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Username: brokengirl

Date posted: 1y ago

Religious ocd is so painful

Ok so I have a trigger word. It makes me panic. Idk why. It just does. And I was listening to music. And then this song came on. And the when the song came on, the chorus came to my head and I can’t remember excatly but I wanted to skip it bc the name of the song was close to my trigger word. So I imagened the chorus of the song being something else that had been triggering me this past month and I got into a state of panic. What if I meant it? What if I’m done for? I don’t know why, I didn’t even think clearly before singing it. I don’t meant it. This this has been scaring me for so long, why would I mean it? U know? But idk, it doesn’t feel like an intrusive thought. I think it was more of a stream of consciousness thing that I was imagining but not meaning. Don’t we all sometimes imageinf things we don’t mean? I’m so scared and tired of this. I just want my brain to shut up and I wish if I could knock myself out and forget everything. I don’t care anymore I’m so sick of this I can’t live like a normal person. I don’t know why I keep imageinf things that trigger me. :(

Username: Takezo9741Takezo9741

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD is a lying villain and it is so perfect at what it does Religious ocd really is scary. I pray to God to forgive for any trespass committed by me knowingly or unknowingly but then i fear if i am beyond forgiveness. But then God again is all forgiving but then ocd comes and tells me that i don’t deserve forgiveness. This whole loop is scary and painful. I just want to be a good god-fearing and god-loving person but i feel so lost and sinful. When i tell others about this they feel as i am worrying over nothing but these ocd themes become everything when they are on full invasion. I just want to pray to God to have mercy on my soul. I know it doesn’t help you in any way but i wanted u to know that you are not alone in this fight.

Username: Takezo9741Takezo9741

Date posted: 1y ago

And i always hope that this whole episode turns out to be a dream. And when i wake up i would be back to my pre-ocd confident self.

Username: brokengirlbrokengirl

Date posted: 1y ago

@Takezo9741 I wish the same thing too. When I have them I have this habit of punching myself bc I wish if I was dreaming. And now I have bruises on my body. I can’t even take a bath without feeling so lost. I hope you find your peace, I know your pain. Take care💕🫂

Username: brokengirlbrokengirl

Date posted: 1y ago

@iamNoraM Pinching*

Username: Have Some Chocolate 🍫Have Some Ch...

Date posted: 1y ago

You're not your Imagination neither your thoughts or feelings... So they don't really say anything about you or your beliefs... So try not to give any air to anything that your mind spits... I had really bad religious ocd, it was my worst theme, i suffered a lot... But I'm fine Now.... Remember one thing that is God Loves All regardless anything So you don't have to Fear God.

Username: brokengirlbrokengirl

Date posted: 1y ago

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 Thank you 💕 how did u get better?

Username: Have Some Chocolate 🍫Have Some Ch...

Date posted: 1y ago

@iamNoraM When i had this badly then i didn't know i had OCD. So then at a point I thought that let's not give much air to my thoughts cause i was fed up it was terrible and i had peace when i didn't attach much value to my thoughts. They used to come and go still. Then one fine day i got to know the problem i was dealing with named OCD. I was like this was an actual illness. I was glad that then God won't punish me for my ill thoughts. Well, you know what i realised recently that People thinks that we have to fear God or Something. But believe me God is All Loving and We don't have to fear him as We are His Childs. All you have to do is Don't attach any meaning to your thoughts or imaginations, feelings. Just let them flow like floating clouds on the sky. Don't resist or Ignore them. Cause what you resist persists. So by ignoring them they will come in your mind again and again. So just let them come and go, they will keep coming and going for a period but when they see that you're not paying much attention, they will eventually vanish one day..... So i wish it gets better for you ❤️ It will definitely cause look i had it very bad but it got better so it will get better for you too....

