones I liked and now Idk what’s going on.
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I know i hate thatso mych i always wanted to get attention feom boys but never had but now i do but i cant feel it or something
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- 6y
I know but like since hocd it makes you believe the watching is more than just admiring it u know. We think it means something like being attracted tk it. But thanks for the support it does help because next time we do it we know its just because we comparing ;)
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But the thought of ghat makes me sooo anxious like the thiugt that i dont like it doesnt even come up only thst im scared to do that
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- 24w
Has anyone experienced where you love woman everything about them, even to the point where you still can get erections watching normal porn, lesbian porn etc. but you find your self still admiring a good looking man. I’ve went through the groinal responses when seeing a man but honestly after watching porn and realizing it’s not about sex it went away. On the other hand even when there’s a male and a female in a picture I can’t stop looking at the male and judging, but the minute they’re naked I’m fine and looking at the woman. I started watching porn at a very young age so I’m wondering do I only sexualize woman and admire the man so in everyday life I don’t see her as beautiful because she’s not naked ? I understand as a straight male I can still think guys are attractive but why do I constantly notice them more than women? I also can admire and see when a girl is beautiful in the face but then if a dude that’s more attractive than me pops up in staring at him. Has anyone experience this?
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- 15w
Can hocd create mental feelings or things that resemble inclinations Without a physical response?, but such as arousal and mental attraction, for example, I have so ocd and I'm afraid that I might like women.So, in the last period, when I look at photos of girls, especially beautiful ones, I feel something strange or attracted,sometimes their bodies.And I'm confused as to what that might mean, it's like sexual orientation, is this from me or OCD produced by it?'The feeling is like the feeling of discovering new inclinations and this breaks me, I just want to reconcile with myself in any sexual orientation or identity, but I just can't feel comfortable and reconcile with the fact that I may like women or it may happen in the future.And I have these feelings that telling me messing around the girls would be fun, and I feel something like desire, but I never come to terms with this.. I'm going to be 15 years old, I know, I'm not supposed to think like that, I don't have the right to determine who I am now because im young, and I shouldn't continue to dream of marrying a man..My mind keeps reminding me of the fact that I'm a teenager and the likelihood that everything will change is high, but right now, I'm not asking for anything but rest.I want to love myself and reconcile with her.
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hi guys i added to list. i’m freaking out i just need some help. signs of comphet (comphet is when lesbians who don’t know it and just follow norms and believe there straight) ive felt: “I never felt anything when kissing boys and totally thought that was normal… I talk to men, go on dates, but I think it’s to keep my life ‘interesting’ and have something to talk about with friends.” • lack of deep, natural emotional connection • • talking about my boyfriend to other people made me feel “cool”, “worthy”, “interesting” and felt like a way to prove myself • being able to clearly articulate all the reasons I liked a guy crush/my boyfriend (he’s smart, funny, kind, handsome, etc) whereas with a girl crush I can’t exactly put my finger on why I like them but I’m just naturally drawn to them • never missing my exes or feeling heartbroken about them (i would feel sad from being lonely and no longer having that daily routine of having someone to talk to, but didn’t necessarily miss that specific person) • i was always very hesitant about “becoming official” with a guy i would be seeing and would make him wait before deciding to date because i “didn’t know if i really liked him or not” only being aroused by their the man’s desire for me • Thinking I was cooler than other girls because I didn't spend any time thinking about how cute boys were or being "boy-crazy". I was under the impression for a while that I must just be less shallow than other people because I didn't really take looks into account when I had a crush on a boy, I only factored in their personality. chasing the ego boost more than emotional closeness agreed with friends or mom about someone being attractive even if you didn’t feel it—another big flag being bored, ditching serious commitment, chasing the drama again it also feels like i’m acting a lot of the time to make it more romantic cause i cringe When you fantasize about men, it is mostly just enacting a kind of narrative. More focused on movement than features- the men in your fantasies might be faceless or blank-featured or their bodies might symbolize some emotion. you might not even be in the in the fantasy, but instead another faceless woman might be. You might even imagine yourself as the man. The narrative follows the sexual script, but the details are more vague and abstract and might even shift and change throughout the fantasy. i dont care about like what guys looks like. like my sister saw a video of a guy working out and was like got damn omg gotta like that. if i saw that i would prob be like damn to try and prove something to myself but i don’t really understand what i should feel it feels like i relate to so much comphet after i read it on reddit and it doesn’t even make me want to cry and die anymore. it feels like i tolerate men or have done it for attention or because i thought it was going to happen at some point cause it was what was happening around me like sister and friends. i’m scared ill never find someone i want to marry that’s a man it feels like it’s all just comphet and i don’t want to actually be with a man the more my meds work and anxiety lessens the more the fear feels real because i can’t get myself anxious about it anymore. i can about other stuff but not this. i always told myself i don’t chase i attract. maybe thats cause i never wanted a big badly enough. maybe what im missing is a girl what if that ends up feeling more real Straight people don’t need to talk themselves into what’s hot. like during the hocd break i would try and like see what was “hot” and and be like yeah that’s hot. i also i refused to masturbate to women and not think about it because i didn’t want it to prove that i still liked it but i mean idk if that was left over hocd
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