I don’t know what’s happened to me

Lately my OCD has seemingly latched onto specific people. The person of subject changes continuously but this has been going on everyday for the past 2 months. I get intrusive images of this person in my head, followed by groinals (the images aren’t even always sexual) but sometimes I get weird sensations throughout my body aswell and I’m just in a constant state of discomfort. I feel like I’ve literally lost my mind, like I should be in an insane asylum or something. I love my girlfriend so much, I’ve always been so comfortable in my sexuality and content with my life… But ever since this anxiety and ocd resurfaced in May I’ve just felt like I can focus on nothing else. I’m tired, I’m frustrated and above all I’m confused as to what the hell is happening to me… Im so disgusted and ashamed of myself for having these thoughts and images plague my mind followed my strong groinal feelings that are immensely uncomfortable.

Dreamer2343

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

You are not alone. I struggle with some of these things in a different way, but just remember your brain reacts to the the sexual content, not necessarily what you’re attracted to. The more you pay no attention to “down there,” the more the feeling will subside and you’ll feel more normal 💕😁

Sasquatch1

Date posted: 2y

@Dreamer2343 Yeah that’s a good point. But it’s strange as sometimes the thoughts aren’t even sexual, it can sometimes be just an image of a person… And these days the groinal feelings are 24/7 (not even slightly joking). Thank you for the advice, it’s much appreciated :)

Dreamer2343

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Sasquatch1 You’re welcome. That’s interesting. Sometimes what happens is you’re thinking about a person or seeing an image of a person, but also focusing inadvertently to see if your body will respond and thus, a response happens 😂 I hope this also helps.

jdd

Date posted: 2y

@Sasquatch1 That happens to me all the time. Like I'm recalling them or something, and I apparently now only remember men from movies I've seen somehow and get the groinals with varying degree too. But the sexual thoughts are the worst.

Dreamer2343

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@jdd Yes they are. I feel you on that one.

sscc

Date posted: 2y

I can relate to this a lot. Some of mine are sexual, harmful, but sometimes just a image. I get weird sensations in my body too that cause me to freak out and think I’m attracted or want to do something with that person even tho I am very happy with my relationship for over 4 years

Liz.beth ☁️

Date posted: 2y

So even in a relationship, you think of other people sexual or having sex with other people in a relationship?..

sscc

Date posted: 2y

@Liz.beth ☁️ No. It’s unwanted thoughts that bother me ans make me feel uncomfortable

sscc

Date posted: 2y

@Liz.beth ☁️ How does that even make sense with what I said lol

sscc

Date posted: 2y

@Liz.beth ☁️ It’s my brain tricking me and having unwanted thoughts.So when the unwanted thoughts happen my head and causes me to go into a spiral and it makes me think something when it’s not true. Do you get what I’m saying

Liz.beth ☁️

Date posted: 2y

@sscc Guess I misunderstood 🙃 but ya know just a question, that's what this whole thing is

sscc

Date posted: 2y

@Liz.beth ☁️ Yea it’s ok. It’s imbaressing to talk about but other people go thru the same thing

Liz.beth ☁️

Date posted: 2y

@sscc Yea no I agree, I go thru it too

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