Username: brokengirlbrokengirl

Date posted: 1y ago

@Have Some Chocolate 🍫 Thank you! Some times I also have moments where it’s like my brain is like “if u do this that means u agree with ur thoughts” it can be the smallest things like if u breathe u agree but it’s liek, how Tf am I supposed to live if I can’t breathe. It makes me feel so guilty.

Username: Have Some Chocolate 🍫Have Some Ch...

Date posted: 1y ago

@iamNoraM It happens with me too... Like if i do this then it means that... If i don't do this then it means that... These are silly silly things you know.... But still i feel like my actions would say something about me... Well yours is worse... Even breathing cause problem... Don't feel guilty, OCD is an extremely evil disorder.

Username: Takezo9741Takezo9741

Date posted: 1y ago

The same thing happens to me. But stop pinching yourself sis. Anybody with sane mind would pray to god for his guidance and love. I think we ocd ‘militants’ (😁) should do the same at least.

Username: brokengirlbrokengirl

Date posted: 1y ago

@Takezo9741 Sounds so absurd, I know. Imagine if sane people were on this app reading this. 😂 the things that I read on here and I’m not surprised but at all is concerning.

Username: anthonycaronnaanthonycaronna

Date posted: 1y ago

It’s very painful for me too. I have a couple trigger words and they often come as loud thoughts. Like a bullhorn yelling in my mind. It scares me to death. I know that’s not God, because God would never make me scared, anxious or confused. He is with all of us and is fighting our battles for us. I have many episodes where I have panic attacks, even about a testimony. It happens all the time, it’s very hard. Yet in my heart I know what’s true because I felt it. God bless🙏

Username: brokengirlbrokengirl

Date posted: 1y ago

@anthonycaronna Know what’s in ur heart. God knows ur heart. God bless you💕🫂

Username: anthonycaronnaanthonycaronna

Date posted: 1y ago

@iamNoraM Thank you! You too as well🙏❤️

Username: Suk3tchi

Date posted: 1y ago

Religious OCD

When I pray, sometimes I get certain thoughts that either curse God out of the blue or just have gross thoughts that aren’t my own. According to my religion, cursing God and meaning it is an unforgivable sin , and I am scared that I will go to hell which is my absolute worst fear. I’ve talked to my boyfriend about it and he says it’s not how I truly feel, but I feel so scared when it happens often when I can’t help it. I don’t know how to stop this since the more I think about it the worse the thoughts get.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 41w ago

Scrupulosity

I put a trigger warning on this for people who have scrupulosity just in case. I have religious OCD and it is really hard to go through. It goes “f you Jesus” “sorry God I didn’t mean that I love you” “f the devil I love Jesus” “I hate the devil I love Jesus” “I love the devil” “no that’s not true I’m sorry God I didn’t mean that” “f you Satan” in my head all day. And then I’ll be listening to the radio and listening to KLove (which is a Christian radio station) and I’ll have what I call contradictory thoughts which is when one or many of my thoughts contradicts the truth of God. Because it will be that Jordan Feliz song and he’ll say “the king is alive” and my brain will say “no he isn’t” and it will send me into an annoyed spiral. “Yes He is I’m sorry Jesus I know you’re alive”. If anyone else goes through something similar to this please let me know so I can feel less alone.

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 30w ago

Religious OCD

Does anyone feel they say/think there blasphemous intrusive thoughts on purpose? Sometimes I feel like I say them but i reject that! I don’t want to think these thoughts! u would never say them out loud! Apart of me thinks since I thought stop a lot and thought replace a lot thats when it’s coming. I start thinking "don’t think it, don’t think it". I’ll start rejecting the other thoughts but mid way they start going to God & Jesus! Or I’ll feel cursing thoughts coming and I’ll say f OCD or f these lies then it’ll go over to God & Jesus! Then you just end of thinking it. Idk if my OCD is wanting me to think “oh since you thought it you said”. Like Thought Action type thing. Does anyone else go through this? It hurts. i love God & Jesus so much and to think "what if i thought this or said it in my mind on purpose!" any advice?

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